32 Yo, 3 Children, 2 Hernia Repairs... Never Been So Scared, Nervous, and Excited in my Life - Baltimore, MD

TT in the near future and I'm so scared. I even told my job I wanted to work the night before because I know I won't be able to sleep. To be honest all I can think about is me not making it off the table. Ive had two surgeries before, and never felt like this. So, I'm not sure what's going on with me. I'm trying to think more positive, but it's hard. ???? Anyway, I've continued to gain weight over the past few years. Plateauing at 228lbs, I've been working hard and managed to get down to 214. I was hoping to get down to 198 before the surgery, but it seems unrealistic at this point. I do plan to continue to workout, walk the dog, and eat right. So we'll see what I'll be able to do in 4wks. I don't have high expectations of anything because I don't want to expect one thing and something else happens. I'll just take the surprise and work on healing.

A girlfriend of mine who is 6mos post TT gave me this pot and I saw this post on Pinterest with a list of items someone else got for her post-op healing. Doesn't hurt to try them out.

I try not to overthink or be unrealistic about my results once I have healed, but if I could I would like to have the figure and confidence that these demonstrate