Hello and thank you for reading.
I have 9 days until my surgery and I'm so freaking excited. It's literally all I can think about. I've wanted breasts since I was 12 and realized by looking at my mom that I wouldn't have much to work with. If I was skinnier, I wouldn't even have the B I have now.
My boobs don't totally bother me. They are just small. They are still very perky and have a nice shape. Any guy I've told that I wanted boobs and has seen mine naked has always tried to talk me out of it. But it's not for them, its for me. I have very wide hips, and I feel like my body is not proportionate. My measurements are 36-30-41.
I found my doctor thru referral from a gf who had gotten hers done. I had actually went a few years back for the consultation and they did the 3D imaging which was cool as hell. I loved how they looked, they show you side by side and its just so much better with them. Lol
So I finally decided this year was the year, I paid the bill in full, almost $6000 and we set a date. 4/5/18. He's going under the muscle, under the boob and we are using the IDEAL implant, structured shell with saline. The shell is supposed to prevent rippling.
I got my prescriptions filled too, there are two pills I have to take on the way in, I have a patch for nausea that I have to put behind my ear the night before and then I have two different pain pills and an antibiotic. The most pills I've ever had to take in my life. I don't even like pills like that, I barely keep aspirin.
A little funny side note, the guy I'm seeing doesn't know yet. ????????
I'll update the night before and then after!
Updated on 29 Mar 2018:
I'm getting that butterfly feeling in my stomach, I am so excited!! I know I have a high tolerance for pain but I hope I'm not nauseous too bad after.
I just hope this week goes by fast. I want to be healing already. Lol
Updated on 30 Mar 2018:
Figured I'd show what these bad boys looked like before my surgery. 6 more days!!!!
I'm excited how they're gonna look with my tattoos. The 3D imaging done had only my collar bone tattoo, I hadn't gotten the stomach piece yet. I can't wait to buy shirts that show it off
Updated on 2 Apr 2018:
Today I checked my voicemail and a lady from the hospital had called and left a vm. It was to go over my medical history and set up an appt for bloodwork. So that's going down Weds. I'm starting to get really excited about it, it still doesn't seem real. I also have still kept this secret from my dude, he has NO idea at all. Still trying to figure out what Im gonna say that morning. I'm basically gonna keep my phone on me as long as I can. And then hopefully text him after like nothing happened. Lol I'm not sure if he will come over that night or the night after since we don't live together. If he comes over Friday that would be awesome.
Almost there!!! Eeeekkk!!!
Updated on 4 Apr 2018:
The receptionist at the office just called to make sure I have my prescriptions and all that. I have my blood work at 3 pm today. My bf is coming over so I can do my taxes and as soon as he leaves I'm putting the patch on. I'm excited, I don't feel like I'm nervous but my hands are hella sweaty all day ????
I also figured out what I'm gonna tell him. I'm going to text him at 6:30 ish and say good morning but also that I'm at the hospital with my sister so if I don't respond right away it might be a reception issue. Which, I'm absolutely not lying to him, just not giving him the details. Then after, I just gotta play it cool till he comes over. I can't wait to see his face, it's going to be so funny to me.
Updated on 4 Apr 2018:
Well I am as ready as I will ever be.
Per docs orders, I took a shower and scrubbed with antibacterial soap. She really emphasised having clean sheets and pjs so I took everything off the bed and washed it. I'm now about to put a Scopolamine patch behind my ear which I have to keep on for 3 days. This is supposed to help with nausea. Then I have to wipe myself down with 6 separate medicated cloths, each designated for a specific body region which they'll repeat tomorrow morning when I come in. See pics below. I can't eat or drink anything after midnight. And made sure to take off my jewelry.
Sn: the bf just left after we did his taxes. He was feeling sick earlier but he still has no clue. I'm the master secret keeper. ????????????
Updated on 5 Apr 2018:
I woke up about a hour early today. I had a fucked up dream that my doctor put a vertical cut on my left boobs and shoved two small bags and a half filled one in them. ???????????????????????? I pulled them out myself and put them back in lol I was pissed in my dream.
I picked up my sister, took the two pills I was supposed to take and she dropped me off. I was in the waiting room a short while. They brought me to a room, I had to get buck ass nekkid and use one of those cloths on my chest and stomach area for cleanliness. Then they had me put on these long tight white stockings and socks with the grip. And of course my gown. The nurse put my IV in and maybe a half hour to hour my doc showed up. He drew some lines on my chest and then I chilled until my anesthesia doc came by. She explained what they were going to do then wheeled me back. This guy had me breathing in this face mask and I knocked out. Don't even remember closing my eyes. Lol then I woke up all groggy in my room again. The grogginess disappeared pretty quickly. She went over discharge info and then my sister came with my kids and helped me get dressed. Then they wheeled me out and that was it. I tried eating crackers at the hospital but omg they were the driest things EVER. So the nurse brought me pudding. My sis drove to her house and then I drove myself and kids home. The paper says I'm not supposed to drive for 3 weeks but I'm not in pain, drowsy or have blurred vision and can lift my arms fine.
I've been drinking lots of water and am now just chilling. What's funny is I have a slight pain, very minor in my back, but not the boobs. I can't see them until Monday though when my bandages come off. ???? But here are some pics. The doctor and hospital staff were amazing so I would definitely recommend them at this point.
Updated on 5 Apr 2018:
I just peeked at them and omg!! See for yourself!
Updated on 5 Apr 2018:
Obviously they'll look different once they start dropping but omg they look good now! In my opinion
Updated on 5 Apr 2018:
I didn't take any pain pills since 2:30 pm today. I just waited until it really started to hurt. My back between my shoulders is hurting and my left boob feels harder than my right but it still isn't unbearable. I just took my two pain pills now before bed. I was somewhat active today. Didn't take a nap, cooked dinner, washed dishes, played card games with my daughter and watched movies.
People have asked what I told my children. I was just straight up honest with them. I don't lie to them, we have a great relationship and I make it a point that don't view naked bodies as anything but naked bodies. My kids don't watch TV, they aren't hyper sexualized like other kids. But anyways!
I can't wait until Monday to get these bandages off.
Updated on 6 Apr 2018:
I didn't take any pain pills until about 3 pm today. It hurts but its not an unbearable pain. I'll take some again before bed.
I feel like I'm engorged with milk. In between my shoulders was killing me so I had one of my kids apply icy hot. Lol I also think my left breast is slightly more swollen than my right. I went to Walmart and got a bra, 36D per my doctor. I can't wait till Monday when I could get my bandages off. I pulled some of the gauze out of the wrap because it was too much in it. But so far, not bad!
Updated on 9 Apr 2018:
Today is the Monday after my surgery. I feel great. I haven't been taking my pain pills except at night and I'm almost done with my antibiotics. I've been driving only when necessary which hasn't been a problem. My boobs are still hard and stiff. My son had a baseball game Saturday and I froze my [RS bleep] off shivering. I literally came home and climbed into bed with two covers and didn't come out lol.
My dude found out Sat night. I put a blanket over me and was like, "Remember when I told you I was at the hospital with my sister?" And opened it up. He apparently thought I was gonna tell him that I'm pregnant. He wasn't so thrilled about the boobs though and made some real insecure ass comments. Oh well, get over it, it's my body.
So today I got my bandages cut off. I didn't actually see my doctor but the nurses said I looked great, not like I had surgery or anything. I can shower and the water is allowed to go over my boobs which is awesome, and I have to wear this bra 24/7. I can put cocoa butter on them too ???? my next appt is the 17th. I'm not supposed to massage them or anything yet. And I was told to take a laxative since I haven't pooped in a while. So, here's where we're at... The bra is a 36 D
Updated on 12 Apr 2018:
Today marks one week! Next Tuesday I see my doc again, I believe to take my stitches out but I'm not totally sure. I haven't taken any pills in two days which means I have a ton leftover. I'm able to sleep somewhat on my side but it does feel kind of weird still. My breasts feel like they've dropped out of my collar bone, thank goodness and my right one feels softer than my left, I'm going to assume because I'm right handed. I've been driving fine, showering and just enjoying the look. Its still so weird looking at my body. Here are some updated pics! A week went fast!
Updated on 18 Apr 2018:
I had my check up yesterday and my stitches cut off. Hallelujah lol they were poking me. Everything still looks great, my breasts are softening up and I'm clear to "massage" them next week which is not really "massaging" but pinching my boobs from under and from the side a few times a day. I still have my surgical tape on, my doc said just let it come off naturally, the longer its on, the better my scars will look. I also purchased this expensive silicone and spf based scar cream from them for after they do come off. Shoot, I'll keep em on for months lmao I still haven't been sized yet but a 36D bra seems to fit just fine. I'll get sized in 3 months. I have one more appt with my doc in a month and he said if everything is good, I'm good to go and won't have to come back. I may have him do botox though. For my slight crows feet and maybe fill my lips. We shall see. Lol
Updated on 21 Apr 2018:
I had my honey massage my boobies yesterday. He has stronger hands and from how hard my doctor squeezed them, I couldn't. Lol so I sat in front of him while he massaged them for maybe a good 5 mins. They feel softer on the bottom and side than the top so he focused there.
My tape is still on. If it doesn't come off by like May 15th Im just gonna take it off. Its pretty stuck on there though.
Not much else to report though! Just showering and slathering with cocoa butter every day. I can lay on my stomach as long as I have a pillow and there is space so I'm not smooshing them. I feel like I need to do it daily like a baby, tummy time! Lmao
Updated on 27 Apr 2018:
Still good so far! I've taken my tape off. It was yucky and I had enough lol I had some scabbing that fell off super easy and now Im using this silicone scar cream on them a couple times a day. They look red but not bad.
My period came a week late so be aware of that ladies. I freaked my bf out lmao
I can do a lot more now. I started working out again but can't do much that deals with my pecs. I tried to see how a push up would be like and nope, no go. I barely went down an inch before I quit lol so legs and abs it is.
I want them to drop a lil more and get softer. My left never bothers me but my right does a lil. I forgot my doc had said I have a lil crease he had to pull out or something in my right boob so I'm thinking that could be why. But no more back pain, I can finally stretch. And I leaned backwards off the side of my bed so I could get a good one, felt ahmazing.
As yall can see, my tattoo is a lil on my boob. Oh well. Lol what can ya do?
Updated on 15 May 2018:
I no longer have any pain. My right boob doesn't feel weird at all. I can sleep on my stomach and will lay on my stomach with my arms propping up my front all the time. They dropped a bit, my daughter cracked a joke that they were grandma [RS bleep] now. Lmao I want them to drop and give me that lil under crease thing that I've never had but I'm only a month in so maybe it'll happen still. They are pretty squishy now too, no more hardness or tensing of the skin or muscle. I'm beyond happy with them and get told a lot that my job is the best they've seen. <3
Updated on 27 Sep 2018:
I am still very happy with them. Cons would be the scars which I'm starting to use CBD oil on and that seems to be helping lightening them up, I also can't feel on the area closest to my arms... And sleeping without a bra feels weird sometimes when I sleep on my side. There also feels like there is a pocket of air? On my right breast.
Other than that, I feel like they look great and feel great. I ended up breaking up with the dude that I had surprised (they weren't for him, we had broken up and gotten back together) so there's only been one guy after him that's gotten to feel them and he enjoyed them. See video below.