Mark A. C. S. Cooper, FRCS

I've been researching for breast augmentation for almost 10 months. Im so hook on this site as I found so many useful reviews n different point of views in regards of the op. I have always been happy with my body shape (34c) until I had my son 9 years ago, after breastfeeding my breast had significantly shrunk n became saggy. I kept on asking myself "am I really that unhappy to the extend that I want to go under the knife?"..... When I found myself struggling to take my clothes off in front my current partner, I decided that I need to do something about it. I don't feel feminine, in fact I feel like a little boy! So I found a surgeon Dr m cooper base in Wales, had 2 consultations with him, which went smoothly. He is recommended by 4 of my friends that had the same surgery done with him in the past. He was very professional, explained all the procedures, risks, costs....etc on my first consultation. Then I went back on my second consultation to try on different sizer to decide what size I'm having. I use to be a 34c before I had my son n I'm hoping to get a full C or maximum a D CUP as a result. ( I don't want to look massive or out of porpotion with my tiny body frame) He then told me don't go with cup size, go with what I would like to see from the different sizers with a bra n a top on. I tried on 300cc to start with and thought it was a bit too small, then he gradually got me to try on 320cc, 350cc, 375cc and 400cc. Because I'm quite petite (5ft3) and I don't have a lot of breast tissue, he said I shouldn't go more than 400cc to avoid rippling n double bubble. I definitely didn't like the look of 400cc because it look ridiculously big on me (almost felt like I was gonna fall over with the projection) ....I finally settle with 350cc high profile colhensive silicone texture implant. I'm booked in for the surgery on the 14th November which is less than 2 weeks, I'm excited but I'm petrifying at the same time about the procedure n recovery. Im very grateful my partner is very supportive, he's happy with the way I am now n said he will support me with my decision, he said "do whatever makes u happy" and he is willing to baby me while I'm recovering ???? I work full time as a beautician and I can only take 10 days off work after my op, not really sure if I will be well enough to go back to work on time? The following are a list of question that I would like u lovely ladies to contribute from your experience n thoughts. Many thanks - have I made the right decision by going for 350cc to achieve a full C or D cup? - how long is the recovery before I can function properly? -any special diet or supplements I should have to speed up recovery? - should I get ice pack to help with the swelling? - any tips that u guys think that will help with recovery? - sleeping position? - how long shell I wear a supportive sports bra for? As long as poss? I will be very grateful if u ladies can give me some advice. Many thanks JL Updated on 9 Nov 2016: Went to my final pre-op assessment last Monday. The nurse filled in all my medical history, taken swaps, urine samples, blood pressure n paid for my treatment in full....etc. So there's no going back now, I will having new boobies in 5 days (14th November). I can't stop thinking about it and I'm getting very nervous.....hard to explain how I feel, a mixture of excitement but (excuse my language) I'm sh*tting myself!!! also I have told my colleagues and friends that I'm having a BA as I don't see the point in lying. They will probably know when I'm recovered anyway...... Plus I'm not hurting anyone, I'm doing it for myself not for anyone else. Some people are quite negative about it n kept on asking "why?" "U look great as u are, why change yourself?" "Don't do it!" "u will regret it when ur older".....etc, plus some nasty judgemental comments too! Which really upsets me.... I don't think they understand how u feel about yourself is very important! my view is: we only live once, my time being on this planet is very short n I don't want to live the rest of my life being unhappy with myself when I can do something about it. Not having negative thinking or anything about death but Let's face it, no one is getting out of here alive so why not make the most of it while ur still here? I know there are risks n could potentially have complications but if I don't take the risk, I will be going to my grave (when God say times up) thinking "what if?" I don't want to regret not giving it a go.....Life is full of risks! There are so many accidents occurring everyday, u can't just hide in the house for the rest of ur life, hoping u don't get involve in a accident right? I'm not hurting no one and I'm paying for the treatment myself without asking anyone for financial help, so why am I being judge for doing something for myself? Luckily, my partner n close friends are very supportive, plus all you lovely ladies reviews, comments and experience are very helpful, comforting n reassuring. This site actually keep me sane every time I'm having doubts. Thank you all for sharing ur experience to help people like me to over come the mental and emotional barriers! :) I hope my experience can help others too :) Will keep u guys updated again soon. Hope u guys are all healing well [RS bleep] Updated on 14 Nov 2016: I'm glad to say my op went smoothly so far ladies :) 7 hours post op n I don't feel too bad :) My partner took me in around 11:00am. All the staff were lovely n very reassuring as I was really nervous n scared about the op.....my surgeon, nurses and anaesthesits came to checked me over, drawn on my skin n got me changed into a surgical gown as I waited in my room with my partner in front of a TV. There was another person in front of me so I had to wait for an hour n half before my turn. Around 3:45pm, nurse came and walked me to the operation room, lied me down n put the IV at the back of my hand. There were 2 other doctors n my surgeon in the room fiddling with drugs n needles at the same time, they all kept me distracted very well by chatting to me none stop, I was completely out within seconds! Did not feel a thing until I woke up with BOOBIE!!! :) The nurse just came n topped up my pain med n took my gown n sports bra off to check on my dressing, jez.....the girls are massive!!! They are swollen n mahooosive!!!! The feel of having boobies is a bit strange, when the nurse took the sports bra off, it felt like my boobs were about to fall out..... I'm happy with the experience so far, not actually as bad as I thought it would've been. Fingers cross I hope I will heal fast without too much pain n complications. I Can't take any pics right now coz it hurts to move my arms so I will update some pics tomorrow ok. :) I'm officially in my recovery now, I was so drugged up with all the drips n pain med I didn't really feel pain to be fair, it felt more like intense pressure n tightness on my chest which was bearable. I made a mistake by trying to sit up by myself, gosh the pain sent tears to my eyes!!! Please remember to get help if u guys wanna get in and out of bed or trying to sit up or down!!! (After the op) It really hurts! Almost felt like my chest muscles were ripping apart with a burning sensation. i know the reason why I'm not in too much pain ATM it's because I'm still drugged up with med, I should be discharge from the hospital tomorrow morning n I'm dreading recovering at home with less pain medication :( My partner has been great, not only he took me to the hospital this morning, didn't leave my side til the op then he came straight down to recovery room as soon as the op was over. Helped the nurse escort me back to my room n sat with me for 3 hours, doing all the running around for me n made sure I was completely comfortable before he left.....he will be picking me up in the morning n baby me for the next 2 weeks while I'm recovering. I'm so lucky to have such a supportive n caring partner :) I will upload some pics tomorrow n keep u guys updated :) Happy healing everyone [RS bleep] Updated on 15 Nov 2016: Got the all clear from my surgeon. Just came home a few hours ago.....been keeping up with pain medication so the pain is still bearable but still feel very uncomfortable with the intense pressure on my chest. Sometimes I still accidentally hurt myself by not being aware of using my arms or chest muscles :( Feeling tired, hopefully I can sleep tonight. Just wondering if anyone know how to help ease off the swelling n pressured sensation on the breast? Sometimes I feel like I'm struggling to breath :( Many thanks Day 1 post op pictures are followed: Updated on 17 Nov 2016: Notice the swelling has gone down slightly. Feels like my whole rib cage is badly bruised although there isn't any visual sign of bruising at all. Incision n lower breast still hurts with intense pressure :( been keeping up with pain med with occasional oral morphine to help with morning boobs n whenever pain is intense. I'm using ice pack to help with swelling n pain which feels good but I've read something online that says "don't use ice pack after BA, because ice tense up muscles n it could slow down healing process!" ??? Ladies, anyone can tell me "ice or no ice?" Very confuse..... I managed to shower the last couple of days but still need help getting dress, sitting up n getting in n out of bed is still a big struggle coz it hurts so much! I didn't realise as how much we use our chest muscles for small things in everyday life! I feel really useless n helpless not being able to do much at all. My partner has been wonderful, he literally does everything for me! From cooking, making drinks, washing, helping me dress n undress, get me in n out of bed, shopping....etc I really can't ask for a better partner! Don't know what I'd do without him..... Updated on 20 Nov 2016: Feeling a lot better today, I still have pain first thing in the morning n night time before I sleep the last couple of days so those are the only time I take pain med now n stay off the med during the day. My right boob feels good with not much trouble but my left still gets a lot of pain at the incision area in th morning n night time. It feels like something is ripping inside, burning sensation :( Still feel quite a bit of pressure during the day, especially when I start walking....it feels like they are stretching so far out that they falling out! Hopefully that feeling will fade...... Hope u guys are healing well. Updated on 22 Nov 2016: I had my one week post op check up yesterday. My surgeon took all the dressing n tape off to check the incision, he was very happy with my progress n said I'm healing well :) he put some new tape back on n said I don't need anymore waterproof dressing coz I can get my incision wet in shower now :) he also suggest that I should use cream to gently massage the incisions, apparently it helps healing....any suggestions if what scar scream to get? Today is the first day that I don't have to take any pain med because I'm not really feeling pain anymore (only when I try to get out of bed hurts) n some pressure occasionally. Fingers cross I can stay off the med if my girls doesn't hurt anymore. Still can lift or pull anything heavy tho, hopefully I will get bk to normal soon..... Planning a holiday with my parnter for January, thinking of going to the Far East, maybe Thailand or Malaysia?! Somewhere hot with nice beaches :) something to look forward to..... I know I'm a little impatient but does any of u lovely ladies knows how long would it take for the girlies to drop? They are still quite swollen n hard.....still feels like I have to big rock on my chest :( In general, I'm doing well Hope u guys are healing well too [RS bleep] Updated on 5 Dec 2016: Hi ladies, time flies......it has been 3 weeks today since I had my BA and I'm feeling great. I still get random pain on my left incision occasionally n they only hurt when I'm cold! I think is because my chest muscle or something inside tense up when I feel cold so I get these nasty cramping pain on the lower boobs n incisions. My back still aches but slowly getting better. Apart from that I feel pretty good in general, I eat well, back to work, back to my social night outs at weekend :) The girls have defo dropped abit compare to 2-3 weeks ago but I feel that they are still high, more dropping to do. They are still quite hard compare to normal boobs but they are starting to soften up a little so it's not too hard to touch anymore. Also it seem to me as my left boob is bigger than my right? Can u guys see it? Or just me? Been massaging the incision with cream everyday after shower, notice I can't feel my lower breast?! No sensation at all even when I rub cream on them???? I'm finally able to sleep on my sides, as well as flat on my back without pain, each day does get easier! I don't feel a big improvement everyday in terms of my recovery but definitely a bit better n easier everyday. :) I wasn't sure if I like them in the beginning but I'm starting to really like them now, I think is because I was in a lot of discomfort, pain, couldn't sleep properly n they were really swollen (looked n felt like 2 rocks stuck on my chest) I wasn't so keen on them, but now the swelling has gone down a bit n they feel softer to touch plus I'm not in pain anymore......I'm starting to really like them ???? Most ladies put on their reviews stating that they need to massage the boobs (implant) but I've been told by my doctor that I don't need to massage them?! The only place I need to use cream to massage is my incision. I'm so confuse? Massage or no massage? Or is it to do with I had the texture implant? Anyone has any idea? Xx Updated on 2 Jan 2017: Hi guys, it's been a while since I update on here, due to being super busy at work n Xmas period. Hope u guys all had a lovely Xmas :) I'm 7 weeks out today, most things has pretty much gone back to normal since few weeks ago. I'm please to say that I have no more pain n don't feel pressure on my chest anymore :) they have dropped a bit n certainly feel softer to touch. i've started feeling like they are part of me now n most of the time I even forgotten they are there....lol the only time when I feel uncomfortable is when I attempt to jog or run!? It felt like as if they are bouncing too much n wanting to fall out :( think I need to get a tight n well support sports bra? Any suggestions ladies? Hope u guys are healing well :) [RS bleep]

Since I had my first son at 17 I breast fed.i don't have stretchy skin at all iv always been a petite person 9 stone.i had 2 very large boys at birth unfortunately had ro have a c section as I was too small to deliver naturally.even being this young i had some awfull excess skin and stretchmarks were very deep and large.after having my second son 6 years later.my belly was always hidden away and family holidays were a complete nightmare.trying ro find the right bikini (plenty of scaffolding in the top).my boobs were always a 34c.but after pregnancy went to a 34dd.well after all these years 18 to be exact.myself and my partner have saved our butt's off to change my life forever.i now feel like a new woman with the tags on...I did 2 years of research.

Please excuse the preamble, but this is how I got here, 8 days post facelift, and still wondering how and why it happened, and whether I have made the biggest mistake of my life..... 5 years ago I developed Hyperthyroidism. Despite being referred to an endocrinologist, I was not prescribed medication to control my thyroid condition, and within 6 months was referred to an ophthalmologist as I developed Graves Ophthalmopathy, which proved extremely difficult to get under control. During a 'routine' outpatients appointment my ophthalmologist told me my sight had deteriorated dramatically and the pressure on my optic nerves presented a very real danger of blindness. I was admitted immediately, had 3 days of intravenous steroids to try to reduce the inflammation and take the pressure of the optic nerve. Over the following 2 years, I had 6 weeks of radiotherapy, two orbital decompression surgeries, a further surgery on one eye, and continued with high levels of steroids and other medications. The disease, coupled with the prolonged high steroid use, changed my appearance dramatically. I had never been in the least bit vain, or given much thought to my 'looks'. I have two sisters, my younger sister is 'the pretty one', my elder sister is 'the domestic goddess', I was the middle one, 'the career girl', but I found coping with my changed face a massive challenge. I can remember being in IKEA, in the bedroom department, seeing someone walking towards me and thinking' Oooh, that strange looking woman is wearing the same coat as me'! When I realised I was walking towards a full length wardrobe mirror - and that strange looking woman WAS me, I just broke down and cried. I removed all the mirrors from my home, never EVER let anyone point a camera at me.... The first two pics were taken at National Institute of Health in Bethesda, Maryland, exactly 1 year apart. I attend NIH as a trial patient for a rare kidney cancer syndrome, these pics were taken in exactly the same place, same time of day, by the same camera.... the first picture was taken in September 2011 (approximately 6 months after the onset of Graves Disease), and the second picture was taken exactly a year later. Fast forward to 1 year ago...... My eye disease is no longer active, I was weaned off my medications, and my ophthalmologist said that she would arrange for a blepharosplasty - to reduce the massively heavy and droopy upper lids which were a legacy of the Graves Disease. She explained this was routinely carried out following severe Graves, and with generally good results. We discussed my general facial appearance, and that fact that my skin hadn't 'snapped back' after the prolonged swelling (due to the heavy use of steroids); she commented that a lot of her patients seemed to suffer from similar heavy jowls and lower face 'fullness' post disease, and she said that she would refer me to Dr Cooper, to see if he would consider giving me a face lift. Bonzer! I felt that after years of struggling with the disease, the possibility of losing my eye sight, the very real threat of having to surrender my driving licence, the treatments and side effects, I was at last able to see light at the end of the tunnel, get some closure on what was a really difficult period of my life, and that I would be restored to the person looking at the camera in 2011. As a 'by the by', earlier this year I had a small growth on the tip of my nose curetted, which has left a noticeable scar, and this reinforced my self consciousness about my face. The next pic was taken about 3 months ago. Looking at it NOW, apart from my hooded lids, I think I don't look terribly different from how I was pre-disease, apart from being 4 years older. But in my head, I was still the rather grotesque, scarey-looking pumpkin head my disease and treatment had transformed me into... So - I got a date for my pre-op assessment, 2nd November, and surgery was scheduled for 17th. The pre-op assessment was conducted by a very sweet nurse, she told me that my notes said 'Facelift , 'plus or minus blepharoplasty'. And that the notes seemed to indicate that I was just going to have the facelift on 17th. Eh? I told her I understood that I was having both procedures, she was unable to speak with Dr Cooper whilst I was there, said she would check and contact me to let me know. A few days later she telephoned me, and said that my eyelid surgery had to be done by my ophthamologists - and that Dr Cooper had not scheduled it for 17th. Apparently, after my initial consultation with Dr Cooper in January, he wrote to my consultant ophthamologist asking whether he was required to carry out the Blepharoplasty (I know this is true, I received a copy of his letter). I don't know whether he had a reply, my consultant retired a few months ago. At an appointment with him a few months ago I asked her successor whether my recently retired consultant had replied to Dr Cooper's letter, he told me he would find out, ensure that if my previous consultant hadn't responded that he would follow it up, and that there was no reason why Dr Cooper shouldn't do both procedures, so as far I knew it was sorted. But apparently not. So with just over a week to go, I was informed that I was getting a facelift but not eyelid surgery. Wow! Not what I was expecting! I always knew I was going to get my hooded eyelids repaired, the facelift was an added extra, a Brucie Bonus, and here I was, booked in for a facelift, but no eyelid surgery. I went ahead anyway. 8 days later, I am wondering whether I have made the biggest mistake of my life. My face was massively swollen post-op, I have extremely uneven contours on both cheeks, and my eyes, although untouched by 'the knife' are more swollen than ever. My mouth is drawn tightly across my face, I look like a monster. I know it's early days, I had my staples and stitches removed on Monday (two days ago), but I don't feel I am ever going to look 'normal' again, which is all I ever wanted. I never minded looking my age, I just hated what my disease and treatment had done to my face. Updated on 26 Nov 2015: Thanks Jormana, it's been a tough week, I wouldn't normally post on forums like this. I never disclose anything about my personal life on-line. I have a FB account but don't post up personal stuff, just 'news' about my charity. If I want to share something, offload my troubles, I pick up the phone, or drive to visit close family/friends and chat over a cup of tea. But I feel so isolated with this, I really don't feel my friends/family could begin to understand, yet reading through these posts I know I am in safe company and that readers will 'get' how I'm feeling. I can't believe I am 'emoting' to strangers, but it's a great comfort to be in the same room with people with whom I have something so intimate and personal in common. Anyone, here are more pics, it's such a cathartic just to be able to share my feelings with people I know will understand, and I'm grateful. xx Updated on 26 Nov 2015: These pics were taken in 2011 (just after the onset of disease) and exactly 1 year later. I didn't recognise my own face, and even though I had been told I was still in danger of losing my sight, I found the physical changes to my face more difficult to cope with on a day to day basis than the prospect of going blind.

Hi Ladies heres a little back ground on me before i start.. I'm a healthy married 36 yr old with 2 sons 10 and 4 yrs old both big boys and both C-Secs. I ride horses and have gun dogs so i'm outside for the most part of my day and busy…. After years of thinking and research i finally booked my Op…. I have had my TT and lipo done at the Sancta in Swansea 17 days ago, i can't thank the PS Mr Cooper enough, my scar is so neat and i haven't had any trouble with it.. my worries seem quite small compared to some of your stories.. but here goes!! I had the Op on the friday afternoon, all good, tried to stand on the Saturday and wasn't physically able to, i'm very determined i may add…. however the pain was ridiculous i was in agony.. I tried several more times over the day and still just to physically get to the ensuite loo was enough to bring on the cold sweats and shakes, i was no better by Sunday and MC decided to send me back to have the stitches released a little.. Came round on Sunday from the anethestic and OMG what a difference i could at a 90% angle make it to the loo, sit out in the chair, however due to having had an umbilical hernia as a child i have lost my navel, i have never had a proper one before and the old had a belly bar in to disguise it!! I now have a 1.5 inch Z shaped scar for a belly button which is kinda cool, it will shrink and i will have a dimple type mark there eventually.. i can also get it re pierced? I was home on Monday.. However my tummy is like a little barrel and very soft/swollen? I saw MC 7 days PO how checked my stitches along the scar (what a relief i was dreading the stitch removal so imagine my complete surprise when he said there wasn't any to come out he'd put disposable ones along and internally to.. lol) he left the steri stripes on and i then saw him 12 days PO mentioned my little barrel which he proded and poked and said it was perfectly normal and not to worry, he was extremely pleased with the scar and navel.. My worry is should i still be hunched and plodding so slowly after this time.. How long before you got back to normal… Sleep is awful, spent 12 nights on the sofa before trying the bed but i have pillows behind me, under my knees and still not great, really want to sleep on my side but the barrel says NO!!! Also have been on the Depo jab for a year with no bleeds and had it again on may12th, 2 days ago i started to bleed.. spotting then slightly heavier is this normal or should i worry??? Thinking of booking a doctors app tomorrow to be sure alls ok…. Any suggestions gratefully received!!!

I've been a long time lurker and decided to share my story and photos... hoping that it will prove as useful as the many different posts that I have read. They have really helped me and encouraged me over the last couple of months, so I felt that I should pay it forward. A little background on me; I've just turned 42 and I am happily married to a wonderful man with two children - my daughter is 15 and my son is nearly 13. Life with two teenagers is a lot of fun and never a dull moment. Over the last 3 years I have lost 78lbs and this has left me with a nasty apron and my skin was ruined. I knew it would happen but the weight had to go. I currently weigh 163, so standing at 5 2 my weight loss journey isn't really over. I would like to lose another 7-24lbs, but my body has been at this weight for over a year and seems happy here, even if my mind isn't!   The apron has been the bain of my life for too long, but more recently it has stopped me, to a degree, enjoying my life and my weight loss. 18 mths ago I suffered a back injury that stopped me in my tracks; I used to be very active and fit. As I slowly recovered and tried to pick up the exercise where I left of, after many sessions with my physio, the apron would get in the way. I could feel it slapping around and bouncing up and down and the embarrassment this caused with horrible. I stopped going to my boxing gym and my work's gym because of this. Simply, the damn thing had to go! I started researching TT around 18mths ago and with my husband's blessing I had an extended TT with muscle repair to the lower abs and a boob uplift on March 14 2013. It has been an emotional journey to say the least! I had the op mid day and was awake and in my room by 6pm, on the phone to my hubby by 6.30. I was able to get in and out of bed with little problems, I just used the strength in my arms to get myself up and out of bed. I spent one night in hospital and was on my feet the next morning back and forth the loo. My surgeon came to see me the next morning and was pleased with how the op had gone - he removed 3 1/2 pounds of skin and fat. I honestly thought there would be more...lol. He said that the average he removes is around 1 pound. There was very little in my drains, so they were removed and I went home. I had to wear those sexy support socks for two weeks... my, how lovely did they look and the hospital supplied me with an elasticated binder that I kept on religiously.   The first week post op was a complete breeze! I know! Pain was hardly there, more of a discomfort; I was mobile albeit at a slow pace and I felt great! Sleeping wasn't a problem. We are lucky enough to have a spare room, so that became my bedroom for many weeks and I just used plenty of pillows to keep me propped up and two underneath my knees for comfort and to support my legs. There was no way I could lay out straight so they really did help. There was some discomfort in my lower back from being hunched over, but not too bad. I used tiger balm and that seemed to help. Even my surgeon and his nurse were surprised at how well I was coping, especially after a double op. I was really impressed with myself, mind, I'm not one for tea and sympathy! The initial reaction to my new tummy and boobs was OMG! This is amazing! My surgeon truly did an amazing job! He cleared me to have a shower - wow! What a moment that was - clean body, clean hair... oh just lovely! Week 2 was a little more testing. The swelling had started and there was a lot more discomfort - perhaps I over did it in week one? Who knows. I then developed a seroma and the pressure this put on my scar was awful. Plenty of rest was the order of the day. I mentioned it to my surgeon and he was reluctant to drain it saying that it would disperse naturally and it was not a problem. I have to be honest, I did panic a little as my tummy was so tight that I was afraid it would affect my final results. I went to see my doc week three as the seroma had gotten bigger, I could feel it ripple as I walked and I wanted him to drain it. Again, he was reluctant but eventually agreed and to my dismay he only got a little fluid out... from the size and discomfort I was expecting a tidal wave...lol. This really put a halt to my recovery, I felt. I was very aware that I had to do very little as I didn't want it to get worse. I found a video on you tube to do a self massage - lymphatic massage and I did that daily. I think it helped... it felt good anyway. At this appointment I asked for a new binder as the elasticity in mine had completely gone and my surgeon took it off me and told me to just wear support pants! I was a little freaked out by this as all I have read is compression, compression, compression. So I tried it for a day or so but I wasn't ready for just support pants and I ordered a new compression garment and a waist cincher to tide me over, wearing them day and night. By the beginning of week four I was feeling a lot better physically... I could do more and the seroma had nearly gone. Still wasn't in any of my pre op clothes so it was leggings and joggers all the way for me. I was getting rather bored of this wardrobe by now, but I couldn't stand the thought of anything tight on my tummy and I couldn't fit into any other clothes. I was supposed to go back to work, but my GP agreed to sign me off for another week and I am glad because I couldn't of managed. I am a teacher and the thought of standing up in front of all those teenagers not being 100% straight was not a good one. It was at this stage that the emotional side of the journey really kicked in. When I went into this I really just wanted rid of the apron and to have a normal shape for my age. My surgeon told me to keep my expectations realistic and I thought I had... until around the middle of the four week mark. The serious swelling really had kicked in by now and this distorted my opinion of my results. I would swing from wanting a body like Lara Croft to being grateful that I didn't have the flap op skin hanging down. This really did one on my head and heart. I found myself getting emotional for no reason - mood swings were crazy! I knew I was being unrealistic wanting a perfect tummy... I mean c'mon! My skin was a mess... it was completely ruined by having two kids and being morbidly obese for over 15 years, but it didn't stop me wanting that perfect tummy... what was going on in my head. I would talk to my nubby and close friends about it and they would just remind me about the apron and how much better I looked now. And they were right! But it didn't really make any difference to my train of thought. I started back to work 5 1/2 weeks post op - wow! What a shock to the system that was... going from doing very little to back in the classroom like I had never been away. It was a whirl wind week that had me exhausted by the Weds. And the swelling...phew! Nasty! By 1pm I looked pregnant - I had to chose my clothes very carefully because of this - I would weigh 5lbs heavier by the end of the day - that is some swelling. It was also quite painful around the scar too. I had read a lot about the 'swell hell' but never imagined anything like this! However, work was a good distraction for me as it took away my constant obsessing about how flat or not my tummy was. Routine was needed and it worked well. I was wearing my compression garment on and off. I was feeling a little bold the one day, and I put on a pair of support knickers that came to the waist - not under the bust. This was a mistake! I discovered that I still have the dreaded muffin top - seriously! All this and the muffin top is still there? I was nearly in tears! I didn't have time to change so I was stuck with these all day - as I got more swollen they cut in and by the time I got home my middle was really hurting. My thoughts returned to my expectations - I really didn't want a muffin top! Was this how it is going to be, or is it swelling, or is it fat? OMG! I put it on my must discuss with surgeon list! At 6 weeks post op I had a check up appointment with my surgeon. I must admit, I wasn't there that long - I expected it to be longer; lasted about 15mins! Anyway, he checked over my tummy and boobs. He was really pleased with the shape of my tummy saying that it looked good and that the scar was healing nicely. He told me to ditch the compression garments and just wear support pants. I expressed my concern about the muffin top - he said that it is probably 50% swelling and 50 % fat, which is better than 100% fat! This confirmed to me that I still have weight to lose - c'mon body, it is time to comply and get rid of some more fat! As regards to the uplift, again he was pleased, all healing well and the scars were looking great and I agree to an extent. There does seem to be a little difference between each boob though; the one nipple seems larger and lower than the other. When I mentioned this he said to wait until the 3mth pos top mark before making any final judgement as they haven't settle properly or into their final position yet. I was pleased with this response. I don't want perfect boobs - no one will see them! Again, I just want them to be a better shape, which they are. I told him about how my expectations were shifting all over the place and playing games with my head and he said that this is completely normal and with time things will settle as I get used to my new body. He cleared me for exercise including light ab work; walking and light jogging and swimming. He said that I should listen to my body and do what feels right - not to over do anything or push myself too hard! Fat chance of that when I am knackered after a hard day in work! As the week progressed I felt that I had really turned a corner.. I started the 30 day squat challenge; starting with 50 squats - easy peasie - so I soon went up to 100. I did some light ab work - lower pelvic lifts and upper curls - I took it easy and gently. Not wanting to neglect my upper body I started doing some half push ups, off the counter top, off the table and then half push ups on the floor. I also started walking in the evening more. This little bit of activity worked wonders on my mental outlook; I started to feel great and was walking much 'taller' - metaphorically and literally! The swelling wasn't so bad and I was alternating my binder with the compression garment. Things were looking up at last! I even got into my pre op jeans and holy moly, they were too big! In the space of a few days. How happy was I? On the weekend I went out and bought a new pair in a smaller size and they fit! I could do them up and sit down in them. Ok, so they were a little tight, but not as tight that I couldn't breath and turned blue! I haven't had this size (UK size 12) since my early teens... did I mention that I was happy? If they fit now, will they be loose when the swelling goes completely!? I also moved back into my own bed. It was nice to share it with my hubby again, I had really missed him! I was a little apprehensive that he would roll over on me, but he didn't! lol Then I hit week 7... still doing my squats but dropped the other exercises except walking as the swelling is back with vengeance! OMG! I'm even waking up swollen. This is regardless of whether I wear my compression garment or control pants! I know it is part of the process but it is proper shitty! The muffin top still haunts me and I get really blue days of feeling fat and ugly. Then I get days of feeling amazing and slim. I try those jeans on every day to make sure that I wasn't dreaming and I am looking forward to the day I can wear them out, in public, comfortably. I am also feeling a lot more tired now - probably due to a heavy work load (this is a stressful time of year in work due to admin deadlines and exam prep). When I have a shower, I still go to pick the apron up to wash underneath it... forgetting that it isn't there any more! I think it is going to take time for me to realise that it has gone for good. I haven't lost or gained any weight... still the same as the day of the op which is a little disappointing - but my eating hasn't been as clean as it could and this is something that I must work on over the next few weeks .. especially if I want Lara Crofts's body! But my energy has been consumed with just getting through each day I still alternate my compression garment and control pants in the day. Sometimes I wear the compression garment to bed, sometimes I don't. I honestly don't think it is making that much difference at this stage, but when I am super swollen it does add some control and comfort to a night's sleep. So, through all the ups and downs, doubts and victories, was it worth it? HELL YES! And I would do it again in a heart beat. My tummy and boobs, although not perfect, are a million times better than they were. They now match my face, if not look younger than my face and that was my original goal. I know that this is not my final result and looking at others who are further out than me, I realise that I am still at the beginning of this journey. And that is very promising. Once I am able to do more exercise and I have more energy, I know that I will feel physically and mentally stronger. Time is a healer and patience is a virtue! Cliched but true. For all of you that have posted before me, thank you for your honesty and inspiration; your stories have helped me get through the early days and the darker days post op. For those of you who are thinking of this procedure, do your homework, find the right surgeon for you and be prepared for the ride of your life. It will be worth it in the end though! Updated on 9 May 2013: Today is the start of my eight week post op! It has been a roller coaster week because I have had so much swelling with pain and discomfort everyday! Been tough to get through the working day, yesterday in particular was awful. I'm doing my best to work through it knowing that it is a temporary thing and that my body needs more time to heal, but it is exhausting. Work is pretty stressful at the moment too and I don't think that helps. Not done much in the way of exercise the past week, as I am too tired when I have finished all the bits and bobs I need to do; most evenings I am busy until 9.30- 10pm! I'll be glad to see the weekend and have a rest! Did anyone else feel like this at 2 mths post op? Updated on 19 May 2013: Thought I would add some new pics today - some at 8 weeks and some at 9 weeks. Nothing much has changed in the last two weeks... still swelling so I am wearing my CG more often than not to see if it helps and try to get a little more comfort. Feeling a little more positive now, not so 'down' on myself and I suppose I am accepting my new tummy, imperfections and all! Still get very tired - and work is still manic, but it is that time of year and won't last forever, just gotta ride it out. I've started logging my cals and upping my water intake to try and shift some weight, don't feel ready to return to exercise yet but still doing the push ups daily and squats when my tummy isn't too tender. It isn't much but it makes me feel better! I haven't put a time limit or date on when to start exercising because I don't want to 'let myself down' of I am not ready to start.... I am just gonna play it by ear and see when I feel ready to try something - probably the treadmill. Hope everyone is doing well; resting if need be and looking after yourself. This is a time consuming surgery, but it is getting better... Updated on 19 May 2013: oops... pressed the post button too early... some more pics let me know what you think... do I look like I am heading in the right direction for 9 weeks? Updated on 25 May 2013: 10 weeks post op now and I went out with friends from work for some well earned drinkies...A great night on many levels; firstly I tucked in my top, wore a belt and felt pretty good about it! It was such a relief to not worry about the apron mis-shaping my clothes! And I danced and danced and danced! Such a good feeling to bop around without jiggling . On the TT front, there is still a lot of swelling, so much so that some of my size 12 trousers don't do up, including my precious new jeans! That put me on a bit of a downer and I am hoping that they will fit again soon...I really want to wear them out! Updated on 30 May 2013: Just thought I would put this out there... I'm 11 weeks today and the last week I have made a huge improvement both physically and mentally. Although I am still swollen it is not as uncomfortable as it was and my size 12 jeans fit me again, and I wore them out, and I felt good...lol! My energy is returning and I feel like I have a spring in my step again! When I get up quick, or move quick I am not taken aback - I can just 'go', if that makes sense! I am sleeping easier, before I would turn over and feel a pulling, but not anymore, I can also lie out really flat and stretch my legs out and that feels good too - I woke up on my front the other morning!! I have joined Curves to get me back into exercise - I really want to get fit enough to start back to my local boxing gym, and although I know I can't do that until Sept/Oct I want to feel like I am making progress in that direction. So, my first circuit at Curves was this afternoon and it went really well.. no problem with movement or weakness as I expected; I did take it easy on the ab machines but all the other machines I went as far as I could. What has spurred me on is this awful muffin top, I know I had it before, but the truth is, with the apron I never paid it any attention because all I could see what the lap fat. Well now that has gone the muffin is getting all the attention and it is horrible. I know there isn't much 'fat' there, so I am hoping that with some training and perhaps a little weight loss it will reduce. Now, I am not expecting to have a model's tummy, but I just want to do justice to the improvement that has already been made! I will let you know if Curves works for me, like it has worked for so many others. Mentally I am accepting my new tummy and its imperfections. I still have a 'droopy' pouch when I lean forward but it is only when I make it obvious. I know that things will keep improving and that is driving me forward. I suppose I am starting to feel good in my skin, which I have done for over 20 years! I'll try and get around to posting more pics soon, but to be honest there isn't much difference at the moment from week to week. Updated on 7 Jun 2013: Until two days ago there was nothing really to report. I've started back to exercise, Curves and longer walks with my dog - starting to feel stronger physically and mentally and I have to say, that I was starting to feel really good about myself. Then, out of nowhere, the swelling I had in the beginning is back -I mean proper 'ouch this is not good' swelling. It is even pulling on my scar! This time however, not only is it below the scar and belly button, but above as well. I feel so bloated and uncomfortable - it kinda reminds me of when I used to have pre menstrual! I am peri menopausal now, so this is a feeling that I haven't had for many years. I don't like it! Could it be hormonal swelling? It would correspond with the cranky mood that I've been in through the week and the carb cravings I've been fighting off (apart from today - I had chips and school and they tasted like shite!) The rest of the week I've been eating pretty good and clean as I am trying to shift some weight. Or is it that I am just doing too much - even though my body feels strong enough? I honestly don't know... but the weirdest thing is that my clothes are fitting fine and dandy! I wore size UK12 top and trouser to work today and by the end of the day they weren't tight or uncomfortable even though I can physically see how swollen I am! Needless to say, I haven't got much planned for tonight, a few little jobs to get done then I intend to sit down and put my feet up... Any one got any ideas or advise? I will post some pics later Updated on 7 Jun 2013: here's some recent photos, you can really see the swelling, especially in the latter ones. I'm ready for this to be gone now Updated on 7 Jun 2013: Ooops, pressed update too early. So, as you can see, the swelling really has kicked back in and is really messing with my head. I am gonna wear my CG in bed for the next couple of nights and I will probably put it on through part of the day too - it does get uncomfortable when I am this swollen. It is a little depressing when I look at the wk 12 photos - it feels like I am going backwards - I prefer the week 6 ones! I've seen ladies go for a TT looking like I do now, at wk 12! I really hope things improve cos I can't afford a revision! Updated on 22 Sep 2013: It has been a while since I updated, even though I try to pop on and have a read. I am now 6 1/2 mths post TT and things are good. I'm pretty much back to normal now in all areas of life and that is a great feeling - only now I have more confidence because I feel a whole lot better about myself. Funny what getting rid of a bit of skin does isn't it?! As regards the TT; I still swell - some days are worse that others, but by the evening there is a difference; it isn't as painful as before, but can be uncomfortable - not always though. I am a lot flatter than in the beginning, but not as flat as I hoped as there is a little 'bump' in the middle of my scar; almost like a lip - I'll post a pic. Does anyone else have this? I don't like it to be honest. However, around my hip area is lovely and flat, almost smooth ... lol! I mentioned the 'bump' to my surgeon at my last check up and he said it was still water swelling where my scar is. Because the scar is still red/pink the water will collect there and it should get better as the scar fades and heals so the water can pass through again. Overall, he was pleased with the way my tummy was looking. He said to wait until the New Year and if I wanted it corrected he could do it but it would cost - no figures were mentioned. I can't afford the cost of another op! I will see how it goes. He did say that he could correct the small dog ear though, again, I'll see how it goes. As far as size goes I am in a UK 14-12 now as I was around the 3 mth mark, so no real change there - the 14s are bigger though. I have managed to lose a little weight, and I continue to eat clean as I am trying to get rid of more; say 14- 21lbs so a far bit to go until I get to a reasonable goal weight. I went on holiday to Turkey in the summer - seems so long ago now! - and wore a bikini for the first time in nearly 20 years! That felt good! This is gonna sound weird but I didn't feel as if everyone was staring at my 'fat' body! Previous holidays I hated wearing any kind of swim suit as I just felt horrible and I was paranoid that people were staring and laughing at me... although realistically I know this was not happening it was still there in my head. This year this didn't happen and it really did feel great to have the sun on my tummy! I am still going to Curves and feeling the benefits. The exercises are doing me good and I feel firmer all over... I can now do the plank for just over a minute! Yey me! Also when I walk/jog there is no wiggle from the middle (still wiggle from the butt and legs though .. lol) and that is great and I feel 'lighter' on my feet. My back is a lot better too now the extra has gone from the front. My surgeon has cleared me for all ab work, just take it easy and steady and he has also cleared me to go back to the boxing gym, again I have to take it easy and build up slowly. My daughter wants to come with me too, which should be fun! As regards to the BL, the boys are fab! I didn't have any implants because it wasn't size I was after it was shape. And the shape is great - nipples facing north where they should be...lol. Scarring is really good and healing well - better than the TT to be honest. They have softened a little and look very natural. There is a slight difference between the two, but me and my hubs are the only ones who will see it and it doesn't really bother me. So, all-in-all things are good! Not as flat as I'd like but a million times better than before and without sounding like a drama queen, this really has had a positive impact on my life; not only physically but psychologically too. To all the newbies and pre TT - be prepared for the ride of your life. Updated on 22 Mar 2014: How quickly time flies... Yep! It has been a year sine my TT and BL. I am pleased with how things are and although not perfect, it is a massive improvement! I am still battling with losing the last 14-21 lbs... my body doesn't seem to want to play the game and regardless of what I do the scale doesn't budge (been following the 5:2 diet since May 12). I am exercising regularly now, which has really helped; it is a lot easier to exercise without the apron! I am doing a range of activities from insanity, to Curves, to walking and swimming... just to keep it varied and because I can! I am a clothes size smaller, currently in a UK 12, so I can't really complain. I have no issues at this stage; no pain or discomfort. I feel a little swelling at the end of some days, but I think this is normal swelling and not related to the TT. I am not 100% flat, there is still a little 'lip' and I don't think this will go now. I am disappointed by this, but it isn't the end of the world. My surgeon said he could get rid of it but I would have to pay... I have to weigh up whether it is worth the money? If I had 'spare' cash, I would book myself in tomorrow, but I don't! I would love to get my bat wings done now I have seen the improvement but again, the cost stops me... I need a lottery win...lol! If you are thinking of getting this procedure done, I would recommend it - it really has changed my whole outlook and improved my confidence. Keep your expectations real and do your research. I'm adding some recent pics. although there isn't much difference from the 6 mths ones. You can defo see the lip that I don't like but it is cover with knickers! Looks like this is me!

Luckily for me after my awful, traumatic experience with 'plastic surgeon' Mark Cooper I had my revision surgery by Mr Leong Hiew - a professor in breast surgery who has corrected my breast surgery from saggy old looking breasts to youthful, round perky breasts. Thank god there is a surgeon out there like Mr Hiew - correcting someone else's mess for me is pure genius. For the first time in a year I can actually say that I love my boobs !! I will be eternally grateful for what me has done for me. Mentally & aesthetically ! If you have a problem ladies speak up ! I can only imagine how many poor woman are out there too afraid to question their results. Photos below