Summer 2016 - From Apple Shape to Hourglass (Plus Size) - Dominican Republic

Hello lovely ladies of RealSelf

So I am finally here and ready to pull the trigger on this long, long, LONNNNNG wait for the Brazilian Butt Lift surgery. I have been thinking about this for over two years and I just can't wait for a tomorrow I cannot see anymore.

I am a plus sized 29 year old woman. No kids. About 5'3, 5'4 250 lbs. How depressing.
And that is after some weight loss (more on this later if anyone is interested).
I am top heavy. All my weight is in my breast, arms, and wide waist.
I have been unhappy about my body for as long as I could remember. I can't tell you how long I believed the shape of my body no matter if I'm bigger or slimmer has been the source of my discontent. I have it in my head that a smaller waist would be the answer to all my problems. I hear thats not true but in my case I'm pretty sure its a great headstart. You ladies do not know how much of my life I've stunted being emotionally tormented by what I look at in the mirror.

I've come here to vent honesties I could never say out loud to anyone in person.

While I believe diet and exercise is the end all be all, the shape of my figure would make the world of difference. For this, I am planning to have my surgery done late June 2015 and I will not be looking back.

I am not telling a soul, not even my mother. I have moved in with my family temporarily and am using the funds I saved to do this. After much deliberation, I have chosen Dr. Yily for her spectacular work on waists. I will need a tummy tuck but I will not be doing that in DR. I will continue losing weight and working out and do it safely in the states.

This is going to be my first round of maybe too. My priorities are SNATCHED WAIST first, butt second. I am not looking for a BIG butt (although many girls look so amazing with that). I don't want that kind of attention outside of a realm I can control. I want her to add to my butt but its more about shape. Save me from my flat back self. Give me a full, sweetly shaped upside down heart butt and eliminate as much of my wide waist as possible safely.

I want to buy my plane ticket tonight and I am sending my deposit in the morning.. but the only reason I haven't is because I want to make sure my cursed BMI is not going to be a problem. I am waiting for hte go ahead from Dr. Yily. Don't get me wrong. I am going to eat a pristine clean diet and exercise until my surgery to get down as much as I can for better results. But if the BMI is a problem, I will have to cancel until much later. As a student I don't have much free time to travel.

Never mind the fact that I am hiding this from everyone who sees me every day. They just know I faithfully workout and diet.

I will document every step of this journey on here and hopefully help someone out there who is lurking amongst the many reviews the way that I have been doing on and off for the past couple of years.
Feel free to ask me anything. I am happy to help and am just grateful RealSelf exists. Keeping this as my secret is unnerving as it is. I feel lucky you all are here for support.

With love,
The (soon to be, god help me) Hourglass Honey

So unsurprisingly I called Yily's office and after details of where to send my deposit and things they explained that my BMI has to be 35. Its about 40 right now.

Its more than me wanting to do the surgery sooner. I'm in a rigorous school program and we only have 2 breaks, each one week long. If I don't keep my late June date, I won't have another opportunity until close to the end of the year I believe. After that I don't know when I would get off time again or if I'd even have the funds by then.
I also feel so let down my self with goals that are too far for me to really see. I need something tangible to hope for.

Now I can drop quite a bit of weight with focus because Im a special kind of fiend but 5 BMI points? I don't know. Is it crazy to try?

But they did say if I couldn't come on the scheduled date that I could reschedule

Part of me wants to just pay that deposit so that its real. I have a way of making things happen at crunch time. Although emotionally I feel I just need this change


I won't be doing a tummy tuck even though I probably need one because I prefer to do that within the US and after I have reached my fitness goals. I plan to train and go all of the way to Bad Bish Kingdom lol

I consider this bbl a much needed shaping not to be misconstrued with weight loss

These plane tickets are not cheap though. I can reschedule a surgery date but I wouldn't be happy losing out on $500+ for a plane I never took. And I'm worried the longer I wait to buy plane tickets, the higher the cost.

Anyway tonight I'm looking into getting a new passport and start making a list of what I will need/begin ordering them.

Hand to sky, I will be transforming into the girl I see in my head.

5 BMI points? No problem.. ????????????????????

First of all I'm highly skeptical of my ability to lose just enough weight in two months. I really thought about it and did some math. I will find out when my other week long break is because that is something I'd more likely pull off.

My other concern is I'm obsessed with the idea of a fabulous tiny waist in proportion to the rest of my body. I am more concerned with this than a big booty. I am all about that silhouette honey. I don't want to put my all into this with mediocre results so I want to get a lot of this fine myself for better results

I am all about the follow through right now so I'm getting the ball rolling. I had to call Yilys office and ask for deposit information like three separate times (days). The English speaking girl finally emailed me the complete info.
If the bank is open tomorrow I am going to send my deposit in for my tentative current date.

Now the weight loss in itself. I secretly had the weight loss surgery a few years ago. I got the gastric sleeve. It was a fail. Well I did lose nearly forty pounds that never came back but that's somewhat negligible. My real issue is with depression. I don't sit and eat large meals before or after. But I do graze on the impulse of emotion which maintains my caloric intake. I don't even necessarily bother with junk or fast food but intake is intake.
Also the sleeve is a tool. Carb rich foods don't keep me as full for long which is conducive to grazing. Protein rich foods fill me up fast which I find a problem when I'm feeling sad and the act of chewing is undermined by being too full. Depression is something I have to actively manage. When I'm healthy, on meds or managing well I'm a force to be reckoned with. When I'm low, well.

My plan is to utilize my tool, the sleeve, as intended but train like I used to in my better days and monitor a restrictive diet I got from fitness folks and lifters.

I will be on a low calorie diet rich in protein and fat and very low in carbs. Each meal essentially will be meats and plenty of dark leafy greens. Fat and protein will fill up my sleeve fast in relatively small portions and it keeps me full way longer.
In addition I will use intermittent fasting which is essentially eating within a certain window of time daily. Its like a six to eight hour window so or example if I start getting my calories in at 10 AM, my last meal has to be eaten before 4 and 6 PM for the day. Its just a nice way to regulate your feeding and hormones etc. I've done it in the past. I have a nice clarity when I work out, get through my day. My current schedule will work well with this. For simplicity's sake I will keep my meals basic and just repeat them most days.
I will be drinking plenty of water although the next few days will suck so hard. When I drop all carbs and sugar, I end up needing to pee so often it's ridiculous. Then the more water you drink the more you get thirsty and so forth. That's the diuretic effect of the low carb thing at play. For this reason I won't be so hype about the initial drop in weight because it's artificial water weight. But it's still nice to see!

I'll be tracking my progress on an app I love called LoseIt on android. Logging all the food and the weigh ins will keep me on task although I think confiding in you guys will be even more effective.

With a very clean nutrition plan (I will be starting my vitamin supplements from now too) I know I can drop some nice weight. I won't feel that great until maybe a week from now as I adapt.

My bigger concern is the gym time. Now is not the time to go nice and easy but I also have to pay attention because eating lower carefully rationed calories means lower energy at first. I will be doing loads of cardio and some weight training. The time commitment alone makes me sad lol. But I'm at my wits end with this terrible relationship I have with my body. I want to be comfortable in the skin I'm in. I'm a smart person and I can get things done if I really want to so why not do this for myself

Reading these reviews and seeing everyone personal journey is so inspiring. I hope to contribute in a meaningful way in this community. I will try to keep showing up and hopefully I will have something beautiful to show ask of you lovely women out there sometime soon