57 No Children, Don't Want to Look Like a Post-menopausal Boy Any Longer - Garden City, NY

I never before considered breast augmentation surgery. When I was younger, I was always been satisfied with my slender, athletic and firm body. Really small boobs has always been part of the equation. But now I'm post-menopausal and I want to feel more like a woman than a boy. Besides it's harder and harder keeping a fit figure, even with working out. No longer do I have a flat and firm mid-section. In fact, my stomach is bigger than my breasts! I have boob envy toward other woman. I decided then it was time to make that change and get my dream boobs. I came across this site and decided to chronicle my experiences to help other woman in my age group pull the trigger. It seems there are not enough of my age group posting in here. I see a lot of 20 year olds in here. So here we go ladies. Follow me on my journey.I went on the Internet and stumbled across Dr. Leland Deane, and went for a free consultation. Dr. Deane spent a lot of time speaking with me and examining me, and right away I felt comfortable with him. He has 30 years experience and came across as someone with a lot of knowledge in his field. It didn't hurt that he was well dressed, well spoken, and also came across as having a lot of class and character. He seemed very caring and meticulous. I haven't found anything bad written about him anywhere. I was also impressed with his credentials and CV. I am a 34AA. depending on the bra, I can maybe wear a very padded 34B, but there is total coverage. No cleavage at all. Bathing suit and top shopping has always been an unpleasant experience for me because it's hard to find things that fit without looking like an empty gym sock. At the consult, special 3D pictures were taken of my breasts, which could then be enhanced to show what I would look like bigger. That really got me pumped up. I liked looking at my body with the bigger boob image. The only thing that makes me a little nervous about Dr. Deane is that he's conservative. He said he won't give someone giant boobs if it doesn't fit their frame. I don't want giant boobs, but I do want BIG boobs. As big as I can go up to a C cup. I made sure I mentioned that to him at one other visit after initial consult. He said cup sizes don't matter, that cup size is relative to each bra making company. But I still stressed to him that I'm not in my 20's any more, and although I appreciate his input, I want what I WANT. I want large boobs. I will not go through another surgery if I don't feel like he went big enough. Not happening. Also, I am using most of my savings for this surgery. I have to work full time for three months to make the money these boobs will cost. So I am going to trust that he will go as big as he possibly can for me. I want to be happy. My pre-op appointment is scheduled for June 6, 2016 and my surgical clearance appointment with my GP is June11, 2016. My big day for surgery is June 17, 2016. I was told since I already had my mammogram last October, I don't need one before the surgery. I'll post some before pictures now. I'll keep you posted as the journey continues.Last updated by myrealself58 on April 14, 2016

Last night I was reading my email on my iPad and received an email from the doctor's office saying they have to reschedule my 6/17/16 surgery date because the doctor was going to be away. It really bummed me out and I was upset. The next day I called his office and everything actually worked out for the better. The surgery was bumped up to May 11, 2016, just enough time to heal enough to go on my vacation on May 28 to Florida! I am sooooooo excited. It was too much of a waiting game until June. Then I immediately got on the phone to my GP to schedule the medical clearance date. I'm still watching all kinds of YouTube about women and their BA's. I told my husband he has to be around after the surgery and take care of me. I hope everything is smooth sailing from this point on.

It's hard typing on my iPad, and since my husband monopolizes the Mac, I had to wait for him to go out so I could use the computer and do my update. Anyhow, just like my title says above, I'm obsessed! Obsessed with breasts! It's all I think about, every moment of the day. Even while I'm concentrating at work, the thoughts of breasts are hanging around in the back of my mind, waiting to lunge out. When I have time on my pad, I'm doing research, reading about other women's experiences, going on YouTube for chronicles, learning about sizing and cc's, etc. I can't help myself. I'm so excited and anxiety ridden all at the same time. I am excited at finally get a pair of boobs at 57, and I have anxiety that my doctor won't give me what I want. I'm sure he's great, I just can't help it. I want big, full breasts, but not side-show big. I want cleavage! I want to feel like a shapely woman (who just happens to be in good physical shape - not to brag). I think a lot of it is because I never had children (not that I didn't want them, I just didn't - circumstances). This is my hoorah. I really hope I get what I want.

Now I know a WHOLE LOT MORE than my first consult with the doctor. I know what I'm aiming for, I just have to discuss it with him even further at my post-op next Monday. After looking at other woman with my height, weight, frame, I know I'd really like the 350 cc's Mentor Moderate Plus silicone. That's what I want!!!! I'll have to see what Dr. Deane says. He may even surprise me and tell me I could maybe go up to 375-400, we'll see. He did mention that smaller women tend to look better with the bigger boobies than tall, thin women. So here I am dreaming of my boobies. Don't get me wrong, as much as I can't wait for that day to come, I never want to rush my life away. I've learned not to do that now that I'm older. Every day is a gift, not to be taken lightly. But seriously, I'm very excited looking forward to that day! I'll touch base with all of you again after my pre-operative appointment with Dr. Deane. Oh, and that will be a big day for my bank account too, as I'm paying my balance in full! No turning back after that!!!!!!

I'd appreciate some positive feedback, if possible. I'm 5' 2" tall and weight 124-126 lbs. (126 lbs. if I eat like a man).