25 yo, 5'3", 125 lbs: Sientra Gummy Bear Silicone High Profile Breast Implants - 405cc

I've been reading a lot of reviews about people's experience before, day of, and after a BA and figured it would help me to write my own feelings and experience here as well. Honestly I can say that it was 10 years ago when the mere thought of getting a BA crossed my mind. I started growing early, which in turn meant that I stopped a lot earlier leaving me with not much. I'm 25 years old, 5'3", 125 lbs, and wear a 34A. Image has always been an issue for me, but I knew that everyone in my family and majority of my friends were against fake boobies. Even though I'm petite in general, I have the dreaded armpit and upper back fat as well as bigger arms considering my smaller size. I just felt like I was never proportional and it drove me crazy! Wearing tank tops and cap sleeve shirts were always a nono! It wasn't until last month as 2014 was just kicking in that I had the revelation that getting a BA would truly make me happy, and that I should get it done! In that moment I got up from bed, went to the laptop, started doing research, found an excellent physician with great reviews all around, and made the call for a consultation. I knew if there was any time to get it done, it would be this year right before I leave for my 2 week vacation that I had already gotten time off approved from work (I'm a nurse so we do plenty heavy lifting and I knew I would require a good amount of time out of the hospital). When I received a call back, I also got a date held for the surgery (refundable deposit so I figured I'd hold the perfect date while I could!). I had my consultation appt yesterday and I'm sooooo incredibly excited and I can't believe this dream of mine is becoming a reality! I almost wanted to cry because I was so excited! I began looking up pictures (as the doctor asked me to do as "Homework"), and look forward to discussing with him what I want in my pre-op appt on Feb 26. I've had a lot of questions answered by reading different reviews, but I assume i'll have more to come.

I've only told 4 people about me getting the procedure done, all of which are friends and 2 of the friends are co-workers. My 2 friends from college are going to be staying with me for the first 24 hours after, and they graciously accepted to help me as we have our "slumber party" lol. I don't have a very good pain tolerance and know i'll be super annoying, to which they said "it'll be more entertaining if anything." Such awesome friends. I do have fears about going too big, but I also have big fears of going to small! I'm also worried about the post-op look and how quickly they'll be able to drop. I'm also crazy worried about what my parents will think... I haven't told anyone in my family and debating on whether I should or not. My parents live 3 hours away and don't plan on seeing them anytime near my post op date. What are yalls opinions on the matter? I know that deep inside my parents love me no matter what, that I am a grown adult supporting myself, and am capable of making my own decisions, but I just don't want to hear them attempting to talk me out of having the procedure when I'm so set on it, and just want to leave all that drama out. They're biggest concern of course would be the money I'm spending that should "be invested in something more appropriate." (or at least that's what I imagine them saying) I've worked plenty of OT at work and I'm sure it will be more than worth the hard work! My brother will be the first to see me (it's just me and him going on vacation a week after my procedure), and I know he won't care, but he'll know for a fact that my parents will flip! I'm over what my friends will think and actually started to see that the friends I've told totally support my decision, which I'm happy to hear! In terms to everyone at work (who if anyone works as a nurse or in any field primarily composed of females, talk/gossip/drama is a pretty big thing), I pretty much just plan to walk in and figure out everyone's reactions then. It's kinda funny to think about, but there have been several nurses to get BAs so that worries me less.

I know I've typed out a book already, but it really does help to get these thoughts out! I appreciate everyone's reviews and can't wait to share my experience with y'all. I can't believe I'm having pre-op jitters when my procedure is over a month away! My hands shake when I think about it! I'm posting my wish pics, and when I get closer to my procedure date I'll post pics of myself as well! So excited!

So as my PS had asked of me, I've been looking up pictures of boobies like crazy! I feel like a crazy person with all these screenshot of boobs saved on my phone. I was being careless at work on my phone reading more reviews on realself and looking at pictures when a male coworker of mine asked, "Are you looking at pictures of boobs?!" Dumbfounded I said ,"Yea, so what??" Luckily he asked no further questions. Really need to be more careful when doing my research. I'm soooo excited about the pre-op Appt!! I can't wait to start getting into details and figuring out what I want and what size that'll be. I'm scheduled as of now for high profile sub muscular silicone implants with incision underneath the breast at the crease. I had a friend who got their incision there and she said she's perfectly fine with it, and my PS actually recommended that area since you're likely to lose some or a lot of sensation at the nipple if done in the areola and if you get at the armpit, they would have to do an incision at the crease anyways if they ever had to go in for changes or to take it out (which hopefully I won't have to do, but just in case, I really would prefer less scars).
I'm pretty set on getting a large C/small D cup. I want a pretty decent rack but like most people, don't want them to be OVERTLY fake. I've been looking at the model Emily Ratajkowski and her boobies look soooo beautiful!! I'm hoping I can get as close to her as possible! Really hoping for cleavage too. How likely is it to get cleavage with a BA?? The friend I mentioned earlier who had a BA 2 years ago isn't able to get good cleavage even with good push up bras! PS said I should have them but I'm doubtful :( Going to definitely bring this up at the appointment. I get what the difference between high and moderate profile but not sure what the difference in terms of appearance (if that question even makes sense). A lot of the other questions I have are just when I'll be able to do this and that. I'm REALLY hoping that 4 days post op I'll be able to do an international flight and vacation in Japan. I don't really have a choice so no matter what I'll just have to check in my bags and suck it up... and hopefully be prescribed something that can just knock me out!
I decided to tell my mom about the procedure after she comes back from out of country. I'll let her deal with breaking the news to my dad... hopefully I'll be across the pacific when that happens. Nervous about it but I know she'll love me all the same in the end :) posting some more wish pics, hope Dr. Ethridge is as good as everyone says he is!

Guess I'll go ahead and post pics of pre-op me. *sigh* so unhappy with my body :( can't wait for March 11!!