No other surgeon will touch me after 4 ops in 1 year for the same umbilical hernia. In chronic pain, what do i do? (photo)

The first surgery year ago and the dr inserted a mesh.months later i was in pain and i finally found another surgeon to remove the mesh.the mesh was infected.3 months later the hernia came back.This same dr who took out the mesh now glued and stitched my hernia.week later i developed a seroma which required another surgery and a drain .3 weeks since the last surgery and my stomach turned black and blue and my belly button started to bleed. saw the dr and he closed up my wound by cuatherising it.