Getting back what cancer stole

I was diagnosed at 35 with stage 1A breast cancer and am BRCA positive. I opted for a bilateral mastectomy with immediate reconstruction performed by Dr. Min.
I had my initial implant exchange on January 16th. When I woke up from surgery I had beautifully constructed boobs that were significantly smaller than I hoped for due to the thinness of my skin and sub muscular placement post mastectomy. I was disappointed, and discussed it honestly with Dr. Min at my post OP appointment. He listened carefully and came up with an approach to get me taken care of against these obstacles. A quick revision was scheduled and I was getting swapped for a larger implant above the muscle.
I LOVE my revision already. The work is phenomenal and I feel like I am 5 weeks away from having my life back 100%, including a small semblance of femininity that I have missed deeply.
When I found out I was sick it was a blur to try and coordinate getting on both his and the breast surgeon's calendar. I remember asking Dr. Min if I was being vain in trying to get it all together; shouldn't I just be focusing on surviving this and not worrying about how I look? He took my hand and said no, cancer is taking something away from you, and it's my job to help you get it back. I am grateful that he was a huge part of a phenomenal care team in a difficult time, and that he framed this struggle with such kindness.
I wouldn't wish the experience on anyone, but if you do find yourself having to make these decisions in a whirlwind please feel confident you're working with someone incredibly talented, capable, and compassionate with Dr. Min in addition to the entire Newvue team.

I'm really happy with how they've settled overall! They have a fair amount of rippling that had I stuck with the original sub-muscular placement wouldn't be so obvious so I went ahead and scheduled fat grafting to fill in said ripples. Truth be told- the fat grafting is just the icing on a long wished for tummy tuck cake that I'm moving ahead with. I'm perfectly happy with how my breasts are now. It just sucked when I was looking for pictures etc and there wasn't much out there so here are mine.
Oddly enough the asymmetry is the same as when I had my natural breasts lol.
I was told post mastectomy that the goal is unnoticed with a supportive bra and I honestly my breasts meet that definition now. I guess these will also function as a "before" picture for the fat grafting surgery too, but there is life after cancer y'all.