Making a Better Me

I'm currently researching plastic surgeons to help me realize my tummy tuck and bread augmentation goals.
I'm 32 with two children. My baby is 9.
I was pregnant with my oldest at 17 so I was never able to enjoy having a nice body. Perhaps it was better that way. Anyhow, I love my kids so much and I continue to sacrifice for them each day. But they are much older now and I'm not getting any younger, so I've decided to start taking better care of myself; doing for me. My kids are still the priority, but I have realized that I need to take care of myself before I get old.
That's another thing. I've been feeling so old. My body's has changed with the two pregnancies and nursing. My small breasts are empty sacks, my stomach is bulgy, saggy and full of stretch marks. I have stretch marks across my hips as well. I long to wear a bikini and look not in it. My buttocks are not as high as they used to be.
I've implemented many goals to take better care of myself this year. I want to capture my youth and make the most of it.
I also found out last year that my husband wanted to cheat on me. That makes me feel inadequate of course. I think he has changed his mind but I'm not really sure. It isn't something we ever talked about. I just have to keep sneaking around and looking through his phone to keep myself abreast.
My stats: 5'2, 110 lb, saggy 32 A. I'm not sure about my other measurements as I've lost weight recently ( not on purpose). It was only about 5 pounds.
Ttyl:)

The only thing I hate is this obsession that I have with all things plastic surgery! It all started with my intense research on breast augmentation last year. I've always wanted a BA because my breasts have always been small and became deflated after nursing my kids. I just realized last year that I could actually go through with the procedure instead of dreaming about it like before!
I had taken different pills throughout the years, okay I guess it was only Bountiful Breast, but that didn't work out at all. Actually, I took some herbal supplements too a few years back and that didn't help either. My kids are a little older now, no more babies for me. The family should be able to thrive if I'm out of commission for a week or so and financial situation is not bad at this time. Plus, most importantly, I have realized that I need to embrace my youth. It's time to live my life a little more. I'm not gonna stop taking care of business or anything, but I will start to do for me-finally! Be back later.

As I was writing, I had always thought about the BA and I started researching heavily last summer. The MAIN catalyst to the heavy research I have to say came when I went on vacation with my family. Since it was a beach vacation, I was inundated with women wearing two-piece swimsuits, while looking good in them! There were women young and old alike. I was particularly offended by the older ones. For years, swimsuits have been a struggle for me. I only occasionally went to the pool or beach most of my life,so this didn't become a super huge deal until the past few years. Finding a swimsuit is always the biggest deal. Because my breasts are tiny and deflated, I have to find a swimsuit with padding, otherwise, I'd be walking around with a couple of hanging, deflated water balloons! Added to the that, my loose, sagging belly made it impossible to wear a two-piece, as does my stretch-mark ridden hip and back region. Added to that, my broad shoulders make a halter the only acceptable style. It is not easy for me to find decent swimsuits. My best swimsuit is a skirtini. The top is a lightly padded halter with a non-plunging neckline that reaches slightly past my navel. The bottom is skirted, reaching my mid-thigh. It's the least matronly of my swimsuits though and is kind of cute. But I felt like a fool all covered up compared to these other women! They all looked good in their suits! So when we got home, I started looking into seriously getting a BA. Shortly afterwards, I realized that I need the stomach to go with it! My stomach is not so bad compared to many ladies, I can't lie about that; however it is still bulgy and loose in quality.
Fast forward to a few weeks later, I now realize that I could benefit from a BBL as well! Don't get me wrong, I actually have a good bottom shape, however, I have noticed over the years that it isn't 'as high and round as it used to be. Furthermore, I am now incorporating regular exercise into my life. It is part of the new and improved me. And exercise leads to weight-loss. I can't bare the thought of losing most of my bottom; hence a BBL would cover me in that department as well as filling in the couple of dimples that have developed over the years.
I feel now like as we age, we just get "damaged" It's really very sad. I'm sad that I did not embrace my youth. At least I spent in productively, raising my children. In part, that is the benefit of having children at a later age.
Anyway, I've been all over the place in terms of a surgeon. At first I considered Greenwald, but after being on this site, I fell in love with some of the curves I saw produced by certain doctors. These are most notably surgeons from Latin American countries. I'm really not willing to travel abroad for surgery, though it's tempting. Then I discovered Cortes. He appears to given very beautiful, feminine curves so I chose him. This was before I'd decided on the BBL as well. I can't afford to get all my surgery done by him, he's too expensive. So my best bet is to get my TT with him since he does that hourglass TT. For my BBL and BA, I can go with Dr. Fisher in Miami. I'm still trying to decide if I should go to Coral Gables or Vanity. I'm leading towards Coral Gables though. Of course, I'm still researching.
What are my goals you ask? For my breasts, I just want perkier, larger breasts. I'm an A cup now. A full C I think should suit me fine. I would like my waist to be smaller, not super small like some I've seen. If anything, I want to be well-proportioned and natural-looking. I don't need for everyone to know that I've had work done! For my stomach, I want the stretch marks gone and the skin nice and tight. For my rear, I want it to be more full and just a little large. I don't want a video vixen behind. I don't want a change in shape. I love my shape already. I will post pictures soon. I have to figure out to do it on the computer since all my pics are in my email folders.