First, I really can't believe that I'm writing as I'm waiting for my surgery to happen. My story is kinda complicated one, so I won't go too much into details. 6 months ago I started considering BA since opportunity for it arose, and I have had small breast since I was a 14 years old. Fear played a big role in my life, so I see this surgery as an opportunity for personal growth as well as a chance to improve my appearance.
I'm very satisfied with my lower body since I was speed skater in the past, and I was always active. That is probably a part of the reason why I didn't develop breast as I was supposed to. Hormones aside of intensive training played a role too, so I ended up with 32AA.
I went for a consultation on February 25th. I live in Boston. I searched surgeons in area, even in Providence, but I decided to go with Dr Jeffrey Darrow. I actually have scheduled one more consultation after Dr Darrow, but I just canceled after talking to him.
First, I think it is so important that you like the work that is available on surgeons websites. I'm very petite, and I love natural look. If I really want to look sexy, I will just use push up bra or swimsuit, but otherwise, I want to look as natural as possible. I was impressed with his work. Breasts that he did look so natural.
I did quite a research before going to consultation, so I was ready. Again, I was impressed with his answers, willing to explain every single detail, time that he spend with me etc. I would say that he has his own style, and I like when surgeons have that. Since, I have very small frame, never had children before, and because I want that natural look, we agreed on 250cc. My left breast is little bit smaller, so there is a little bit of asymmetry. As we know that the more volume you have the difference is less visible, so I have decided to go with the same size in each breast.
I have talk to the anesthesiologist as well, and he seems so nice. He answered all my questions, trying to ensure me that all will be fine. As he could feel my fear even over the phone, he told me to take whatever I can to ease anxiety because once I'm there I will get some medicine. I'm scared of them too since I have dealt with panic attacks in the past. Doing some nice progress on CBT, but those coping strategies probably won't be enough in this case. I don't know how to prepare...
I prepared almost all. I will take some pics because it is easier to share, and I hope it helps you all. I have an emotional roller coaster since I finally booked it. I wasn't questioning if I should have done it or not, but I'm so freaking scared of this. I have never broke a bone or have anything similar. Just can't believe that I will go through it... Can't imagine that moment of walking up the stairs, and opening door to get inside the house. I know it sounds so depressing, but it is hard...
I will post some pics now, and later will post more.
Thank you ladies! I enjoyed every single post here, and I hope this will be beneficial for you as well.
Stay happy and healthy!