Vikram S. Devaraj, FRCS

My decision was fairly easy for three children.
I had gone from a 30C confident but small chested lady to a lucky if I could wear 32a insecure mother.
I struggled to be naked in front my husband and hated the stuck on cup look when I wore clothes. I could not bring myself to wear my thing less than Heavily padded bras. My confidence was gone.

My goal : just to feel feminine, personal confidence and body balance. I was not worried about cup size but nor did I want judgement of “wow she’s had. Boob job”. My confidence levels could not cope with potential criticism or questions.

I’m approximately 120lbs, I rarely get on scales 5’5 and a UK size 8.
I have hips and a narrow waist and would be ‘hourglass’ shape if classified in the body shape guide.

I chose b-lite implants due to my small frame. I like to work out, I have a very crime e lifestyle and my surgeon thought the reduced weight was the best option.
I originally wanted to anatomical ‘teardrop’ show as I was looking or the natural look & drop of a 35-36 year old. Due to my lack of body tissue on my chest we opted fo sub muscular, hiding the edges of the implants so it made sense to have found implants as the muscle would squeeze the top.

I thought I would share my journey as I have valued the knights offered by others on here...

Updated on 23 Oct 2018:
All went well.

My chest felt very heavy but the pain was not too bad. Manageable with paracetamol & ibuprofen.  My body was exhausted though nd the general anaesthetic was not great. I was so wobbly, I really struggled to get up. I tried to go to th toilet, a nurse was with me as had to assist me with the drains .... I had pipes everywhere it seemed at first!  As I got up my head spun and I nearly fell. Not nice my Blood pressure plummeted. Had to use a commode ???? I’m very private person.  Ended up staying in two nights, dizziness & smll children do not mix!  Day 1 I moved more, day two I could stand up again and felt much better.



Updated on 23 Oct 2018:
All gone well so far, I’m 29days Post op.
My bandages came off day 8 and I found that a great relief. They were so tight, it felt like a badly fitting bra digging in, especially under my arms. I was struggling to do the exercises the physio had given me. 
My first shower was heavenly 
In past two weeks I have had lots of nerve rebuilding. It’s like lots of mini electric shocks, mild but noticeable. They don’t last long but are often. 
Still feeling very numb around my lower breast and my sides, still a little numb on my back but sensation is returning. It was weird at first as I had not read anything about numbness on my back. 
My breasts are gradually moving in to place, it is hard to describe but it’s a stretching slightly heavy feeling. The feeling changes position every couple of days.
Post op days 21-28 have definitely been my biggest change so far. I was told off for doing too much before. Mum of 3 and self employed it was tricky to do much less. I have been good and not been picking up my 18month old until this week. Even now I do as little as possible. 
I am so itchy! My scar sites worst of all but I feel a bit like a snake by the dead skin I am finding every morning when I change my bra! Loads of laundry!! 
I’m looking forward to trying new bras, no idea what size I am yet. Still very firm & tender to touch. Awaiting my 6 week appointment to know I can look for other underwear out of surgical & sports bras.

Updated on 25 Oct 2018:
I can’t help it but I am addicted to reading others stories on here. So inciteful and informative

Only problem now is I am having boob envy. The question of should I have gone bigger ?!?

I had 365 cc which was the recommendation from the surgeon. When trying sizes I had settled on 380 but wanted b-lites. The b-lite implants come in slightly different sizes so I asked the surgeon to gauge which would be best for my frame. I did not want to look fake with balls on my chest.

The thing is when you start to see them everyday they start to look for normal and I guess compressed in sports bras so feel small still.
Only time will tell if I will wish for more and have boob greed or if I will be content.
Currently I can wear a tight top and my sports bra confidently ( never before) so despite everything I am happy.

Can only get better ????

Updated on 28 Oct 2018:
Still in sports / compression bras but I have an Award ceremony to go to in a Few weeks so I am on the hunt for soft bras suitable for under a dress.

The bra needs to go under a fancy formal dress. (Still looking for one of them too!)

I was measured as I did not want to put myself in the wrong size. I also thought It would be interesting to see how I change as yet to drop, they are still high, numb & firm.

After my last update, where I thought I might have boob envy I can now relax.... I was amazed to find I now measure 30E!! So much for thinking c or D ! It’s amazing how quickly your brain adjusts to new size and stops being so shocked. I was thinking I had gone too small but looking for these ‘bolder holders’ has enlightened me. A 30 rib cage makes it a lot trickier finding a bra to fit, lots of 32’s but they slide up my back! Recommendations appreciated if you read this!

I am now looking forward to softening, dropping, fluffing and any of the other descriptions used in augmented boobs looking more natural. Creating a bit of lift & cleavage will be exciting. And... Allowing my husband to buy me underwear, something for a long time I was for to insecure to do!!

I hope others are as happy as I am already, my mental health is so much better!




Updated on 4 Nov 2018:
Feeling like I’m healing well, no pain at all now and only the odd nerve tingle every now and then.

Took the tape off my scars, it had been so itchy I thought it was just because scabs itch when healing ... In actuality I think I might have been mildly allergic to the tape. Under the tape I was red and rash like. The itchiness had gone after an hour of shower & no tape. The scar sites are looking great though. I have attached a photo.  Still waiting for softening as I still feel like hulk ???? photo attached of very firm high boobs (taken Monday 5weeks post op) !!  Waiting for my 6 week check up appointment details ... officially 6 weeks on Monday

I have an appointment on the 24th August, to discuss a possible rupture of my implant on my left side.
I am a very active person, so when my left side under my arm pit started stinging a couple of months ago, I assumed I had just pulled something doing pole.
But it comes and goes so I've made a doctor's appointment with my original PS so that we can discuss my options and figure out if anything is wrong.
I first got my implants 5 years ago, after spending a long time feeling ashamed and upset about my 32AA breasts. I had received a lot of criticism from people around me for a number of years,and I constantly felt undesirable.
So after a horrific break up with my first boyfriend I decided to get breast implants, he had always made me feel bad about having a small chest and routinely cheated on me with big breasted women and after dating a string of guys who said they liked me "even though I didn't have boobs" I felt very low.
So I talked my parents into helping me get a loan, then found a doctor nearby that could do the procedure. I found Mr Devaraj online after emailing a couple of other doctors and he just seemed so genuinely nice that I met with him.
Everything went very smoothly from there and I went up to a modest 32B which is what I had asked for, but the boobs didn't fix my self confidence (I know shocking) but at the time I was young and I thought that I would instantly feel good about myself.
For a good year after I felt just as bad, I hated them and even went back and complained at poor Mr Devaraj, who took it all really well because he is a great Dr and I've always felt bad about my behaviour.
I met my current boyfriend around the year mark after getting le boobies, and he's really been the turning point. He's helped me love myself for who I am and supported me going through counselling, he's just been amazing. Time and the right people in your life really do make all the difference.
So I made my peace with the boobs, I've gained weight and gone on contraception since having them put in, so they have ballooned from the 32B that I was originally to the 30DD/E that I am now (I also got properly fitted hence the band change.)

So after a couple of years of feeling happy about my BA and just feeling good in generally, after growing in myself and just a month ago paying off the loan in full. I realise that the pain I've been feeling isn't just a muscle pain it's deeper.
Haha life always has a funny way of surprising you, so I've spent a while looking at all the reviews on here, and coming to terms with the fact that I might have to be natural again, if they are ruptured I'm not getting them replaced. It's just not worth the worry and money I can't afford to keep replacing them.
I am nervous for the 24th but come what may I know it's going to be okay in the end.

Updated on 14 Nov 2016:
Which was a while a go now and after feeling my boob and doing a couple of tests. Said he suspects a silicone bleed as there is definitely hardening on that side.

I was going to wait until I could get an MRI on the NHS but it's pretty screwed at the minute so everything is taking 4X as long. So I had a talk with my boyfriend and we are going to save and look at getting them removed early January next year.

Updated on 23 Dec 2016:
I'm really excited booked for 13th February 2017. So I get a little more time to prepare and save money. I cannot wait to be small again I'm so sick of these things. Especially now that I've made up my mind I just want them out and it to be done with.

Updated on 17 Feb 2017:
I'm pretty tired and battered but I feel okay. First day I felt really good but I think I have pushed myself to much the last day and a half. I guess I just need to rest more and I'll feel better.
As I am just relaxing I decided to upload some photos before and after. I was an 30 DD/E not sure what I am now and I don't care I am free <3

I'm considering having rhinoplasty/nose reshaping and I'm looking for surgeons. I'm interested in my procedure being carried out at a Nuffield Hospital so I have been checking out surgeons in the Nuffield in exeter (my hometown) I will travel if need be, but if I have a decent surgeon on my door step it would be more practical. Has anyone had any experiences with Vikram Devaraj? I'm finding it difficult to find any reviews or experiences especially for rhinoplasty. He seems to have a good character from the little tid bits I have come across on the web. I now just need to know if he can do a good nose? Haha. Any experiences would be helpful or if anyone can recommend another surgeon at the Exeter Nuffield or surrounding area (south west) but I am definitely interested in having my procedure done at a nuffiled hospital.

Thanks in advance :)