31, 5'4", 115lbs, No Kids, 397-421cc Natrelle Classic Round Silicone Gel, Submuscular, Transaxillary

Not sure how many months out I am from surgery, but my right breast still looks botched, and my left armpit is still collapsing. There is a permanent crease on the bottom of my right breast. Now I'm starting to see really rippling on the sides. There is so much... Outwards? Horizontal? Projection, like the implants are WAY too wide for my ribcage/frame and extend beyond where they naturally should. There is nothing natural-looking about my breasts. I want to laugh when I look back at my consultation and remember my PS assuring me that they wouldn't be [RS bleep] star boobs when I expressed concerns over the implants being too big for me. I was told to wait six months for them to "settle" before coming back to discuss revision/an explant. My PS wants to do a lift, but I hate these implants and I want them out!
I knew there were risks, but I wasn't prepared for the health problems that have started cropping up since getting implants. I wish I had known I wouldn't be able to do pushups or upper body exercises anymore. I wish I had known that I wouldn't be able to run without hearing a constant sloshing sound in my chest. I wish I had known I was going to be in pain all the time. I wish I had known that every night was going to be a struggle to sleep comfortably. I wish I had known that I wouldn't be able to find bras that fit. I wish I had known I was going to be stuck with ugly maternity and nursing bras. I wish I had known that after my surgery my body image and self-esteem were going to plummet. This was an expensive and emotionally painful learning experience.

My next appointment is coming up in June, and my stomach is tied up in knots. I'm supposed to be taking pictures. Instead I'll be requesting an explant. My right breast shows no signs of improving. If anything, it's getting worse. I don't know if it's my imagination, but the crease looks like it's lowering. I'm terrifed that it's bottoming out. The night I first noticed it, I had horrible nightmares; pure body horror. I woke up crying. I've been doing that a lot lately. I hate looking at my breasts.

I'm always in pain. It's uncomfortable to sleep at night. My right breast has a constant burning and pulling sensation at the crease and outer edges. I'm sore when I wake up. Running is uncomfortable, and I can hear/feel fluid in my upper chest when I'm active. My implants are so heavy. I'm always surprised by how soft they are to the touch, because I feel like I'm lugging around two boulders on my chest.

I couldn't have asked for a more disappointing outcome. My results are heartbreaking and the opposite of what I wanted. My implants are too big. My breasts don't look natural. They're somehow too high and drooping at the same time. My right breast is deformed. My left armpit is collapsing. I can't wear a normal bra. I can't wear a normal bikini top. I can't wear a sleeveless top without exposing myself. I wasted so much money and time. And I have no one to blame but myself.

Lopsided bolt-ons with a growing refund gap. Just the look I was going for.