Desperate for a Booty! - Miami, FL

I was that kid in school that looked like a popsicle stick...front and back. Never looked feminine, could never buy clothes small enough to fit, and had the self-esteem to match my popsicle shape. After I had my child, what little waist I had prior was now gone and I started putting fat on everywhere it really shouldn't be in my opinion...you know, back belly, arms. Since then I have made every attempt to correct my short comings. Plastic surgery is not new to me. However this is probably the most sensitive subject for me to approach. Why, you might ask. I felt I should be able to correct my skinny legs and flat, narrow behind by lifting weights and modifying my diet. While this did help, in ten years time I barely made any progress. The more I tried, the more desperate I became. The more desperate I became, the more depression set in. Then when I fell and hurt my knee this New Year's Eve I had no choice but to stop lifting. Within 30 days I lost considerable size in my behind. I truly realized that my age and genetics were screwing me out of ever being happy and feeling sexy. So I decided to start checking into butt implants. Its scary business and I'm very nervous. But the desire to have my pants fitting properly and looking good in my bathing suit and lingerie is overwhelming. So, I made a consultation appointment with Dr. Gershenbaum in Miami for the 17th of this month. Like I said, I'm very nervous. I'm also still sometimes sad that I was incapable of overwriting my genetics. But it is what it is. I have decided to look at it this way...I will be able to exercise for the right reason instead of simply trying to achieve an impossible goal. Plus I will actually get to wear a belt as an accessory instead of a necessity! Bonus!!!

I will post some pictures once I have decided when/by whom to have this procedure done.

I'm just a little nervous. My consultation with Dr. Gershenbaum is Wednesday. I have looked at also getting another consultation with Dr. Mendieta but his office staff quoted me an extremely high amount just for implants ($18,000+). I've not completely ruled them out.

It's hard being a skinny-fatty with no behind. I don't have enough fat for fat transfer, too much to look attractive and a man shaped behind. Waiting for this appointment has been very stressful. The money that goes into it is very stressful. Don't get me wrong I want a behind. Just not sure if my spouse can foot $20k. I'm asking a lot for half that amount.

Sorry I just needed to vent a bit.

So I went to see Dr. Gershenbaum yesterday. I'm much less nervous now. His office staff is fabulous. Very informative and polite. The patient coordinator has been exceptionally quick about answering all my questions. Dr. Gershenbaum spent the most amount of time with me of any surgeon I've ever seen and he was easy to speak to. He has a realistic attitude towards what he can and should do surgically. We discussed options, such as size of implants and liposuction of my flanks, and he answered most of my questions before I even asked. It made the whole process more comfortable.

After I met with Dr. Gershenbaum I discussed the business of the procedure with the patient coordinator. She gave me the quoted amounts, pre/post surgery procedures and informed me that I need a physical and extensive blood work along with a chest x-ray and an EKG. I thought this was odd initially but it actually makes a lot of sense and I'm wondering why doctors have never done this before any of my previous surgeries.

Now my biggest concern is can my PCP write me a referral for everything I need done (he doesn't do any blood work or x-rays, etc in office and I have to go to the hospital) and if so will the hospital forward him the information...yes, they have overlooked sending my results before...or should I just try to find a new doctor here in Miami since I temporarily live here. I'm waffling today and will call someone tomorrow to get this show on the road.

I will be taking pictures sometime either today or tomorrow and posting them.