17 weeks post op- New York.

So I just gotta say I'm freaking out...about 4 days ago I got a UTI and got 5 day antibiotic. Then today I wok up with a ear infection because I wore cheap earrings last weekend. I'm gonna go to the doctors but I'm so nervous because my surgery is 11 days from now...we'll see. I'm gonna write more later about me and post before pictures, but I'm stressed. I hope they don't push my surgery back:(

I had my first baby at 19 and by c-section, I went into the doctors for a routine visit and they did a ultrasound and said he was 11lbs 8oz and I was at 40 weeks and seeing stars. I had gained about 70lbs.So they decided to deliver him c-section. When the doctor opened me up he said I was so stretched out that my uterus looked like I already had 6 kids:( On follow up visits to the doctor I asked if my stomach would go back in...he said no matter how many sit-ups you do it won't. So needless to say the large baby didn't take it easy on my stomach. He ended up being 9.6 and 23inches long. After I got my weight down to 150 and it stayed until I got pregnant with my daughter. She was 8.6 and 21 inches long. I gained 40 lbs for her. I had her c-section also. When my husband at the time was in the delivery room for her he asked the doctor if they could fix my stomach then. The doctor laughed and said you'll need cosmetic surgery for that.

So here I am, two kids later, divorced and waiting to turn the next page of my life.
I found a great boyfriend that I've been living with for 6 years and he's raising my two wonderful kids with me. We have a really good relationship. I love him. So I feel guilty that because of my stomach I have never had sex with him naked. He has seen me maybe 3 times by accident, like walking in the bedroom when I was changing. But I've done a pretty good job of hiding it, at least him seeing my totally naked. I sooooo want to experience that closeness with him at least by the time we get married.

I've been saving for this for 10 years and I finally saved $16,000. I clean houses for a living, so that's a lot of toilets to cleaned. LOL

I met with 2 doctors one in Albany he seemed fine but its 3 hours from where I live and he was more expensive. I chose the doctor in Syracuse an hour away, he seemed really confident that I'd look good and chance of major problems is low.

I'm getting a full tummy tuck, breast augmentation, and lipo on my love handles. I'm soooo excited. I was very scared of something bad happening and my children being ripped from there adjusted lives and being made to live with there evil father. But I'm pretty confident now that all will be ok. I went to my lawyers yesterday and did my will to appoint guardianship if I should die.

I've had acquaintances have really negative unsupportive things to say about my surgery, and I've had really negative feedback from my parents. My mother is extremely angry with me about doing this she says I'm selfish and vain. She says If I die my kids are going to go to my ex and she'll never see them again. Thus the will.

Right now I'm dealing with all that, and I am so stressed because I'm on antibiotics for UTI and I'm going to run to the doctors when I'm done writing because I wore cheap earrings this last weekend and my ear is now infected...I have sensitive skin. My plastic surgeons office is closed today because of good Friday :(

I've been waiting for this for sooo long and moving my surgery date would mess up everything in regards my work and schedule that I've already arranged around my surgery.

We'll see, I'll right more when I get back and post pictures