Afraid Your Dream Nose Will Look Like a Nose Job Nose? - New York, NY

Hi there. Ok, so I have posted so many things here lately as my anxiety mounts and its easier to talk here than to my family/friends/fiance. I had a rhinoplasty 4 days ago (July 31, 2013). I was really on the fence about doing this, but had seen several doctors over a 10 year period. I am a pretty girl I guess, (maybe moreso in my 20's) and many people were angry that I wanted to change my nose. See, I didn't have a "honker." I had a nice nose, with a bit of a dorsal hump, and a slightly bulbous tip. All in all I liked my nose, it had a bit of character, BUT there were some angles, some photos, etc, where I felt that the nose wasn't "me." And I wanted to shear away the small parts that made it feel separate from my self. Being very very very afraid, I decided to "just do it." I gave the Dr. a photo where I liked the way my nose looked (attached "A photo where I liked my nose") and said, "can you make me look like me but in awesome lighting?

Now that I have done it, I am scared about a lot of things. I had smoked, and even though I quit I worry I will get necrosis. I worry I won't heal evenly, I worry the surgeon put the splint on crooked, I worry I should stick a Q-tip up there or I shouldn't stick a Q-tip up there. However, assuming my nose does not fall off, and that it all heals as it is meant to, my biggest fear is that I will HATE it.

I mean, gals, guys, out there. How do you plan for this? I mean, we research? I went to someone who is top rated, Park Ave, blah blah blah. But how can we ever know? And more so, how do we deal with our feelings? Did I NEED this? No. Did I Want it? Well, yes, as long as it comes out Exactly as I want! But alas, expectations.

My splint comes off in 2 days, and I am really scared. Is it possible to have a "natural" looking nose after surgery? Do you feel good about yours? AND / OR, does ANYONE ELSE notice or even care but ourselves?

I attached some photos. Would love to hear of your stories.

I HATE my nose. If I could go back in time I would have NEVER EVER done this. I have lost ALL character in my face, and, as it turns out, the hump in my nose, from the front view, was the only thing that kept me from looking like a pancake, or like a cognitvley/physically disabled person. I KNOW I have a LOT of swelling, particularly between my eyebrows which is adding to me looking like an alien. I am SO unhappy, all I want to do is hide. I did this to look Prettier. I am 35, in a bad relationship, and thought that I could maybe give myself some UMPH by fixing something that has always (I thought) been a barrier to being more attractive. I have a few events coming up I need to attend, International flights are booked, hotels paid, and one is a best friends wedding. I want to cancel everything, and wait 6 months until this F*&ker can be fixed.

I like my profile. It is a LOVLEY profile. The issue is the front view where I look flat. Maybe I should have allowed the DR to give me more definition in the tip, I mean, he gave me a little definition, and maybe that will come out once the swelling goes down.

I feel like he could have kept my bridge higher, and all of this would have been avoided.

Photos below. I have abandoned anonymity since my life is over anyway.

Ok, so I am starting to feel a bit better about my nose now that some swelling has gone down, and the initial shock has worn off. I will post pics soon. Right now I am having a lot of itching inside my nose (annoying) and found a good way to make it better. I boil water with ginger root, let it cool, then steam my sinuses for 5 - 10 mins. Immediately afterwards, I use a sterile q-tip and clean, then Aquaphor ointment, and then cover up my nostrils with gauze. Seems to really be helping. Also, I have cats, so probably best to not inhale fur and dander! Thank you all for your support, it has meant a lot because I can't be this neurotic with people who actually know me. Anyway, have a good night