Silicone BA to look more like a woman and less like a tween

Hello all! I have decided to get a breast augmentation and this decision becomes solidified by the day especially last night in my yoga class. I am currently a 32 B but being that I am very physically active (dedicated yogi, jogger, and play in a soccer league), my weight fluctuates and alas, guess where does it disappear? my boobs!!

How long I've considered this? hah more like how long haven't I considered this. I have a 15 year old sister who has d cups, cousins, mother, aunts, everyone in this family is super curvy and bodaceous and as womanly as it gets.... except for me. Now, I've always been the more tomboy, super active/athletic not very feminine type but I always had a complex in my subconscious waiting patiently for these things to grow. I don't know why they haven't showed up but after something is missing in action for so long, some immediate action must be taken, no? Call the doctor stat! I have tried to talk myself out of it, tried other methods but alas, methods of gaining weight do not target certain areas and I don't want to gain weight, I am actually bottom heavy but my torso is really something else. I've bony in the top and while that makes for a delicate top, it also looks very pre-pubescent which bugs me! Every holiday in the summer, I don't like to wear bikinis while surrounded by curvy girls from my culture. It's such a nuisance. As far as other occasions, I dress very casual, not conservative per se, but not revealing either. I really want to fill out my tops better so that I don't look like a cutting board. I usually wear high neck top as to highlight my shoulders and distract from my little chest and actually love how elegant they look so I want to still be able to wear them even after surgery because like I said I'm very shy and wouldn't want to rock a low cut shirt and have the girls on display like "two eggs on a plate" as they say (hahhahah! did I really just type that oh wow).

Anyway cut to the chase here: I would like to be ideally a super full C/at least small D to even out my pear-shape, make me feel feminine and at the same time not look too done as having a BA that fits my frame is extremely important to me. I really want to get silicone despite the price and am also interesting in the gummy bear variety. Either way, I want to do this once (for the next decade, I am aware of their longevity) and do it right so that's what brings me to realself!

how i'm feeling? I'm actually very excited. I've been thinking about this for so long. I went through a phase in college where I would wear those 'add 2 cup sizes' bras underneath my soccer jerseys and gosh, I always liked how that looks because even though the shirts were loose fitting, I still felt feminine while being athletic. The excitement is because I have now graduated, have a job and am stoked to be doing something for mysel. I am not a "shopper" and like to save my money and spend it wisely on things that I really wish to covet. This will be expensive, yes, but I can't tell you how I feel when I look in the mirror and wear one of those simulated bras and just think, wow how awesome would it be to have a chest like this always?

I have actually consulted at a hospital in NY (they have PS fellow who perform the surgery while being supervised by an attending) and am still shopping around. I want to get it by the end of soccer league season bc I don't want to bail on my team but at the same time: a huge concern of mine is how long will the recovery take (for my work schedule) and how long will it be until I can resume workign out. I know this sounds picky, but I cannot go too long (as in more than 1 week) without following my yoga regimen, jogging schedule and soccer.

Now some other questions I've got. Do any of you know of any good surgeons in the greater NYC and NJ area (preferably not in manhattan bc the price would probably factor the doctors rent and I don't want to pay for that unless it's at a teaching hospital). Furthermore, what are your experiences with SHAPED COHESIVE SILICONE implants? What about the gummy bear variety? What profile would you guys recommend for it to looks nice and fluffy but still have a bit of natural swing/movement? I also have concerns about the presence of silicone in the body and how plausible would if be for one's immune system to possibly go haywire and attack the presence of that much foreign material thus resulting in allergy-like symptoms??

I'd love to hear experiences from all of you ladies, I value your word of mouth above all and also here are my stats:

22 yo, 5ft 2in, 108 lbs, currently 32B. I'm really conscious of my breast size because I'm the only woman in my family who doesn't have well-endowed double D's. I have been waiting and waiting but I have a high metabolism no matter how much I eat and I am very active. I want this 'boob job' to help round out my shape up top because my bottom totally doesn't match my 12 year old looking chest. I will post pics below:

ok, so on Saturday morning, I went to a consultation with Dr. K uptown and have to say my impression of the visit as well as the doctor is very good. I tried on some of the implants that she had (stuffed into my bra, under my shirt) and was extremely lost as to sizing, diameter (high profile vs. mod plus etc). She did make the point that mod plus would work great since they add the same volume but are slightly flatter and have more diameter which would help the lack of cleavage I have. I felt very comfortable with her and must say it was refreshing and not at all what I thought the visit would be. I am looking forward to my other consults but feel very confident about this one so who knows? maybe I've found my surgeon!??! it's a crazy decision to buckle down on but I am so STOKED and want to solidify this decision already. After discussing with her that I wanted to go natural, she suggested I go for no more than 300 cc's and the more research I do online, compare other women's BMI's and same height/frame etc, the more I raise my eyebrows on if 300cc's would make the difference I'm going for. My problem with potentially going too big is that it would hinder my athletic ability and I can't have something cramp my lifestyle. I already feel slightly antithetical being a yogi and getting implants BUT I feel like it's now or never and I must just get them and move on. I'm not sure if i'm the only one that experiences this much self-doubt while still being hella excited for the procedure. Also the doctor's suggestion, I think, would as she said, bring me to "a full b cup" which could be a low c cup, and I don't want to undergo surgery and be just a small c cup. I am really trying to weigh the pros and cons here. The pro, as stupid as it sounds, to having big boobs (post-implants) is you didn't go udner the knife for an extremely subtle difference and the con, obviously, is not being able to sprint as fast. Eeek decisions, decisions! Maybe i should've taken some photos to show her? My goal is to have similar bust as Salma Hayek because her height/frame is the same as mine (she's 5ft 2 as well) and though she has a pretty prominent bust for a petite woman, it doesn't make her look fat or too matronly (something I am trying to avoid ever so much) and at the same time, you can hide it pretty well if you're a casual dresser (I wear t-shirts and cardigans practically all the time).

Annnnnnd, all of a sudden I am not so sure. =/

This is exactly my face now: =/. I spoke to a girl with similar build who has implants and she basically ruined my night last night saying she truly regrets getting her boobs done and that she is waiting a few months to take them out. She told me she feels like Frankenstein and that they feel way too foreign inside of her. I am so dissuaded at this point. I don't know if her issue is an individual thing but I truly don't understand. I am BAFFLED. I don't know if she doesn't want them just so she can be skinny again (maybe it's a New York thing) but I have never met someone that was so upset/regretful about their plastic surgery. I am just zeroing in on what I want, however, and in that aspect, sitting here right now, I want them to be bigger. Maybe I just need to go on more consults and ask the doctors if they can guide me to any of their ex patients so I can see how said patients feel?

So my question to all of you ladies who have had the procedure done: how do your boobs feel once they've settled down? do you feel that they're apart or your body or is it a constant reminder that a foreign implant lies there? Please PLEASE be honest with me because she kind of freaked me out last night, I almost wish I didn't ask because ignorance is bliss (just kidding, it is NOT but now i'm worrying). She also REPEATEDLY mentioned that the way they lie on her, don't have movement etc make her feel extremely conscious.