Finally Going to Happen : ) - Altoona, PA

I have had a lot to deal with since having my TT w/muscle repair. Lost my mom- had to have a full hysterectomy b/c of a large grapefruit sized mass on my right ovary. It was not cancerous but of course he wasn't sure until in the operating room where it was dissected right hen and there. Thankfully he was able to leave my left ovary so at to NOT shove me into menopause early. And then after dealing with all of that, we lost our oldest son last June. It's been a tough 2 years and so my husband is trying to get me to focus on something and I was planning on going for breast augmentation last fall but it was not the time to even consider it. I am planning on 350-375 ? under the muscle shaped gummy bear implants. I've already paid my deposit and have my mammogram set up for this week. I go for pre-testing on April 23rd. I do not want to have huge boobs but I want nice looking boobs that will be preportionate to my body. I thoroughly trust Dr. Louton in guiding me in the right direction :)

I have a Dr. appointment tomorrow and I hope that he can assure me that the work that he has done on me will survive my upcoming hysterectomy surgery. I went to the ER about 3 weeks ago in severe pain. I thought that I was having an appendix attack. Here they found a large mass on my right ovary. I was referred to a Gynecology Oncologist b/c of the size, shape and make up of it. I went and met with one and am scheduled for surgery on the 20th of this month. He knows about my TT and MR and that I obviously have a little bit of body image issues. Hell even I know that I do... I hope that it's just a benign cyst and that he can just take what he needs so that I won't be shoved into early menopause. I do not want to gain weight on top of what all I have just been through and this time around the healing is supposed to be much, much worse. I thought that my TT/MR recovery was fairly mild. Well from what I've read, it's not going to be anything near as easy :( I am scared beyond belief, I WANTED my TT surgery, this next surgery is being shoved on me and it's hard to deal with... Sorry for the ranting/venting but I'm just terrified of the final results and knowing that I may have cancer is just the icing on the cake :( But what can you do? You just have to deal with things as they are tossed at you and hope for the best...

Well this is a recent photo of me in a little red dress!!! This was my main goal in this journey, I am only 3 months out and yes I'm wearing spanx but even without it I still look the same. Hubby is loving my new shape and we both are adjusting to the scar, but it will fade out over time and I'm sure when I decide on the scar treatment, well that will help too. If I had to do it all over again, I would do it without any hesitation, it has brought me confidence in myself that has long been gone... I wore this dress almost as well as my 20 year old daughter wears it, so yeah I'm happy!!!