Have Finally Decided to Get Surgery! - New York, NY

Ugh...i was just starting to feel okay about my nose until i realized how crooked it is. Im really upset. First of all....its really wide from the front....i KNOWWW its only 3 weeks post-op and blah blah but even the changes that ive seen in all of your pics arent THAT drastic...its tsill basically the same shape it just becomes a bit more refined over time.

But okay...with that aside...i used to have a "good" side and a "bad" side...and now ive realize because of the crookedness of my nose that my bad side has become my good side and vice versa. My nose is almost shaped like a C from the front...obviously not THAT crooked but if you look closely it is REALLY not straight....ESPECIALLY when i smile. Im really really upset about it and i may be needing revisional surgery....which i REALLY did not want. Like i said im NOT a perfectionist and in no way did i expect this surgery to come out perfect. Like my nostrils are crooked and one is bigger than the other but i dont even care....and i was almost going to just be okay with the width of my current nose but now that i realized how crooked it is im just soo upset. When i e-mailed the doctor last week he told me everything was swelling and to send him pics in 2 weeks. So im going to wait until then to send pics but it really sucks. I dont feel "sexy" when i take pics i feel like i look weird...and i know you guys are going to say you look great and blah blah but just LOOK CLOSELY at my nose...its like very obviously crooked...and wide...ugh has anybody experienced this??

Hey guys...sooo im almost 3 weeks post op (wed will make 3 weeks exactly). Ive been feeling a little better about my nose. The swelling has gone down significantly and the tip has def dropped some because i dont feel piggish from the front anymore. However, i can't say im totally content with how i look from the front...i still think my nose it too wide all around and i wish it was thinner....but when i wear makeup i feel a lot better. I havent posted any makeup pics because i feel like my no makeup pics are the REAL nose haha so i want you guys to be able to get a more accurate idea of what my nose looks like. But next time i go out i will take a makeup shot just so you see the difference.

I do think it was a lot of swelling but i think i have to accept that my nose wont be as thin as i imagine it would be...but im starting to look a lot more like my old self from the front so im happier than i was. If the swelling between my eyes goes down even more ill def be pleased...but overall im feeling better.

A couple of things i wanted to mention....I still dont really have my sense of smell back....is that normal? I can smell very strong scents like food cooking or perfume but overall when i breathe my nose feels numb? not numb but kind of like when you spray the nasal spray up your nose....you can breathe in and out but your sense of smell really diminishes. How long did it take most of you guys to start smelling normally again?

Also...When i emailed my doctor last week i had mentioned to him i feel like a weird bubble inside my one nostril. I cant tell if i could pop it or not bc i cant realy reach it but its on the inside of one of my nostrils like on the wall in between both nostrils. Its soft to the touch but it hasnt gotten smaller. My doctor just said "you're still very swollen so you will have bubbles and all that" but maybe i didnt describe it well enough. All i could find by searching on the internet was stuff about scar tissue....so im wondering if that may be it? Anybody have any similar issues? Anything I can do to make it go down or do i just leave it alone?

Ive also included 2 pics i just took earlier today just so you guys can see...i look awful haha. I never post pics with no makeup.

Okay so today is my first day back to work....i felt a bit uneasy coming in. I still feel i look really awkward from the front. Its strange because I used to only like to talk to people when they could see my front view and I would try to never turn my head...and now I seem to only feel comfortable talking to people from an angle because I feel like my nose is so wide I look like a reptile. My bruising is pretty much gone but under my eyes and all around my nose is still sore to the touch and I still can't smile without looking really weird.

I also wanted to thank all of you for your supportive comments and messages I got after my last post. A few of you sent me updates from right after surgery to months after and I did see a big difference. I guess its just hard when you see yourself in the mirror and see a different face. Plus the area between my eyebrows (which is the part I am most concerned with lately) feels hard on the sides. It feels like its the bone...so thats why it makes me feel like it won't go down too much more since bone doesn't fluctuate in size.

Also...when I was cleaning out my nose one side hurt a little bit more than the other and when i felt inside I could feel a weird little bump inside my nose...felt like a soft bubble. I tried to google it but all I could come up with is that it might be scar tissue. Has anybody else experienced this? Is there anything I could do to help break it down? The only cure I read about was cortizone shots in the nose or a minor surgery...but they said you should wait till at least 10 months post op. I just really dont feel like having another surgery...but its not very comfortable inside my nose either.

Anyhow I e-mailed Dr. G this morning about my concerns regarding the bubble and the width of my nose. I'm sure he will just tell me its swelling and it will go down...but most people told me that the swelling between your eyebrows goes down the fastest and takes about 2 weeks. I haven't noticed it go down much at all and tomorrow will mark 2 weeks since my surgery....can't help to feel upset :(