Duran BBL June 2014

Hey guys! I had to make myself stop going on cause i was just ADDICTED to this site. Wow only fourth months left to go. I already paid off my recovery house but i still havent bought my plane ticket or passport ahhhhhh ill do that this month. Ive been feeling really nervous latley like "do i really wanna do this? Am i ready to go off on my own for the first time and do something to alter my body in a country i am not familiar with?" ...... YES I AM! Im just scared. This is going to be the moment where (i know this sounds so childish) i finally grow up. I can do it tho. Im a big girl. Im just afraid of airplanes. Ill probably cry. Im really scared of the way back. I live in cali so the plane ride is a ten hour flight. Yikes! Whatever all for the booty. My mom keeps trying to change my mind. Since ive been gaining weight my moms like "your growing a booty!" And then ill be like " AND ITS GONNA BE EVEN BIGGER!!!" Haha! I cant stop thinking about it. Theres not one day i dont wonder what its going to look like. Im scared but i trust duran. I dont want a ghetto booty but one that fits and complements my shape. One that people i dont know will never suspect. Obviously the people i know personally WILL know but eh, whatever i guess. As long as i feel good about myself. Right now i weigh 110 lbs my goal weight is 125. Its so hard to keep the weight on you guys :( and it sucks even more cause i was forced to take a walking class in order to be considered as a full time student at school -____- damn that one unit i needed. And because of that class i keep losing more weight!!! >:0 its not fair. And i notice that i lose weight being at work too because they have me running around fixing the store. So thats my dilemma at the moment. Keeping on the weight :( which reminds me, i need to buy iron tablets....