I Found Me - Denver, CO
Let's see, rewind to 9 years ago. Had a beautiful...
Neck and back pain be gone!
The pain. Me whomever never takes anything pharmaceutical has succumbed to Advil PM, Tylenol...
I was looking at my breasts the other day and noticed how tiny my natural frame is. I am excited to see and feel my real beautiful breasts again. Not to mention implants have ruined my self esteem. I never want to take my shirt off during sex because my implants look... Yes FAKE!! My husband adores and loves me and finds me sexy. I don't let him touch those hard balls. Squishy on the sides but come on, straight on? It's like basketballs. I always tell him he has his own down yonder...:) most of all just excited to be the beautiful, natural, sexy, elegant woman that I am. ORGANIC. Does anyone have a good shopping list for after the explant surgery??
I've realized in the last couple of months as my back and neck pain have gotten worse, Ive become angrier and angrier with myself. My normal happy got get em attitude seemed to all but vanish. I was taking my inner anger out on my husband, whom was not always to blame for the things I was angry about. Then I realized what I was doing and how it was affecting our everyday lives. Being angry with myself for a choice I made a long time ago wasn't going to help today. Putting everything in me to curb my attitude and anger and turn it into positivity hasn't been easy. But I realize that this is just part of my journey and I can turn my experience into something that helps other women, and at the end of the day my experience has made me wise. I am truly thankful for all the wonderful things in my life, and although it seems strange, I am thankful for this experience. I am extremely thankful to be natural again!!!
I do have to say the lady at my PS office, Kerri Norris has been fabulous. She's incredible at her job and has put up with all my annoying questions!
Definitely worried about how they will look after my explant surgery. They are placed under the muscle. Will I have a lot of breast tissue? Ugh all of these things running through my head. I wish it was Monday at 12:00pm and my implants are out already!! I feel like a kid a couple nights before Christmas. I know mentally and physically I'll be much better after these terrible things are out! Can't say it enough, crazy excited to be natural again. I know
My chest, sternum, will look elegant once again. My posture will be back to awesomeness :) okay, so personal question... but... How many of you ladies were able to resume relations with your significant other? Another question, how long before you could resume yoga, leg exercises? I'll have drains in for a week so obviously I won't be able to do anything for a week (ugh) and another question :) what did you ladies do for this itching everyone is speaking of? Did any of you use coconut oil or sesame seed oil to massage after? I'm a baker, do you think I could return to work and just do small stuff after three days? The thought of having to sit at home for a week is excruciating! Hopefully I can return to snowboarding after the drains are out? I know I sound like a big baby, but I'm just so excited to be back to pre-implant self.. Hopefully with more breast tissue :) any advice to help me after surgery is greatly appreciated!! This site and the ladies on here has been an absolute gift to me.
Taking my mind away from all this nervous energy.
ready and done I'll be a burden? Does that make sense? I'm so used to just having everything done and powering through it all!
I'm going to go snowboarding today to help me take my mind off of everything for a couple hours, then come home and clean, get my sweet daughter ready for her week, and mine and my husbands week. Eeeeek so nervous but excited!! I hope I sleep well tonight! We have to leave our house around 6:30 to arrive in Denver. We thought about staying the night in Denver but I want my daughter to be in school. Any words if advice for me today ladies?? Xx
feeling exhausted. Snuck a peek and my nipples are really sad looking??:( and everything is flat. Can't wait for them to fluff up !!!!
Should I be wrapped?
Day two of bring natural.
Ladies, did you nipples look concave after surgery??
The good, the bad, and the ugly
1) If you have drains, they will suck :) they are annoying, unsightly, and they burn. Here's the good thing about them, they are draining all the gross fluid out of your body that you don't want to accumulate inside your body. Some surgeons have other women wear compression bras for that reason. My surgeon didn't. So
I made my mind up to respect these drains and get on with it. They are only in for a week and doing a big job. :)
2) Pooping, yes I said it. We all have to poop. Especially with the pain meds, the antibiotics, and whatever else you're on. I was off my game and hadn't pooped in two days. Last night my tummy was bloated and I just couldn't sleep. I luckily had followed the shopping list from
One of the other gals on here and eaten one last night. Apparently one wasn't enough, this resulted in me, up at 2:00am shoving prunes down my throat like a mad woman :) image 5. It worked. It was like Niagra falls.. Just out the other end. :)) I felt much better after, back to my 100 lbs lighter. (This reminds me, I should weigh myself) I was quite dizzy though... All that exertion Jajajaja. So ladies.... Eat prunes. Eat a couple before surgery to get all the pipes moving, and eat them throughout. You don't want all those meds sitting in your colon stressing your liver out. Besides, pooping gives you beautiful skin.
3) drink a lot of water! This also gives you glowing skin and helps with the pipes. Besides those two awesome facts, the best is that water helps your body heal faster.
4) probiotics, kefir, braggs apple cider, however you want to take your probiotics... Get them in your body. Those antibiotics not only kill the bad bacteria, they kill the good ones too.
5) Staying chill, seriously the hardest part for me, I thought I would be able to get back to my old routine and just do everything. Well... the problem here is? You just shouldn't. I definitely overdid it yesterday and just felt emotionally exhausted. Our bodies can't heal when our emotions are all over the place.
6) Stretch, I'm not talking full on yoga here, but wiggle your toes, stretch your legs, get that blood flow moving.
7) your breasts aren't going to look like Charlize Theron right after. That's okay. They are going to look a bit wrinkled, indented, and droopy. Again that's okay. You're a super woman, a hero, and you're incredibly beautiful. I couldn't even post pictures the first two days... I have to admit I cried, and I am just disappointed with how they look
Right now. However, I know they will fluff up and be perky cuties in no time. I'm posting my pictures on day three, all of you other beautiful women have posted yours, and been brave. I've been selfish and quite the baby. Don't let my pictures discourage any of you ladies going into surgery! Check out freedom up, unsure, natural goddess, light again...all the other ladies... They all turned out beautiful! I'm still waiting for my natural breasts to rebirth themselves. :)
8) You're beautiful. :)
acting like a 10 year old. Anyhow the argument exhausted me! I'm not a yeller and yesterday I "tried yelling" and couldn't even get my voice loud. It was exhausting. I told my husband he needed to be more responsible about keeping things calm Jajaja poor guy.
Emptying my drains today almost made me throw up, totally messed with my stomach. ;) did any of you ladies notice more blood draining on the third day? Just on one side? Hope it's normal!
Here's my day three pics for you ladies. Hope you're all doing well and healing beautifully!
Four days out...
I've been drinking hot water with, lemon, honey, and turmeric. Sometimes with braggs apple cider vinegar for the past four days. I really feel it's helping with my energy levels and my healing.
I can't believe it's Friday!! Monday I get these drains out whoohoo!! I'm so over them.. and the milking sheesh... the milking is disgusting. Growing up my granddaddy had goats and such, I absolutely refused to touch the utters and milk the goats. It grossed me out... I would almost milk a goat over milking my drains. Ewwwwwwwww!!! Okay, immature I know :) I've got to pass the time somehow :))
I will say, I still get pretty exhausted if I'm up walking around too much, which means? I'm doing too much. However, being that I'm 4 days out, that's to be expected. My mother in law flys in tomorrow and I can't wait!!! So glad I'm a good housekeeper and got any major cleaning done before surgery, otherwise I would be a OCD wreck right now. I've been keeping up on my chores to the best of my abilities though. Anyhow, Im posting pictures today. Still looking concave on the top... Keeping good spirits though. Hope you're all healing well, keeping your spirits. For those of you contemplating surgery or have made the decision to go through with it? Chea buddy!! Best decision ever!! Oh by the way, I had mentioned to another gal on here in regards to my breathing. My breathing is actually fine, I'm learning to take deep breaths again, but I realized, my lungs just have suffered since I had implants. Breathing before was not coming from my diaphragm, I was lifting those big jugs to breath :) now my chest is so light, I think my breathing is off. It's not :) it's perfect. Xx
Something to make us all feel better
-Edgar Allen Poe-
Had the worst time sleeping last night, sleeping upright is so overrated. Decided I was feeling well enough to put some decorations up... That didn't go over so well. Realized I hadn't eaten anything all morning, ended up eating toast, and oranges. Took a shower, I feel super stinky because I can't get under the water fully. The shower still feels good though. I've noticed my joints are hurting, as well as my legs and arms. Kind of like the flu feeling. I'm sure it's due to not being able to walk around much and get the blood flowing. My breasts look much better today. Still have a long ways to go, but we are friends again :)y left breast has a lot of catching up to do with the right. The left was filled to 400cc so I'm sure that's why. My nipples are finally coming around and going where they should. Rode in a car to pick my mommy in law up and felt my breasts just jiggling about. What a feeling!!! Here's some pics for you beautiful ladies!
Pretend we have some wine... "Cheers to good health, love, experience, and our beautiful natural selves" xx
I hope all you ladies are doing well :)
I'm starting to feel better, under my right breast where my incision is it's very sore. I ended up putting ointment on the hole where the drain was, as it seems it's having a hard time closing up. I let them get some air today and it seems to be helping. I have put tape around my nipples to help pull them in the right direction. I think the nurse taped my right breast higher where my incisions are so it makes them look off. Overall I'm starting to feel happier with my results. I look forward to what the fluff fairy is bring me. :) any suggestions on helping my nipples come out? I'm supposed to wait another four days to start working out.. But... I'm going to take one run on my board to the bunny hill today. Wish me luck ;)
Who did I promise juicing recipes too??
Support for one of our ladies!
Two week update.
The last two weeks has been an emotionally, and physically draining journey. I have days where I love the way my breasts look, and days where I find everything wrong with them. I constantly remind myself to be thankful for my natural breasts. One thing I never have to remind myself about, is how incredibly happy I am with my explant decision.
I went snowboarding yesterday... It was such an exhilarating day. I was so scared at first because I didn't want to fall and hurt myself. It's strange learning to trust your natural body again. My angels were definitely with me... I didn't fall once. Now I don't recommend going out and doing what I did unless, you have clearance from your doctor. :) I wasn't really supposed to go out until tomorrow when my two weeks was up. I went out again today and definitely paid for it. My body was exhausted, and my breasts hurt over every bump I hit. I pushed myself to hard because I was feeling better. Just because I'm, "at the two week mark" doesn't mean my body is completely healed.
I took my steri strips off last night, my left incision is healing nicely, my right, not as well. I'm
Bummed because I just want to be healed up already! My left nipple is still caved in but it's not as bad when I first had my surgery. I do however love the way my left breast sits. My right breast is not sitting like the left one :( I think there's some scar tissue where the drain hole was on the right that's making my breast sit strange. I'm using castor oil to help break it up. Both my breasts are sore today. They actually hurt, I can't describe the feeling but I hope it's because they are fluffing up in there :)
I have been able to hug for the last three days... What an awesome feeling. Although it feels strange because I'm used to gigantic boobs on my chest. I'm kind if thankful it's winter and cold here, because I get to ease into getting used to my new breasts under winter clothes. :)
It's still very strange to look down and not see huge boobs.
Are any if you women experiencing pains and soreness in your breasts?? I don't even know what's normal anymore because I had implants for so long. Are any if your breasts sitting strange due to your stitches?
I've added my photos. They are getting there.. I am just hoping my breasts will get some more volume. Oh and be symmetrical!
Happy New Years!
My breasts are doing well :) still hoping for some fluffing. When I lean down they definitely have a bit sock look. Hope that gets better with time. I will say, I'm loving my petite figure back. I have more breast tissue on the bottom.. Maybe I'll fluff a bit up top. My right incision is having a hard time healing. That is upsetting to me as I just want to be healed already! Any suggestions? Still get tired if I push myself too hard. I'm back on vitamin c, and starting a gentle detox. My breasts still feel tender especially my nipples. Any of you ladies experiencing this? Anyhow, here is my two week pic :)
Quick pics, will update tomorrow
Sorry I've been away. Crazy busy with work, by the time I get home I'm just tuckered. Can't wait to get around to all of your updates and see how all of you are doing!!
I've been well! Feeling really great with lots of energy yaaaay! I will give a more detailed update tomorrow. Just wanted to give you guys a pic! Can't wait to read all of your fantastic updates, and see pictures!!
Dr. Atagi, is hilarious! So sweet and genuine. I felt comfortable with her the entire time. Love that she made my husband and I laugh and was open and honest with everything. Her staff is absolutely wonderful! I can't say enough good things about Kerri Norris as well. I'm pretty sure I was one of those annoying girls with all the questions I had pre surgery. Kerri was accommodating and patient with me throughout. I highly recommend Dr. Atagi!!!