So happy I made the right decision..

I really shouldn't be complaining. Dr. G gave me a beautiful nose compared to my old one. It's not perfect however. It does have a few things I would like to change (and maybe I will in the future). I'll start with the things I love about it. First, my front profile is absolutely amazing and I never thought I would ever say that.. I just love the way it looks now; perfectly straight bridge (unlike my old asymmetrical nose) and the fact that I can go anywhere without the need of putting makeup on to try to cover it up. My profile hasn't ever been something I was really concerned about, because my bump was relatively small but I'm not going to say it fits my face perfectly. I think he scooped out a tad much when it comes to my bridge leaving my tip looking very large especially at the 3/4 angle. Of course I know some of it is due to swelling, since I am almost 3 months out.. but sadly it has more to do with the projection of my forehead and how scooped in my nose feels in comparison to it. The next thing is the unbelievable fact that my nose after surgery made me look like miss piggy and now it's droopy. Yes, the doctor raised the tip, but unfortunately left my columella still hanging fairly low. Lastly, the indents that are around the alar rim have been accentuated. I was born with fairly deep indents along my alar rim but I stressed this to the doctor that they shouldn't be accentuated, and they were :/ This was actually the first thing he pointed out to me, stating that he cannot fix it, which was fine with me but not only did he make those indents deeper, he created these "lines" carving out my nostrils, almost like what a cookie cutter nose would look like, but not making those lines that deep when it came towards the front of my nose.. It is not anywhere near looking like a cookie cutter nose, I just wanted to explain this verbally the best way I can, and I would be glad to send pictures to whoever wants to see what I mean.

I don't mean to sound negative, and I'm not. I'm just trying to point out to any of you who seem to think you are getting perfect results. I do love my nose regardless, don't even have to think twice about that. It may sound silly but I always thought about my nose before, making me really insecure and shy when it came to having a face to face conversation but now I feel like I don't even think about it anymore. I do have my insecurities, I came to realize a nose doesn't fix all of that, but at least i'm not constantly worrying about it and it doesn't affect my everyday life like it did before. Despite the slight imperfections, I truly love it. I don't obsess over it like I did in the first month after surgery nor do I ever notice the difference that much when it swells versus when its not.. To me that difference is minor. On the bright note, I saw my fiancé about 3 weeks ago, and he didn't notice a single thing. For those of you who don't know, I didn't tell him a thing about the surgery (we are long distance) because of how scared I was about being judged. I even asked him if he noticed anything different about me (with no intention of telling him) and he said "no why?" I laughed and since I dyed my hair before he came, I just used that as an reason as to why I asked haha.. Men really don't pay attention to detail.

So everything is going well I just have a few observations i'd like to share. Since cast removal, I felt a bump (which feels kind of like a ball) on the right side of my nose at the very top right near my tear duct. However, it can't be seen, I can just feel it when I run my finger by it.. another is: on my LEFT side right by my tear duct I feel like theres more bone and I think that was due to my wide nasal bones, that he probably left there because it was so close to my eye, but when I work my way up to my nose from my left side near my eye, theres sort of like a step (for lack of a better word) that my finger takes to get there. So I have a lot of bone near my eye, then when I touch my nose on that side on the very top, it feels like theirs an indent. Again, not visible, just feels weird when I run my fingers by it. Last one that IS visible and is actually starting to upset me since it's more becoming more and more pronounced, is my columella. I can definitely see that he raised my tip; that's a definite. But when it comes to my columella, its actually quite droopy and I hate that. The whole reason as to why I got rhinoplasty was to fix the droopiness of my tip and columella both, not just my tip. However, my tip is still swollen (or maybe it's not as swollen as I think since he put spreader grafts and I'm not used to my nose feeling thick since I originally had thin skin around my nose) so i'm just hoping it will change? and my columella will not drop so low.. Like I said in my last post, i'm still unhappy with my 3/4 view I think it looks the worst because my bridge is skinny and my tip is big but again, i'm hoping this is just swelling and it will go down..