Rhinoplasty To Make My Nose More Feminine - Iowa, IA

Hey, I forgot to confirm my email so probably no one saw my previous post last night. WOW. Crazy to think that my old nose is GONE in a matter of less than a day. I went to bed last night and should have taken a Xanax or something but I thought I would sleep well. I did, but the dog next door woke up at 5 AM and was barking away and there was no way I was falling back asleep so I only got about 6 hours of sleep. I fell in and out of nervous consciousness on the couch until my alarm went off at 6AM. I got changed into comfortable clothing (make sure you wear something that buttons or zips from the front!!) and was on my way. The clinic was only about 20 minutes from my house and I was already getting my IV in within 35 minutes of leaving my house, YIKES. I was so nervous for the anesthesia since it creeps me out but I was going to get a General anesthesia and my anesthesiologist came in and talked to me. She was so sweet and understanding and relaxed me quite a bit. My doctor, Dr. Koch, came in with a huge smile and was telling me how great it was going to look. I love how real he is and such a normal guy so I was so relaxed at this point. My mom and brother came to wish me well and I got rolled to the OR. I started to have a panic attack as they put a mask on my face and I remember going "it burns my throat" over and over. Next thing I knew, I was WIDE awake. A nurse was by my side within seconds asking me how I felt and giving me water. She actually stayed with me for about ten minutes and in another ten, my family came back to see me. My nausea was not very intense at all but I did ask for the medicine because when I sat up to put on my clothes, I felt a wave of it, so stayed another 20 minutes to feel better. My nose is not packed so I can breathe out of it but I don't like to because it's really gross haha. I went home and my lovely mother had rolled my bed into the living room and put pillows under the mattress to elevate the whole bed. I ate some mac and cheese and spoon-fed myself a chocolate shake. I could only eat half a bowl of mac and cheese before I felt full/sick. They gave me these jelly pads that cover my eyes but the problem was it TOTALLY covers my eyes to where I can't see anything at all. I knew that I wouldn't just sit in the house the entire day with them on so I cut slits in one and left the other the same and am switching on and off using the ones I can see with and the ones that totally cover my eyelids too. I can already see, within an hour of getting home, that my left eye was really yellow so I am sure this will bruise badly. I look HORRIBLE so I am not going to upload photos from this day because I don't want to scare anyone off. I don't feel very badly - most people said the worst uncomfortable feelings are days 2-4 -- but I look like hell. Right now my only complaints are that I keep having to cough up the gross nasal drainage which has blood yuckk. But looking in the mirror, I feel like it may look really good. As for now I am undecided but so crazy to think one week from now I will be able to see the beginning of my new nose :) Hoping my recovery at this point will go okay.

Up at night trying to fall asleep night 1 :( no matter my best elevating and pain relief efforts, the pure discomfort is going to keep me up into the late hours of the night I feel. I tried a Xanax but it made me feel really really strange and when I would touch my hair/head it would tingle and make me feel like I was about to faint. I assume this also could be the anesthesia wearing off so I'll try tomorrow. If anyone has any good tips for sleeping outside of medication, would be greatly appreciated :D