Tough recovery but I'm happy I did it - Montreal, QC

So Iv'e been wanting to get my nose fixed forever. I banged it up a lot in my early teens and it was never the same since. My brothers used to tease me all the time, I've deleted probably half my pictures because of it, and I'm very uncomfortable driving or pretty much just having my profile exposed for people to see. Ok I'm not a monster and there are some days that I feel worst about it than others but that's generally how I feel. When I look in the mirror or on pictures...the first thing I see is my nose, and how I wish it wasn't so prominent.

I have the typical roman nose, a bump, some crookedness and not the most refined tip. I am beyond self conscious about it. It holds me back from being totally confident about myself. Even though people say that they don't notice and that I am beautiful...I don't want to do this for other people, it's totally for myself.

All I want is to feel like I can be exposed from any angle without being paranoid that someone is judging my nose. When I say this to my family or friends they can't believe that I feel that way but I'm sure many of you girls can relate.

I'm pretty open about it though. I joke about it all the time with my family and friends. I think i'm over it being embarrassing. I just finished University and I now I finally have the time to deal with this before starting a career. Deep down I wonder if P S really is the moral way out of an insecurity but from reading about all the wonderful experiences on real self, I have realized that if you are doing it for the right reasons ( for yourself, not for what other people think) then you deserve to feel comfortable in your own body.

Thank fully my family supports me, and that is actually SO important to me. My mom is by my side about this and even my dad doesn't seem to mind as much as I thought. He's funny though, he always points out girls on TV that have funny noses and says that I look better than them. I told him that essentially it's to fix my breathing because I have chronic sinusitis but obviously the aesthetic part is a major motive.

Plastic surgeons....who to choose to change your nose...your appearance? Seems like a very stressful task if you ask me. From research and also speaking to girls who have had it done with him, I believe I have decided to go with Dr. Samaha. He seems to be the only one who specializes in the face and he has high ratings on his online reviews which also seem to be mostly rhinoplasty reviews so I know he has the right experience. I tried looking into other well reputated plastic surgeons but most of their reviews are about boob jobs or liposuction, so it's kind of a turn off.

Anyway, I already did a consultation with Samaha and I really enjoyed it. He is a good listener, has a good sense of humour and understands that the overdone look is not appealing. He showed me pictures of girls he did with similar noses to me and WOW... I could't believe the results. Iv'e had some time to reflect and now I booked my second consultation with him for the 27th of August in which he will take pictures of me and show me what it will look like. From there I hope to book my surgery with him in October.

I told him that I have some anxiety attacks that arise in stressful situations or times, which is something I thought might be a problem but he totally reassured me and said it's not a problem and that he can prescribe me some medicine that will help calm me down. I know I will be soooooo nervous because I've never gone under and I'm one of those who is really scared of being put to sleep out of fear of not knowing what's happening. It's kind of a a silly fear Iv'e always had. I used to not be able to sleep as a kid because I was scared of what would happen when I did or not waking up .... so I know its just my inner child coming out. I think that I can overcome this if I just keep a positive outlook and it really helps to have family support. I'm telling you I'm more afraid of surgery than what it's going to look like!! But any challenge will make you stronger, and this is one I am ready for.