Downsized from 400 to 220 and Swap to Saline This February! - Massachusetts, MA

Hi all,
Some of you may have followed my other stories but I will do my best here to explain! I decided in 2011 to get my first breast augmentation. I started competing in figure competitions in 2010 and landed myself a spot in nationals in may 2011. That was my 5th (and last) time I wanted to compete. i always had a great self esteem and was totally in love with my body, but the bigger and bigger the competition, the more women I saw with even more perfect bodies, and more specifically, perfect breasts. The only breasts id seen in my life were porn breasts and competion breasts, asude from my mothers and sisters which were larger thab mine. Anyways, I lost weight fot my comps and I stopped the pill and switched to mirena all arpund the same time. My breasts went from a full B to a small b and the started to get muscle on top. It wouldnt have been too much of a problem I think if I didnt see so many other perfectly round full breasts, but I started to feel my breasts werent as attractive to me anymore. I guess whrn you submerse ypurself in that environment, it wears on you.

I booked some consultations with surgeons and explained that I had the money and want for surgery and that I wpuld like to be a large c small d. I felt that I always wanted bigger breasts and seeing my breasts shrink and learning I could do something about it, I finally decided, why not! Keep in mind, even though I always wanted bigger breasts, I never really wanted surgery. All these plastic surgery shows make it seem like its no big deal... Wow I was wrong!

I booked surgery for oct 2011 for 400ccs silicone gel under the muscle. The surgeon also mentioned a 'congenital deformity' that my breasts were slightly constricted meaning the distance from my crease to aereola was short. He said a fat trasfer to yhe breast wpuld helo add more volume and even my slightly assymetrical breasts out and stretch the lower portion of my breasts. I felt there was somethi ng wrong with me woth all the terminology used but felt that it wpuld yeild a better result so I booked the fat transfer too which entails lipp. I did not want lipo but could not get surgery without the fat transfer otherwise I would have an unfavorable result.

I had so much pain from surgery...NEVER GET LIPO! The recovery is terrible... Numbness in all lipo areas, burning muscles and sensitivity, soreness for months! You need ti wear a girdle thing for months! I wish I never did it but oh well. Since breast surgery, my implants are just way too large for me. I fit in nearly a DDD! I am embarrased yo workout feeling my breasts are huge and squished up into a cleavage party. They are heavy and I cant enjoy running. I became extremely depressed and wanted to remive them so many times. I spoke with my surgeon who suggested I wait at least 6 months to a year. My depression caused so mamy issues in my personal life and I almost lost my relationships over the severe stress. Things are much better now though, it has made us stronger... But anyways, I waited it out and still wanted them out but was very worried about what I would look like. I for some reason, cpuld not take them oit. I dony know, maybe I am just noy memtally ready. I thought long and hard and have decided to have a revision to go much smaller and switch to saline.

Dony get me wrong, my breasts look like a work of art but they are not for me. I yhink implamts arent for everyone. I am way larger than I asked for and even now, I wouldnt want to be a D! I also developed some lateral displacement, the lefy breast goes into my apit when I lean on something or lay down. I aldo want to switch TO saline.because after all the researvh ive done on my own, I am not comfortable with silicone in my body! Yes, they feel great, but the trafe off is not worth it, and heres why...

1. If there is a rupture the silicone gel can migrate to ypur nreast tissue and lymph modes which botj will have to be excised... I want ALL my breast tissue amd nodes if I have a.rupture thank you!
2. The only true cohesive gel implants available in the US are the sientra nrand which are anatomical textured and they feel as 'hard' as saline anyway!
3. Those implants can still migrate, although rare, I called yhe manufacturer. Also, the textured silicone can flake off and be carried to the lymphatic system by macrophages.
4. Since I eventually want the implamts put,the salime gives me yhe unique opportunity to see what my breast would look like should I have a rupture
5. Silicone contains platinum, which when found in oxidized states can be severely toxic to you. There was a test done by ernest lykissa that showed the platinum.level
s in women with silicone gel breast implants were incredibly high and it also showed it was t in the oxidizrd state causing depression, lung issues and many other atypical autoimmunr issues. I called ernest and asked him if there were any platinum in saline and he said no levels were detectable!

Needless to say, I just want them out. Its just a personal choice I feel more comfortable with. I cant wait for surgery, although petrified! Im scared of anesthesia amd I dont like change. These implants have given me nothing but stress amd I cannot enjoy them. Going smallet will give me the.middle ground I need to evemtually remove. The longer I wait, the more stretched my skin will be.