Happy Birthday to Me AND the Girls + New Pics!

Hello & Woo-Hoo! This is so exciting! I am keeping this a pretty big secret, so it feels great to be able to come here and share my story, as well as learn from all of yours!

I'm fast approaching my 42nd birthday and have always had breast envy! As an early teen, I was teased for being flat and eventually began poking fun at myself to control the humiliation. Needless to say, this came from my insecurity, which was always just below the surface during my dating years, as well. Fortunately, I have been with my amazing husband for 18 years now, and I know he loves me just the way I am. We have 2 beautiful young children (nearly 7 & 9), whom between the two, I breastfed just over 3 years. Add to that, I have dropped 30 lbs and am now very pleased with everything about my body other than my breasts....they have certainly paid a heavy price, especially since they were never all that to begin with! The funny thing is when I was teasing myself to my friends, I would say that at least they would always be "perky" since there wasn't much to sag.....WRONG! There's nothing "perky" about small saggy breasts! lol

So, my hubby bought me some beautiful lingerie for Christmas, and sadly it is still sitting on my dresser with the tags STILL on it. When I tried it on, I was so depressed to look at my reflection and feel that I looked like a 12 year old trying on her Mom's nightie! UGH!!! I wanted him to know that I loved what he chose for me, I just didn't love the way I looked in IT! He completely understood. I've done everything I can physically do (diet/exercise) to reclaim my body, and I'm pleased with my results. The ONLY thing I cannot change through any effort of my own is to enhance my breasts. BOO!! So, because he knows that is something that has always bothered me, he suggested I look into perking up my girls! Again, this is for me, not for him. But still, I was so shocked! It just seems so indulgent! Even though I always swore when I was old enough I would do this, I don't think I really gave it serious consideration....especially after marriage and becoming a mom. Maybe it just didn't seem as realistic to pursue, since my priorities shifted to my family. And, after awhile, I kind of figured, I've lived this long without them that I won't die without them. Of course, I have taken advantage of every padded/push-up/water-bra/wonder-bra and miracle bra ever made, so I could fake my way through! lol Bathing suits are bit trickier, but I still managed.

So, this conversation just began on Tuesday, 1/29, and after many hours of staring at other women's before & after pics, researching doctors and reading dozens of testimonials, I am so excited with our decision to proceed! I've found a doctor that has been very highly recommended and strangely enough, one of only two people I've shared this with, actually went to the SAME doctor and LOVED him, and will also be having her BA done by him! I'll be traveling just over 2 hours to see this doctor, but based on my research, I'm confident he's worth the drive! I'm going for my consultation on MONDAY, 2/4! And, if all goes well, I'll be receiving my new and improved breasts on VALENTINE'S Day!!! What a great day to fall in Love with my whole self the way I've always imagined I could be! When my husband and I looked each other in the eye and agreed we should go for it, I felt like a child being told she was getting a puppy for Christmas! I am so excited and feel so fortunate that this lifelong dream is finally going to become a reality, even after writing it off!

I'm planning to go from a 34-A to a full 34-B/C with as natural a look and feel as possible. I'm 5'3" and 114lbs, so I want to keep it realistic. I'm so pumped about going shopping for my new bikini for the cruise we'll be taking in mid-April! Please tell me I'll look and feel great within 8 weeks of surgery???