New Pics PO 3 weeks! TT and BL - Fort Wayne, IN

I've recently turned 30 and am 5'10" and 150lbs. After giving birth to and nursing my three gorgeous children I was left with a ton of stretchmarks both above and below my navel and my breasts are a very droopy and deflated D cup. I have always been a bigger girl and over the past year and a half I've lost over 60 lbs. I thought losing the weight would make me feel better about myself, and it does somewhat when I have my clothes on, but when I'm undressed I feel like I almost look worse now than when I was heavier. My breasts are even more deflated and my stomach hangs like an empty plastic bag, especially when I bend over. I try to avoid letting anyone see my stomach, I don't even like to be naked in front of my own husband anymore. My husband is amazingly supportive and tells me all the time how beautiful I am and that I am too hard on myself, but he also sees how unhappy I am. I feel guilty for spending so much money on myself and for all the slack that he'll have to pick up while I'm recovering, but he keeps telling me that we'll all benefit when I'm happier. I feel lucky to have such great support. Having the lift and TT is something I have wanted for a long time, but never thought it would be possible. After talking to my husband about it and finding out that he didn't think I needed it (typical sweet husband response :), but that he understood how important it was to me, we figured out how to make it work. I had consultations with three different PS before deciding as I wanted to make sure I made the right decision and was completely comfortable with my Dr. I called yesterday to schedule my surgery for Feb 24th and pre-op appt for Feb 6th. It all seems so real now and I'm both excited and nervous! I have been all over the site for the past couple of months gathering information and I would love any advice anyone has especially about recovery time and what I need to have ready/do beforehand to make things go as smoothly as possible. Pictures coming soon!

I can't believe it's almost exactly a month until my surgery. It seems like I've been wanting this forever and I'm so excited it's finally getting close! I've been reading everyone's reviews and it's been really helpful in showing me what to expect. It's also helped me in making a list of what I'll need/want during recovery. It's also nice to see everyone's results so I can hopefully set realistic expectations. What worries me most, other than complications obviously, is being disappointed in my results. I know almost anything will be better than what I have now, so I keep trying to remember that and not hope for perfection. I'm just ready to feel better about myself and not have to hide from everyone, even my own husband. I know it bothers him how self conscious I am, he just wants me to be happy. He was a little concerned last night when I mentioned emptying my drains, but I have faith in him :)

I'm adding some before pics, even though I absolutely hate them. I know how helpful pictures are and I just can't wait to be able to look back at them and see how far I've come!

Feeling a little uneasy today. I left RealSelf open last night so when my husband got on the computer he read a review that I had been reading. Thankfully it was a pretty smooth one :) It still made him nervous though and he asked me last night if I'm sure I want to do this. I know he'll support whatever I decide, he's just worried about something bad happening to me and said he doesn't like the idea of me being cut and the scars looked painful. Honestly I'm not looking forward to being splayed open either, but I still think it will all be worth it in the end and he'll be happy with the results, too. Him bringing up the possibility of something bad happening just really brought it back to the front of my mind. I've been trying not to think about that too much, especially since it makes me feel so guilty. I don't want anything to take me away from my family, but I want to be happy with myself. I know the chance of complications is very small, but am I crazy to take that chance at all?