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Hello ladies! First off some background! I am a 32 year old mother of an AMAZING little 3 year old who is the light of my life! I am 5'8 (technically 5'7 1/2 but I'm rounding up) and about 185 pounds. I carry most of my weight in my belly, flanks and upper thighs (doh!). I have yo-yo'd over the last few years and at my highest I weighed 200lbs. After the birth of my little sunshine, I managed to get down to about 156lbs about 2 years afterwards (all by running 6 days a week) but have steadily gained weight since then. I had a C-section and gained a TON of weight which led me to have the dreaded mother's apron I have today. There was only a brief time in my life where I have been truly happy with my body, which was in my mid-late twenties. I have been thinking of getting a tummy tuck for about 2 years now and finally pulled the plug on it. July 22 is my surgery date and I feel....fear, excitement, apprehension, dread, elation, hope... it's a little overwhelming to think that in just a few days I could be on the road to finally feeling the way about my outside as I do about my inside :) It's 4 days until my surgery... I'm at work and I can't concentrate on ANYTHING except looking through posts/ pictures and imagining my own results!

Things I am looking forward to the most: Running and not having my flab wave at passerbys, running in only a sports bar, having a 6 pack, not being shy naked, enjoying more sex positions and not feeling self conscious (hello, [RS bleep] ;), confidence, better fitting clothes, being able to wear tight shirts, not having to suck in all the time, wearing sexy lingerie.

This is my least favorite part.... that pesky "before" part where I have to put my body "out there".... a body that even I myself don't even like to look at without clothing. I hoping that is going to change. Enjoy the rare peek under my clothes, ladies (and gentlemen?!), because this is the last peep show before the closing act! Adieu, adieu... parting is such sweet sorrow! Oops! Typo. Parting is such SWEET, HEAVENLY BLISS!!!!