36, Single Mom of 2, Yogi Who is Ready to Love Myself.

Here we go...I am a 5 foot 36 year old single mother of two kids who are now 14 and 11. I have struggled with weight my whole life being successful at taking it off every couple years for reasons unknown just to have it return for the same unknown reasons. I say unknown because I have had the same workout regimen and diet for years now, I like to do yoga...daily when I'm at my best but the one thing that has always been consistent is my belly. In all of my life, I've never had a flat belly or anything close enough to feel good about myself in a swimsuit. This year, I've decided to do something about it.
I chose my surgeon after doing two different consultations, which were both great! I had a great personal reference from a family friend for Dr. Wolfe and both I think would have been fantastic. In the end, I've chosen Dr. Wolfe to complete my tummy tuck. This website helped so much with that decision, after researching incision lines and scars, I felt like he would give me the best outcome in the end. After a LOT of deliberation I've chosen to complete my surgery on December 21st. With time off of work and the kids out of school for winter break I think this will be the easiest time to do it. Am I sad it's so far away? Of course...but I'm going to make the most out of this time and I know it'll go by quickly! One of my main concerns with this surgery is the ability to do yoga afterward. Are there any other Yogi's out there that can give me some real life expectations? On May 20th I started a 216 day journey (the sacred number 108*2) of doing yoga every damn day. By starting on May 20th my final day will be surgery day and my hope is that my body will be incredibly open and limber for what is about to endure. I've done 108 days about once a year for the past few years, so I'm hoping twice in a row will get me in the best possible shape!! I'll weigh myself in the morning and put up some before pictures with it, but I just wanted to stop stalking all of you and join in already.

I went to my pre-op appointment yesterday and it made me SO excited. I can’t wait to get rid of all of this belly that I’ve had for so long. I took these pictures last week on a business trip and honestly, I’ve never taken pictures of my belly before. They were pretty shocking to me. That’s a lot of belly for a 5’0” frame! Instead of letting it get me down like I usually would, I see light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like I’m taking my future happiness into my own hands with this surgery and I just can’t wait!! Does anyone have experience with Exparel? Is it worth every penny?

So, my surgery is tomorrow and what started as nervousness, turned to excitement and has now turned to sheer and utter fear. I’m not sleeping well (or much at all), and having anxiety attacks all day long. Anyone else with me on this?? Please tell me everything is going to be okay.
I’m not sure what I’m scared most of, but maybe something going horribly wrong. I’m a single mom of kids who need me...was this a completely reckless decision? God I hope not. Has anyone else felt compelled to write letters to their family members just in case?? Or am I just too far down the rabbit hole?
I’ve made some fun plans for our whole family tonight and am taking them out to a nice dinner and then the musical The Waitress. My daughter, Mom and sister will love it, my son? Not so much. ???? I’m really just hoping that I can make it through this night I planned without a breakdown or needing a Valium!!
Any words of encouragement and positivity are much welcome. ??