Age 35, 3 children; 5'5", 118 Lbs. Before: 32AA. 450 cc Natrelle Inspira Silicone, under

I have been small breasted my whole life, barely fitting in a 34B (Body by Victoria brand) but I've made it work. Swimsuits always bothered me the most so I've always gone with extra padding or fluff. In my 20s, I always judged women who got breast implants, thinking it was shallow, poor self-esteem. After three pregnancies (and breastfeeding all three, but it is pregnancy that changes breasts, not breastfeeding), my breasts are officially quite deflated with nipples that actually look like they're bent. My third baby weaned just 4 months ago and my 34B bras are too big. I think I'm probably a 32A now, according to band/bust measurements I took. I can't stand the way I look now. For the first time in my life, I started considering breast implants and realizing...hey, I get it now.

I have a consult scheduled mid-March, which can't come fast enough. I stumbled across this site while researching the procedure. Because I'm so small, I am really worried I won't have enough skin to expand, won't be able to get a size "big enough" to be worth it. I also don't want breasts that look obviously fake - that rounded, shiny, [RS bleep]-star look! Then I think, what if I'm one of the unlucky ones who is sick all the time afterward and hair falling out??

Oh, so many thoughts. I think I'll try to see if I can get my consult moved up...

So my original consult date is scheduled for 3/17/16, but I got a call from the clinic this evening stating there had been a cancellation and they offered me an appointment tomorrow (2/18) instead! This is a full month earlier! I'm going to have to figure out a way to step away from work for a couple of hours in order to attend, but I accepted the appointment for now. I'm anxious, as I'm sure everyone is, to get in there and get a feel for this whole boobie thing (no pun intended).

I'll update after the consultation, assuming I'm able to make it, and perhaps post some pictures of my current bosom. The very thought of doing so makes me anxious - obviously we're all less than thrilled about our breasts so sharing what they look like, to the internet world, is kinda terrifying!

It's really hard for me to post pictures, as with many of you, but I only post these so that other women researching BA can evaluate and compare. So, I began with Dr. Chhatre on recommendation of a friend, who had a breast augmentation by him in the last 5 years. She has been extremely happy and has nothing but positive things to say about the physician and his staff. The staff was definitely friendly, and his nurse, was very kind. He first went over my medical history. I am pretty healthy, only take one regular prescription and have no illnesses. I have had three pregnancies, all of which I breastfed. Breastfeeding is blamed for deflated, sagging breasts but this is a common misconception. It is actually pregnancy alone that changes the breast tissue. So for those ladies that choose not to breastfeed simply based on wanting to maintain their breasts, they are incorrect. Anyway, three pregnancies took my barely 34Bs to nothing - 34A/AA now, if even that?! I have the chest of a boy. I am just nipples, the kind that could poke your eye out. So Dr. Chhatre asked me what size I want to be and I could not really answer - I just want to look proportioned! He seemed to agree with this. He discussed that he only does the inframammary incision and he would place the implants under the muscle. Because I am thin and have little body fat (approximately 22%), especially on my chest, he recommended silicone. Initially I was certain I would never get silicone; in my younger years I always equated silicone with [RS bleep] stars and ditzy celebrities - not to mention the side effects I always heard them, such as breaking and leaking and such. After watching several videos on the integrity of the new silicone implants, and the benefits of having those when you have a little breast tissue versus saline, I think that is what I'll get. The PS stated that they offer a 10-year warranty (a warranty on boobs, ha!) as long as you have an MRI before that 10 year anniversary. The nurse and I looked at some before/after pictures that are pretty close to my build, and she said that right now that 350-375cc would probably be ideal for me. I don't want to look enormous and ridiculous, but I also don't want to go through all this pain and $$$ and come out with not much to show for it. I've decided I definitely want to be a full C cup at least. I prefer not to tell anyone what I'm doing, but I hate that it will be so obvious afterward no matter what, because I have nothing to begin with. I felt pretty comfortable with this practice and it has very good reviews, especially since my friend referred me, but I wonder if I'm supposed to be shopping around. I really don't feel the need to have multiple consults. Therefore, I've decided to schedule surgery for early April 2016 with Dr. Chhatre and will get that on the books in the upcoming week. In the meantime, I am poring over pictures of breasts I like and those that I don't like!