24yr Old 5'5 135lbs Asian - Miami, FL

I waited to hit my 6 month PO date to talk about my feelings about my results before I jump to any conclusions. How do I feel? Well I HATE it and I spent all day in the house today because I just didn't want to walk around with my wide fake hips and an ass that looks padded. I've fallen into this deep sadness where I'm ashamed and even more insecure than where I was 6 months before without an ass.

My ass has severely dropped where it looks like its sagging. My boyfriend helped me take photos today and we even found a droop in my right cheek. But not only that but overall, it looks completely fake. It doesn't have a round shape, but rather a square one. It is not proportional to my body and in pants, it looks like that I padded it.

I didn't know what it truly looked like until I saw a photo taken of me without me knowing. I have been taking selfies in my own mirror and it had always looked good, but they look completely different from the perspective of others. When I saw it, all I just wanted to do was run home and hide under the covers. Let me tell you the first time I realized something was wrong.

It was finally getting warmer and I was so excited to wear my new white jeans that really show off my curves. I checked my ass in the mirror before I went out and it looked great. Went out feeling confident and sexy. I walked down the street with my best friend, swaying my hips happily. Then this white man in his late 20s stopped me and asked "hey do you know how to get to the empire state building?" I smiled and pointed him to the right direction. He laughed and said "sorry I already know where it is, I just wanted to stop and ask...where did you get that ass???" I stood there puzzled and a little shocked. I never had someone be so blatant with me, people normally complimented it but never a question about my ass. I just giggled and tried to walk away. He shouted after me "you didn't get that from your mama, YOU BOUGHT THAT ASS." I literally wanted to die right there on the NYC pavement. My night was ruined and I couldn't get that interaction out of my mind. Funny in enough, the next bar we went to, this promoter asked me if I wanted to be on his Instagram. He has a game on his page called "Real or Fake" and he wanted to take a picture of my ass. I was so [RS bleep] mortified. I went home and just tried to sleep it off. My friends tried to comfort me, they said white pants always shows off every inch of your body. I eventually got over it. But then the photos came to light.

To describe what my ass looks like is pointless. It's easy to tell in the photos. My ass no longer looks natural. It looked great when it was tight and a little hard in month 1-3. I had both men and women tell me how great my body is. Now the compliments has stopped and the whispers began. People at work were talking and the gossiping has gotten back to me. People give me a knowing look when I walk by them. I can read what they are thinking. I feel small and I want to be small. I don't fit this body. I'm 25 and I'm in a body of a middle aged woman who has had kids. My hips are too large and my ass too huge. I need a revision quick. I can't live like this!

It's literally different everyday. I was complaining in my last post that I lost all my volume, which is still true but it has also grown since then. Like today, my morning butt compared to my night butt was a drastic difference. Here are pictures taken today. I feel like this can't be seen but only felt. I'm letting you be the judge! My ass tonight feels so poofy and swollen, but I've been sitting on it all day which makes me think it shouldn't be able to swell. I'm going to get off this roller coaster of emotion and decide what my butt looks like in month 6. Take a look!