YAY!!! 450cc Saline Unders, through Areola ( @ )( @ ) - Los Angeles, CA

This is my first post to this blog. A blog about a most dynamic journey in my life to find myself. I have spent to many years giving to so many and to have nothing left in return but angst and regret. It is now MY time to treat MYSELF. I plan to get 400-450cc textured saline implants under the muscle and through the nipple.

So now the actual research begins. I have Dr. Edween as my choice but that is not set in stone. I have devised a list of all the surgeons in my area in MY price range and there are quite a few. I have made a decision on the type of implants I would like. I would like to have moderate profile, textured, 400-450 saline implants placed under the muscle with a periareola incision. I hope this will get me to a moderate "D" cup from my barely there b cup, which I actually think is a "A" cup but I am too afraid to ask.
I guess now is getting over the mind jitters. >_<
I have 2 young girls who I want to have a positive self image. I am hoping my decision will not make them feel less than beautiful. I also worry about the money. I know I could spend this on college money for them, or a new car, or a move. Is it right to spend this money now? If not now, then when? I don't think it will ever be a time when I will have $$$ to just blow away but I feel like this is something important to me.

Isn't that part of our problem? We work and toil and yet we feel guilty for taking care of ourselves. I KNOW this is my time. Over the last year, I have overcome dibilitating depression, alcohol abuse, graduated college and started a small business. All while keeping a home and raising my children. I got lost for a long time but I am bak and better than ever! I think this will only amplify that confidence to the World.

I will keep updating you with pictures and videos very soon. :) #teamboobsrbust

Its so funny, I keep walking by my mirror and poking my chest out. lol. Its like when I was pregs. and wanted to see how my belly would look. I have started getting my questions together. It seems I'm all over the place. I have places in Tustin, Newport Beach, Bev. Hills and more to look at. I want to make sure I get the right size for the right amount. I hate to haggle over price but lets get real, unless you married Prince Charming, U gotta look at price. I have a cool $4-4500 to spend without driving myself to ruins. There are surprisingly a lot of options in that price range in California. I am glad I found RealSelf.com as they allow users to comment and rate the doctors, so you get a REAL opinion instead of a "paid" one.

So lets get into my choices. I believe if I am going to write about this journey then it should be informational as well. So I will talk about my choice to go with saline implants over silicone. I stayed on the fence about my decision about implant type for a long time. But after research and a little help from a loved one, I made my decision with confidence. Like going to a grocery store, you should have a idea of what you want before you get there. I compared online and even researched on Youtube to get the answers I desired. I decided on saline due to my financial restrictions and also that I would feel more comfortable with a saline water dissipating into my system if there were ever a rupture. I also like the fact that a saline implant doesn't require such a large incision. Silicone implants are filled and ready to go. So, they must be placed through a larger incision such as through the armpit or under the crease. Saline Implants are filled after they are placed into the body. They can be placed through the nipple which allows for the scar to be less visible. Saline implants can also be custom filled. So maybe you want them to be squishy, then you can get a half fill or 3/4 full. If you want to make them firm and tight then ask for an overfill. So as you can see, For me, The saline implant was the way to go. Also, I worked in a lab and don't ask why but my professor had 1 implant they had just gotten that was about 2 years old. Then there was one that was 10-12 years old. It was appalling. It was the color of tree bark and looked like a hardened mass of chewed bubble gum. It was super hard and just was not attractive. Mind you, these were just implants on a tray.

Not to be unfair, I will describe the pros and cons of having silicone implants. Silicone implants are said to feel most like real breasts. Silicone implant patients have the least recorded complications. Silicone implants can last longer than saline implants. If a silicone implant ruptures, a patient will not experience volume loss. On the flip side, Silicone implants require a costly MRI every few years to ensure there are no ruptures or complications. As stated above silicone implants must be placed through a larger incision site. Silicone implants are more costly for the implant itself, about $1000 more on average.

So I hope this has given you a little help if you are trying to decide between saline and silicone. Please don't take my word for it. Do your due diligence and RESEARCH! Go to youtube and watch some videos, Search here on RealSelf and don't be afraid to ask questions. Good Luck on your Journey!
#teamboobs4bust