I'm Ready for a New Start with a New Body! - New Post Op Pics

I'm a mommy with two kids - 5 and 11. Like many of the women on the site, I had the amazing blessing of babies and it's something I wouldn't trade for anything in the world! However, two pregnancies definitely destroyed my once taut, pretty tummy.

I have always been quite slim- 118-120 pounds and eat healthy, but the saggy "soufflé" tummy never goes away. I call it that because it literally looks like a deflated soufflé! I went through a very painful divorce a couple of years ago. It did alot to damage my confidence in myself. I am so ready to put the past behind me and make a fresh start with a new bod!

So today I'm starting to freak out a little bit. I'm worrying about swelling, drains and pain, but mostly about not waking up from surgery to see my kids. I'm 38 and of course I worry that there may be some complication and I'll regret the whole decision. How could kids understand that they lost their mommy over a tummy tuck, and now they have to live with daddy and his girlfriend. Ok...so maybe I'm being a little bit over dramatic. :) But, still I can't seem to shake that worry in my head. The idea that this is selfish or superficial somehow keeps going through my head too. I guess everyone goes through SOME second guessing? Anyways, I do have to say that this site has been tremendously helpful in calming some fears. SO many of you have had amazing, beautiful results and I'm hoping for the same. Another thing that has been really encouraging is that I recently discovered a couple of close friends of mine had tummy tucks years ago. It was great to hear their experiences, and it felt like a confirmation that I'm going to be really happy with my decision. I have mixed feelings at this point, but I'm keeping my eyes on the final prize- no more souffle tummy, no more tucking the skin flap into my pants or wearing loose tops to disguise it, and being able to wear a two piece bikini without the tank top over it- woo hoo! I finally got the courage to post some before pictures..

Got some bad news yesterday. I've been having some abdominal trouble for the past few months and was told by my GI that I need a Colonscopy..UGH. He suggested that I wait on the TT until I have this done. SO, looks like I have to push my TT out two more weeks.. So bummed, but want to make sure I'm in optimal health before going through the surgery. I've waited this long, so I guess I can wait two more weeks...