25 Year Old! No Kids! Just Need my Body Back. Upper/lower Abs & Love Handles! Lilburn, GA

I have contemplated over and over about posting this and I can honestly say I'm just over it and just want to share My story with you all.
I have been so depressed after my surgery to the point where I have questioned my self many times being here on earth. I hate myself!! I've lost all of my self confidence because I hate my body. I can't stand looking at myself in the mirror! I hate going to the beach and I hate getting naked in front of my fiancé. I know when he stares at me, he's thinking something in his head. I can see it all over his face. But he still tries to support me and accepts me the way I am!
One day I asked him to just be honest with me and I promised I wouldn't be sad but honestly, I was hurt and broken inside. He said , "Don't be mad, but I really wish you never got that surgery, you messed up your entire body." I pretended to be fine, but later that night I bawl my eyes out! It's really depressing! I even hate wearing tight dresses because u can see the lumps and dents! It's so ugly.. I just cant get over it! I trusted these ladies so much!!
I even got all the massages she recommended. Even the lady at the spa told me that my surgery was a very poor job. She hated saying it but she wanted to be honest with me.
Half way though my sessions (abt 3 months after surgery) she noticed areas that were still stubborn. I spoke to dr Boutte at my 3rd month follow up and was told to give it some time... also my 6th month follow up and she told me to watch it for another month and if nothing changed she could squeeze me in on a Friday night and fix it but there will be a charge.. Really? Extra Charges for spots that was never touched ? Ugh I was so pissed off! Whatever!!
I Watched it for another month nothing changed! I've been trying to contact her and all they've been telling me is she is on vacation or most of the time she was full and the next appointment wasn't until late January.. I told them she told me personally she could fit me in- so they took my info and told me she would call and till this day months later I never received a call!!
Before my surgery They told me "your surgery will be so easy being that you are an athlete and you didn't have a lot of fat" and over and over I asked if it'll be smooth and even and I was told "Yes, Dr. Boutte uses the best technique"... And honestly they sell you so well that there's little to no time to second guess yourself, I was sold on how they answered and showed me how it'll be taken care of.. No choice but to win you over.. That day I didn't hesitate, I paid my money in full... the same day as my consultation and I was ready to go!!
MY MISTAKE, I should have done more research..
I had 2 other friends that were getting their smart lipo done for the Olympics and after they saw the stress and heartache I went through, they opted to other Drs And today they're bodies are so perfect and I look like crap. I just feel terrible everyday for wasting my money!!! Money I could have used for a house or something more substantial! I have nothing to show for the money I wasted! NOTHING.
I'm tired of trying. I've tried contacting Dr. Boutte so many times to get it fixed and she is never available. Im so over it.. My heart is broken and torn. I hate my body! I just wish I could go back and change my decision..
You can look back at the first pictures I took after surgery.. U can see the areas that weren't touched -kinda lighter than the other dark areas that actually got touched.. And as the recovery process went on the patches becomes more evident.
Ladies please do your research.. Speak to ladies personally(private messages, emails, or text) whatever .. Let them send you pictures whatever you need as proof. Don't end up like me..

I'm really over these darn garments! Like really OVER THEM! I refuse to spend a penny more!

So I decided to go with the garment from Raineywear.com and I initially wanted a small but some how the lady convinced me to get the medium! Ugh!
I hate it! I need more support for my lower abdomen, that's the main area I'm really worried about.. I have to put my binder really tight for it to hug my curves! If I don't it basically looks like a str8 like down the sides! Ugh
I might as well continue to wear my stage1 because I feel like it gives me more support than this one..

Also, the open crotch design is a good thing but it tends to ride up backwards and give you more open area in the back than in the front so it takes adjusting manually when using the bathroom.

Overall, I found the garment comfortable but there is little support for the stomach so I wouldn't recommend this garment as a stage two..

Hopefully tomorrow I can go to their office and exchange it...