39 Years Old and Finally Doing It! - New York, NY

I've been stalking RealSelf for the last 3 months lol. I've gotten tons of "wish pics" by looking at some fantastic results and have learned a lot about what to expect, the recovery process, etc... Although I had no intention of actually posting anything about myself, I figured I should because everyone's stories on this site have helped me tremendously! So here goes...

I've wanted breast implants for over 20 years. I'll be 40 this year and finally decided to do it! I had my daughter when I was very young and it took it's toll on my little 34B's. They were small, but perky...after my daughter, they were just small and saggy! I've been self conscious about this for long enough!!
Went for 2 consultations and knew from the start that Dr. Kolker was the doctor for me. His credentials and before & after pictures speak for themselves. Jillian from his office is a doll and I feel very comfortable with them. He recommended a slight lift (mastopexy) with the implants, which shocked me a bit. I mean, I know they're saggy, but they're small so how far can they go??? Dr. Kolker is completely concerned with my lasting results - not just the immediate results I'll have right after surgery. His concern is that within 2 years I'll be back for a lift anyway, because the weight of the implant and gravity will pull them down. So...slight lift it is! I'm not thrilled about having scars around the entire areola, but I'm trying to make my peace with it. I figure this will be a small price to pay for finally having pretty, perky boobs!! It's also a really good feeling to have a doctor that has your best interests at heart :)
Surgery has been scheduled for October 29th...I'm extremely impatient, so this should be an interesting couple of months. Oh, and I have to quit smoking, or he won't even touch me - he's all about safety and necrosis is scary as hell!!

My only concern is that he and I will disagree on size. He admits he is on the conservative end of breast augmentation and if I want "[RS bleep] star, stripper boobs", he's not the doctor for me!! LOL!!
Although I assured him that I do not want huge, fake looking boobs (nothing wrong with that if that's what you're into, but I'm going for the natural look), for $14000, I want to look and feel like I had SOMETHING done! I'm aware that your height, weight, breast tissue, shoulder width, etc...all play a part in how your results will look and that 350cc's (just an example) will not necessarily look the same on 2 different women. From my months of reading RealSelf posts, 400cc's kind of got stuck in my head. Then Dr. Kolker said high 200's to low 300's and I had a heart attack!! I want to end up with a very full C to a small D....I guess we'll wait until I go for my pre-surgery appointment and try on sizers. For now I'll have to do my own rice test to get a feel for these sizes.

That's it for now. Wishing all you beautiful ladies happy healing and wonderful results!! xoxo

I totally forgot to mention my stats and what I'm going for...

I'm 5'4 and 120 lbs. I'm getting silicone implants under the muscle...currently a 34B and hoping to be a very full C, or a small D. I'm still currently trying to get up the nerve to post my "before" pics...I'll definitely do it at some point before my surgery I'm sure...lol
Got my surgery confirmation yesterday, along with instructions about what medications I can & cannot take, vitamin regimens to start, foods that I can and cannot eat all leading up to the day of surgery, etc.....This is all still a bit surreal to me. 20+ years is a very long time to want something so badly & not get it (or "them" in this case - ha!) so it hasn't really sunken in yet that I'm finally doing it!

Oh and my doctor mentioned that it's likely I will need to have drains for about a week after surgery. Does anyone have any experience with this? The thought of having drains is totally freaking me out!!
Hope all of you beautiful ladies have a great day!! :)

Good morning all you beautiful Realself ladies :)
I made my rice sizers this weekend! Only one set of 300cc's, because I know I don't want anything smaller than that! I'm concerned that the lift will make me a bit smaller than I already am, and I don't want to go too small and end up with boob greed :)
Once I go for my pre-surgery appointment, I'll get to actually try on sizers, but until then I at least got an idea with the sizers. Hoping that my PS will agree to go a bit higher than 300cc's and that I'll get my desired result!! It's a lot of money to spend and I don't want to end up having to wear padded bras to get the look I want after spending all of this $$$$!!
Attaching some pics of my first attempt at sizers :)
Have a wonderful day all!