33 y/o, No Kids, 350cc Mentor High Profile Silicone Gel Under

I've been using this site for a couple of months now and it's been my go-to for information and reviews, so I thought I'd give back with my story and also have a place to ask for feedback. I'm not ready to post bare pictures yet - but after my surgery I'll be brave so that I can contribute to this wonderful resource.

Like many ladies on here, I've been wanting breast implants since I realized I wasn't going to grow any naturally which was around age 15. I just could tell I had nothin' brewing lol. I was embarrased by my small chest for a long time (I used to think of them as 'bee stings' - yuck), but now that I'm older I've learned to embrace them. I don't hate them per say, but I have always been able to envision myself with breasts that are proportionate to my frame and I LOVE that vision :) My hips have always been about 10" wider than my waist and my chest just looked so out of balance. Going through with the surgery will change me from a pear shape to an hourglass and I'm all about that.

I went for my consultation on 10/2/15 to explore costs and learn more about the process. Dr. Babbitt was very easy to talk to, and once I realized the expense was doable for me, I got so excited at the thought of going through with it. I thought about it for a couple of weeks, going back and forth and bouncing thoughts off of a couple close friends and my boyfriend, then decided to go for it. My surgery is booked for 12/3 - it's 2 weeks away at this point and it's becoming so real now.

I go back and forth with my feelings at this point - one day I'm SO EXCITED for it then the next day I'll be a ball of worries over everything - how they will look after, how I will feel about replacing them when the time comes, what I would look like if I had them removed, if I should spend the money, etc.

The doctor was really helpful in helping me decide on the size - he was very confident that 350cc high profile mentor silicone gel would be perfect for me. When I tried on the sizers the 350 felt way to big, but he assured me that the final result would be closer to the 300cc sizers after all was said and done. The 300cc sizers were my favorite, so this seemed like a good choice. I have been kind of obsessing over size though since then, so went back this past Monday to talk more about it. I brought pictures of what I liked and didn't like and let him know that I'd be more upset if they were too big than too small (I think the opposite of many women). I'm VERY active - I go to they gym every day, love to snowboard, hike, etc. so I don't want overly large breasts getting in my way. During my meeting on Monday, he said very confidently that he felt the 350cc were my 'sweet spot' and that he was actually glad I was worried about them being too big as he prefers a natural look on women.

So, I stuck with the 350cc and that's my final choice! Now I'm at the point of wavering between if I should cancel at the last minute or go through with it. I want them so bad and am fine with the recovery process, but I'm most nervous about what it will mean for 50, 70, 90 year old me. Do any ladies have any similar thoughts or experience? I don't want to hold back but I also like to make good choices in life, ya know?

That's it for now - I'll update more now that I've broken down and started my review. I hope to hear from anyone going through a similar thought process!

It's feeling SO REAL right now! It's Sunday and on Thursday by noon I'll be through my surgery. I'm spending the day today cleaning the house and getting setup with the help of my boyfriend (who is awesome and so helpful). I am realizing that I actually don't have a whole lot to do to get ready which is a nice feeling. I'm going to have lots of help after my surgery so I don't really need to go crazy with food prep or stocking up on things - very grateful for that! I'm feeling some anxiety but mostly excitement. I've got a few swimsuits and a dress that I'm going to take 'before' pics in so that I have good comparison for after :) Woo!

Only two more full days of work until it's B-Day! I'm in a very positive mood and am determined to keep my head in the right space leading up to my special day. I am a big believer that you can manifest your own health and destiny to a certain extent, so I'm putting all of my energy into being extra positive, healthy, and upbeat this week. I have some nervousness about the procedure for sure, but I'm past tossing back and forth about my decision and am all in and feeling confident.

I saw my PCP today (actually she is a Nurse Practitioner) and she was so excited for me. It made me feel great to have her support - she thinks I'll do great and will love my result.

I called the office today to make sure I'm not missing anything and it's looking like I'm good to go! Surgery is scheduled for 6:45AM on Thursday morning, and my boyfriend is taking the day off to bring me. I have an awesome wedge pillow to help me sleep upright, snacks and meals prepped, a clean house and laundry, and a partridge in a pear tree lol.

The bra he is putting me in is called the Under Armour 'gotta have it' bra - it's a basic compression-style sports bra. I'm happy about that - I can put it to use after the surgery as well since it's a good quality item.

I guess now I just sit and twiddle my thumbs and try to get work done without daydreaming of my adorbs new bosoms :P