Get me off of this roller coaster!

So far, the lid drooping and dry eye issues have pretty much resolved. Not sure what the hell is happening now, but it would appear that most of the far didn't take, especially in the left eye. Once again, I traded great skin and bags for hollowness, scars, misshapen eyes, discoloration and 5K in debt. Follow up with doc in 12 days....mot soon enough. I'd really like some answers. The reality that another surgery may be necessary is glaring me in the mirror daily and that is something that I just don't know if I want to go through again, but working in media, I can't exactly have a hideous weird smile either.

So my surgeon sent me for a referral to an opthomologist today. So glad he did. It was reassuring to hear that most of what I'm dealing with is part of the healing process. She did say that we absolutely should've used the vitrase prior to the first surgery and wouldn't have needed the revision. Live and learn. I still feel mildly deformed and miss my original eye shape, I'm still discouraged about the new wrinkling caused by all these procedures, but I'm choosing to remain hopeful. Follow up in 3 weeks. Doc advised me to stop using the steroids and to use a gel lubricant and liquid tears instead. Also that the slight discoloration may be permanent but could possibly benefit from IPL. I'll give it a few weeks and see what happens.

Guess it would help if people knew what I looked like less than a year ago. This was taken in the newsroom at my tv station, so the lighting helps!