30 Years Old, current 32A - 295cc HP Natrelle Silicone Unders

I had a consultation at The Cosmetic Institute a few days ago with Dr Lee and have decided to book in my breast augmentation for 1st July - only 5 weeks time, eeeeek! I really liked Dr Lee - and have read some great reviews about him online from other girls so I have total confidence in his work. He was very honest with me about the risks and what I can expect. I have slight pigeon chest so my new boobs might be a bit 'sidey' with a bigger gap but he said he'd try and minimise that. I'm a 32A and I told him I wanted a natural look and didn't want to go too big at all. I tried on 240cc and 265cc both of which felt massive tbh! But on his advice we decided to go with the 265cc as he said the number one regret was wishing you went bigger and also that the 265cc will be easier to get cleavage with (because of the gap thing). I still think 265cc won't be too big and should be a nice modest look.

I'm really nervous about scarring though - he told me as I'm middle eastern I have a higher chance of deveping keloids. Argh. And of course worried about other issues like capsular contracture. But trying not to think too much about that.

Would love to hear from other ladies who have a similar profile to me or who have gone with Dr Lee! I'll continue to keep this updated through my journey

So it's less than 4 weeks until my op and whilst I am SUPER excited about my BA, here are some of the things I am obsessing worrying about (aside from the standard concerns on risks/complications!)

1) I am going with a cosmetic surgeon rather than a plastic surgeon. That said, I have only seen positive reviews about Dr Lee (lots of them too) and none negative. He has also been working as a surgeon for 15 years, seemed super knowledgable, and I like all the pics I've seen. But I still get the doubts creeping in and feel the need to scour the internet on a daily basis looking for MORE feedback on him just in case I can find something negative!

2) Recovery. I can't take a whole week off work as for the next few months I'm super busy with demanding clients, and I also have my annual leave for the year booked already. I am planning to take the Friday off work, recover over the weekend and then work from home on Monday/Tuesday and hopefully be able to go back in to the office on Wednesday!? I have a desk based office job and it's ok to work from home, no one will mind, but I personally hate it as I don't have a proper office set up at home so it's not that comfortable. It will be a struggle and being so busy is going to really stress me out if I'm feeling really crappy from the surgery :( Luckily I am really close with one of my colleagues and she knows I'm having it done but no one else does. This is my biggest worry.

3) SLEEPING. I have mild insomnia. I constantly wake up in the night and can't get back to sleep. I find it really difficult to get comfortble in bed. I've invested in good mattresses and orthopaedic pillows to help. I am a side / stomach sleeper (mostly side). I have *NEVER* been able to sleep on my back. I have no idea how I'm going to sleep on my back or at a 45 degree angle after the surgery! Maybe doc can prescribe me some valium or super strength sleeping pills to help me along?! Not being able to sleep is not going to help with the work-based stress either.

4) Pigeon chest. I don't want my boobs to be super sidey and weird looking. I want them to look nice and normal. But less worried about this as, as long as it's not super botched, I am sure I'll prefer them to my current flat chest.

Anyway just needed to get that off my chest (ha ha). Really just want to get it over with now!

Made some rice sizers in the size I'll be getting (265cc!) - I like them! I am happy with the size. I had a short moment where I was thinking "Should I be going bigger?" and then I had to stop and remember what it was I wanted in the first place, which is a modest, in proportion C cup. I think I just got carried away as I've spent so much time online looking at boobs! And most people go 300cc+. And people talk about wishing they went bigger so often! But everyone has a different frame, and different preferences. I just want something that suits my body shape, which I think these do...!?

Also, unrelated, but I told my parents that I was having surgery and they are both super supportive. They live in the UK and I'm in Australia and I wasn't even going to tell them because I figured they never needed to find out and I was scared about how they would react. But then I thought it is major surgery so I should probably let them know, and also if (when) my mum finds out afterwards she'd be upset that I didn't tell her. But they were totally fine about it and I think my mum is actually pretty excited for me cos she can see that it's something I really want! And my dad is a surgeon so he gave me the 'practical' talk and ultimately reassured me that it was a common and relatively simple operation so I didn't need to worry about it. I feel really relieved about telling them!

I also bought a v shaped pillow and it's really comfy for just sitting up in bed. How have I never come across this before!? I love it!