Ready for These Implant to Be Removed After 11 Years - Houston, TX

January 2003 at the age of 18 I had my surgery for my breast augmentation. Initially, I wanted to have a butt reduction because my body was not proportionate and I was insecure about the size of my gluteus. I never had an issue with my breast. I went from a 34B to a 34A due to losing a lot of weight prior to my surgery. I am 5’8 and at the time I was 117lbs due to working out excessively and dieting. I worked hard so I could reduce the size of my butt, and despite my efforts it was always too big for my body. The butt reduction was around $10,000 whereas getting breast implants would cost $3,000. I figured that if I had larger breasts then I would be able to cope with the size of my butt because then I would look proportionate and I will be able to wear dresses. I would always get comments from friends saying my butt doesn’t fit my body and how big it was and that made me even more insecure than the fact that I could not find dresses that fit my lower body like my upper body. I knew that I did not want huge breasts because I wanted it to look natural and I did not want anyone to be able to notice. I looked at several pictures because I wanted to go back to 34B.
The first time I saw them I thought they were too big. I looked through so many photos for several months to see what size I wanted based on women who were the same height and weight. I settled for 220cc because that would be a full B cup or small C cup. The Doctor said that 220cc was not available and they had 250cc which would not make a difference. Well, I was measured at a lingerie store and I was a 32D. I knew that as soon as I got the money that I would get them taken out. At the time I was told and even saw pictures of the wrinkled breast after breast implant removal but I didn’t care. I accepted dealing with the consequences of my actions.
Now, I am 150 lbs. I weight lift and run so even though I am heavy, I am not just fat. However, my breasts feel huge and heavy. I don’t wear regular bras and if I did I wore those ugly stretchy full coverage 34 C bras because the regular ones were too small. I refuse to wear a D cup or bigger. I stick to mostly sports bras, pasties, or bralettes. My sport bras now are extremely tight because I gained the 20lbs over this winter (I am working on losing it).
The only issue that I have with the implants is I lost partial sensation in my left nipple and the right nipple is numb. I can only hope I get sensation back if I don’t then the only person I can blame is myself. After having these implants for 11 years, I am still not comfortable with my body as I should be but I accept myself as I am. I am an upside down spoon and I will have to deal with it. I have silicone implants so I will not know if it was ruptured until my surgery.

I am truly nervous. The doctor’s office called me to go over last minute information and verify I am still going and to see if I have any questions. I did not get this kind of treatment with my last doctor. I really like this team.

I will post pictures later. It will be a week before I can get my sutures taken out. I cannot shower for the next 48 hours and I am bandaged. I did peek at my breast and they look flat and deflated but I am not the least bit bothered by it. I am tired and have a little pain at the moment. Another member stated to take pain medication right after surgery. I am supposed to take two but I took only took one. That was the best advice she could have given, now I wish I took 2.

I originally had surgery over the muscle 11 years ago. I requested 220cc and the doctor said he did not have that size and I could have 250cc. Well my implant says 325cc. No wonder I hated them. I am not advocating breast implants, nor am I demonizing them. I do believe if he gave me what I wanted then I would have been happier because I would not have had the additional insecurities that large breast gives.
Regardless, since having breast augmentation I have tried to talk women out of getting implants in the past and every single one still got them. I realized that if someone believes that breasts will solve their insecurities then they have to learn on their own that it will not. Our perceptions is our realities. This morning when I stood in front of their large mirror changing into my gown, I saw for the first time what my ex-boyfriend loved so much. I am in great shape and yes my butte is large but it looks good. It's like I found myself in the most oddest locations. I am glad I am myself and I actually love me more than I ever had before. I used to regret having the implants but now I am grateful I went through the experience to truly learn that my insecurities is in my head and I have to love me regardless. I believe some of us need to learn the hard way. In that room by myself with no one to compare myself to, I felt beautiful. Who decided what is a flaw and what is not anyway? I decided today that I am not flawed, I am perfect in my own way and I hope other women start to realize that as well. Embrace yourself as is ladies. Your attitude and personality is so much more important than your body.