Expensive, Painful, Ugly Regret - New York, NY

I was skeptical about joining this blog because I am so embarrassed. I am use to hiding my tattoo instead of showing it and talking about it. I was 19, head over heels and my soon to be husband got my name tattooed on his neck. So what do I do in return.. get his name tattooed on my boob/chest ofcourse. It's close to my heart, I'm in love yea! 5 years later, no! The name looked great, I would get compliments and everything. Then the relationship went sour and I saw that he got my name covered up, so what did I do.. yup, got a little twisted one night and got his name covered up. Except, my cover up turned out like [RS bleep] and his actually looked ok. Just days after getting the cover up I started regretting it. I wanted it as small as possible, so to cover the name it had to be extremely dark ugh I wish I knew that. If your thinking about getting a cover up please do your research. 8 months later and extensive research on laser tattoo removal, I finally found someone to start with (because I was so scared I would mess it up even worse) Dr. Jessica krant in nyc. She has the picosure Machine and her reviews were excellent. I went to my first treatment last week and I am extremely nervous and anxious to see the results. I know it will take a long time because the tattoo is so dark and I'm west Indian so my skin is Brown (skin type iv) the darker the skin the more challenging the removal. I was told there was a chance I could lose all my skin color where the tattoo is being removed. And it could come back or it could disappear forever. I can't explain how much regret I feel for doing such s stupid thing. I am constantly beating myself up over it. I have had to change my wardrobe. I can no longer show cleavage, not even a little bit. Hopefully this picosure removal works because I am so tired of hiding this ugly tattoo. I just want it gone forever!

There Is a little bit of fading. I hope to see more fading in the coming weeks.

I still don't see much fading... I forget this is a long process and I need to be patient.