20 year old Afro-caribbean female Ethnic rhinoplasty with DR Oelbrandt from belgium

So guys i took off my cast today.... and I'm really unhappy!! I feel like this last few days since having my sugery have been so draining emotionally and physically and I'm really struggling and regreting my decision as the days go on. I definitely still would have wanted my nose done, but the experience/results Im seeing are soo depressing.
So its day 6 and I took off my cast. The swelling around my eye area has been real and still is! Particularly my right eye. The good news is that my nostrils are not as triangular as the did when the tampons were in but i noticed that once i took them out. When my surgeon called me in for my preop on the day of my sugery, he said that he couldnt narrow my tip because my ears were too small to be used for a tip graft ... even though we had discussed this in my previous consultations and I had suggested that I didnt mind both ears beign used for grafts. He suggested that he used a metpor implant, which I refused again, like i did in the previous consultions. I saw this as a window to relay my expectations to him. I told him that i was very happy and comfortable with my profile, and that I didnt want much change there, but was aware that to reduce the tip some mild raising may occur, which I was okay with as long as it was MILD. I told him that I wanted my nostrils, slightly reduced whilst maintaining thier naturally round shape and my bridge brought in alongside the mild reduction in my tip. Therefore, i wanted a slightly smalle version of my nose. He said okay, but that in that case I shouldn't expect some of the definitions that he had shown me of pictures from some of his other patients. I gladly accepted and agreed!

So after the on day 1 of my rhinoplasty, i began slighthly panicking from the triangular shape of my nostrils, this resolved slightly after I took out the tampons in my nose on day 2. But one thing I noticed from day 1 was how heavily projected my nose profile had become! initially i tried to comfort myself by saying it was the cast that made it so prominent etc. But upon taking off the cast today, I am soo depressed and confused because whilst the front profile looks okay, my side profile make me look like pinocchio... i know that sounds funny but i cant even laugh, i am soo depressed right now.
I feel like my sadness is also coupled with the fact that at day 6 i still look soo unrecognisable to myself. I hope its only swelling, but my eyes look completely different. i have large bold circular eyes and now they look more triangular and small. Also my stitches ae still soo visible and are not dissolving at all for day 6. I'm so depressed and self concious that i'm stuck in my flat because i don't want people to see me and see how different I look. I wanted subtle changes that will almost unnoticable to most people. But the overprojected pinnochio profile coupled with the completely different eyes and extremely visioble alar and collumela sutures I am officially so depressed right now.
Also!! My vision has become blurry and i cant really see from afar, which i could before. I noticed this particularly on my way back from belguim yesterday when i was looking at the train boards. My eyes are constantly irritated and my tear ducts are blockd because i can even tear up when Im crying about how depressed i feel. I know this is such a rant, but I cant rant to my mum because she was quite against this and the other person that i told is helpful but is really busy and doesnt really understand the whole rhinoplasty thing per say.
It would be really nice if i could get some encouragement/ stories from others, has anyone else experienced something like this???

So it's the 22nd of may and I got my surgery done on the 29th. Swelling is still pretty bad especially in my eyes and cheeks but nostril stitches are healing.
My main complaint on my first day post op was the triangular shape of my nostrils but that seems to be improving; and I hope it becomes more and more circular as time goes on. As far as my profile is concerned it looks way too projected at the moment and there seems to be a hump on it especially on the right side; I hope all of these are just part of the swelling/ caused by the cast.
I can't wait for the swelling on my face to go down because I miss my normal face lol especially my eyes, they are so puffy and swollen at the moment. I getting the train back to the UK from Belgium tommorow evening which I'm kind of looking foward to because I'm kind of over this hotel room lol. But just thought I'll quickly update on here about my progress so far.

So I had my operation earlier today. The swelling is not soo bad at the moment even though I took a nap in the hotel when I got back. So fingers crossed it won't swell any more than this. I've been able to see my nostrils whilst changing the gauze and to be honest I'm note soo happy. They look triangular and completely different from my previously circular nostrils which I specifically asked to be maintained. I know it's just day 1 and the tampons are still in my nose; but I can't help but slightly fear that they are going to remain this way. I hope not! Otherwise I'm doing fine back in my hotel. My mouth and throat are soo dry because I'm having to breath through my mouth because of the tampons in my nose. But my doctor said that I can remove the tampons tommorow. Hopefully breathing will be back to normal then. I'm also still breathing from one of the incisions at the left side of my nostril; also the incision on my ear is still slightly bleeding (because abit of cartilage was taken from my ear to be used on my nose tip. I have not felt nauseated at all which is great and probably due to the twilight anastasia used.