33 Yro, 5'6", 165lbs, No Kids, Grade II Ptosis, smooth 355cc MP, breast augmentation

12wks today since my BA. Here are photo comparisons of 2days after and today's 12weeks after. "Dropping" has helped the shape looking at them straight on. Still disappointed, and honestly as time goes on I get more and more frustrated with the thought of how much I spent only to have to do it all over again to get what I wanted. I had been going back as often as my schedule would allow me to ultrasound the one left breast that hadn't been dropping. The last visit, my amazing nurse told me I don't need to come back anymore for the ultrasounds. So now my next appointment is set late October (4 mos after my BA) to once again sit with the Dr and discuss what comes next. I don't want to wear my heavily padded VS bras anymore. I would rather not have to go through recovery all over again either..... But it is what it is.
Then there are the "negative Nancy" remarks from my mother who has me worried about what will happen if I go under again. She's honestly comparing this to sending food back to a kitchen and hoping the chef doesn't spit in it when it returns.....
I don't know what to do. Can't worry about anything just yet till I see the Dr again- or see how much he's going to charge me to fix all of this. That alone also makes me ill I have to pay more to just get what I wanted. Ughhhh I wish I could go back in time and have had one more appointment WITH HIM to show him and tell him what I wanted after he asked me to go out and find it at the end of my consultation. I did!! I did exactly what he instructed and suggested I do. *Life lesson learned here. *sigh*

So really I had no more intentions of updating this review, but tonight while visiting a friends house the tv show Botched by Nature came on while we chatted.
Watching with pure curiosity, a case came on about capsular contracture. A term I'm well aware of as a possible negative outcome from BA. Though when the Dr went into surgery it suddenly became apparent it was NOT capsular contracture but a slight case of tuberous breast deformity. Which is something I've felt I may have originally "suffered" from before my BA. When the Dr began explaining the correct way to help offset this deformity it roused feelings again of wanting to correct my BA that I've grown to not think about anymore..... Though it's only been 7 weeks, it feels like it was an eternity ago. I massage everyday and I'm still wearing the 2 bras with straps 90% of the time; with the occasional dress up pretty outing where instead I wear the heavily padded push-up bras I've owned for several years now.
The moment they showed the before and after photos it seared in my brain..... THATS what my breasts look like!!!! Her before photo in my opinion looks like my breasts now. And what the Dr said to correct tuberous breasts to give the look of fullness is to go bigger. He took her from 300cc to 550cc. I wish I would have communicated more than just "assume". So here's the comparison photos. My breasts I think look practically the same today at week 7, as they did on day two. A slight difference. LoL. Oh well. Just boobs and it's just me that has to look at them.

So I finally got to see the Dr after my BA on June 30. I'm walking away feeling like everything was completely my fault.

Everything has been poor communication. Even today. :( Maybe I should have done WAY more research on breast augmentations before I even went in for a consultation. I'm sure most women do and even know the exact size they want before ever meeting a Dr. My fault. I don't have any close friends who have had one done in the last 5 years. So it wasn't "I wanted bigger breasts bc so in so got them."

I stick by every entry on how EVERYTHING went down and what was communicated and when.

I do believe that they want me satisfied with my BA, but just because. I've never been mean, hateful, disrespectful, or angry. Everyone has been very kind.

I'm just so crushed and disappointed. I really don't feel like continuing this blog on whatever my progress may be.