I'm done! It finally happened! After 20 years of living with this horrendous roll it's finally off my body. Healing has definitely been the roller coaster of emotions I didn't expect. I truly thought I would bounce back faster since I was so fit. Just finished the 1 week hurdle. Hope it gets easier from here on in!
Updated on 1 Jun 2013:
The drains finally came out. Yay! By far, the most painful part of the whole ordeal. I don't want to scare any one but I didn't expect that feeling. It was so painful for me that I almost passed out and laid there shaking for about 2 mins afterwards. Very strange. I am back next week to get my stitches removed. I'm so excited. I can already see my hard-earned abs from the side!!!! I didn't have my abdominals stitched so I was afraid these would be hidden under swelling for a while. Feel about 75% at day 8. I am actually surprised how long it's taking me to stand up straight. I work out a lot and I foolishly thought I would bounce back faster than most people - boy was I wrong. You can't just decide when you're going to get better (after my breast lift/implants I was ready to go back to work After 3 days. Walk in the park). It definitely is a slow loving process where you must make decisions to help your body heal.
My biggest tip - drink 3 L of water a day. Yes that's a lot, but the benefits for bloating, anti-constipation, energy, cleaning out your kidneys from all of the meds, helping your liver process all the meds - drinking that water your biggest responsibility to ensure the health of your organs - which will ensure the speedy recovery of your TT.
I feel like I have retained 98% of sensation in my stomach. It is in the flank lypo areas that I am feeling numbness, crazy bruising (still :)) and muuuucho swelling.
At 8 days I am surprisingly not standing up straight yet. My Dr. Doesn't want me to until next week.
Can't wait to see what the next week brings!! (Hopefully Return to work at the end of this week) Already love my tummy and it's only going to get better!!
Updated on 3 Jun 2013:
My thighs are SO swollen. My butt is wrinkled and saggy looking. Not even kidding when I say I wish I could just take my old butt back.
I had upper butt/lower back lypo done to remove the "shelf" I had there. In the last moment before going into surgery, the surgeon circled 2 spots on my thighs and lypo'd those as well.
I have major swelling in my thighs and in the place where my TT binder cuts me off, my skin is denting in. I emailed my docs office asking them for a binder to compress my thighs where I had the lipo done and to promote a smooth transition between my stomach and my thighs, but they haven't responded to me. Frustrated.
I was really in love with my butt before I went in for surgery. Now I feel like my waist is disproportionately small to my huge thighs.
Can't wait for this swelling to go down. Sigh.
Updated on 3 Jun 2013:
Updated on 5 Jun 2013:
I spent the last two days downing water like there was going to be a water shortage. I am so thrilled that I did. My swelling had decreased by about 40%.
Amazing!!
Yesterday was my first day on the Arnica and Bromlain and Tumeric that all you ladies suggested. I don't know if this had anything to do with it as well - it usually takes more than a day for herbs to kick into your system.
Feeling great today. Thighs, butt and flanks are still super swollen. The proportion of my small waist to my hips is still freaking me out - I still want to lose another 5-10 lbs so hopefully now that I don't have the fat cells on my tummy - they'll come off my butt and thighs first (haha dare to dream).
Very happy with results today. Can't wait to get these stitches out and my new longer binder. This darn thing is still cutting me off at the hips and causing weird water pockets there.
Cheers to a wonderful day!!
Updated on 6 Jun 2013:
Updated on 6 Jun 2013:
I feel amazing today! I’m still drinking my 3+L of water and can’t believe how not-bloated I am for my 3rd day of having my period. I feel so, so, so, so, good and I can’t wait until my other TT sisters get to join me on this high.
My theory on this whole process is that attitude is the BIGGEST key to your healing process. For the most part I’m a pretty positive person. I have wanted this surgery for the last 15 years and although I have whined about about the pain and swelling, I have been excited throughout the whole process. I have wanted this for so long and I knew it wasn’t going to be a walk in the park. I also knew that I hated my stomach so much that I would have gladly gone through this pain to have a body that I could be proud of. I would do this again and again – even the horrible drain removal – to have the body I have 13 days post op….
Can you believe it??? 13 days post op and I’m standing straight and my swelling is drastically going down. I’m elated today! I tried on a dress I bought on Rodeo Drive, as a gift to myself, in California this year. My stomach is almost flat enough to wear it.
What made my journey easier is having had been in pretty good health and shape before my surgery. I took Vit C (for skin and immune system), Potassium (I don’t get enough of it in my diet), a multi vit, biotin (for skin), arnica, bromelain and turmeric, throughout my recovery process. I drank a lot of water and did my favourite “at home” things, enjoyed the down time (because I’m always so go go go) and messaged with my TT sisters about the journey.
Don’t lose hope. Don’t lose faith. You have wanted this for so long. You’ve worked hard for it and deserve it. You were strong enough to have the children and lose the weight, that left you with this tummy. You saved the money and took the time off work. You are SO strong! This TT is just another thing that you’re totally strong enough to get through. You know you are too – otherwise you wouldn’t have decided to take this journey.
Yesterday I went to my second PO appointment. I had my stitches taken out of my BB and the mole they removed. Doctor said that everything looks great. I asked her about scar therapy and she said that they really don’t suggest anything other than using the cloth tape. I think I’m still going to give myself body treatments every week. (I’ll post the youtube video of the natural products I plan to use). The doctor said I can resume light activities. Is Zumba a light activity?? Lol.
If I could give anyone ONE piece of advice it’s: DRINK YOUR WATER. 3-4L EVERY DAY religiously. I dropped the ball for 3 days on my water drinking and MAN did I feel it. Bloated, huge belly, no BM, up FIVE extra pounds. 2 days into drinking my water again and I’m down 6 lbs, feel amazing, can drive, skin looks great.
I didn’t want to post this in the May TT forum because I don’t want to feel like a gloater – but I FEEL AMAZING TODAY! I’m so happy I did this and YOU WILL TOO!!!
Love,
Veronica
Updated on 7 Jun 2013:
I needed to take a serious page out of my own self-help book today. I had a "low" day today. I kind of feel like I can't write about it in the main May page because a lot of you ladies are having a harder time than I am, and since I have been bible-thumping a positive attitude, I will do my griping in private on my page.
I don't know if I told you guys but I have never worn a two piece bikini to the beach. At one point in my life I used to model and I managed to cover and hide my stomach. I have lived in constant shame of my body for as long as I can remember. Even when I was skinny, I had saggy wrinkled skin that I just knew how to hide. I would get my stomach airbrushed a certain way to hide any flaws. My horrible stomach has always been there haunting me; It was there when I went shopping, when I got out of the shower and looked in the mirror, when I met a cute guy I might like to date, when I thought about crossing over into 'sex' territory. I'd always think about what my stomach looked like or what someone might think of my stomach.
Well... today I went to go pick up my 2.5% cortisone cream because I have been so damn itchy that I have been scratching myself at night and then ripping off my girdle in my sleep. I have been suffering. On the way To Save-on-Foods I noticed a new bikini store that had opened. I dared to enter. I have never worn a 2 piece bikini to the beach. The furthest I've gone is to wear shorts/skirt and a bikini top. My big promise to myself was to wear a two piece before my 30th bday (December 30th this year)... so I decided to have a peek at what this store had.
Is bikini shopping supposed to be so hard? I didn't have very much fun, to be honest. I magically found like 50 extra pounds I'd want to lose before I hit the beach. JEeeeeebus. I thought it was supposed to be fun to be skinny. I found bikinis I like but I also managed to find new body parts I didn't like to go with them. I went home very disappointed.
Luckily I texted my gf's. They were so incredibly supportive. They reminded me that I was just out of major surgery and on the 3rd day of my period. I needed to give myself a break. My boyfriend, hearing enough of my own advice, gave it back to me. He told me I looked beautiful and that I was being so incredibly ridiculous. He reminded me that my body just went through torture. I put it through so much stress and I couldn't expect that it was going to reward me for it right away. He then took pictures of me in the bikini I took my "before" pictures in AND - lo and behold ... I actually really liked them. I realized bikini shopping is a new stress of being a skinny girl!!! It's hard for ALL girls. It doesn't matter how fit and skinny you are, we will always find some flaw to fixate on that no one else probably notices. I needed that pep talk from him today.
Now for the sex talk. You have been warned... if you don't want to hear it...
click off now.
Ok. Let me tell you a few private things first:
I have never had sex without covering a portion of myself or by turning my stomach away from the person's eyes. I've always worried about what I looked like, what I felt like to someone's touch. My hands were always on guard to push my boyfriend's hands away in case he touched my stomach. I worried about what he thought, what I looked like, what it felt like to touch me. I've always been a very sexual person but my ruined stomach has put a significant damper on my intimacy.
Last night I had the most honest sex of my life. I was able to get completely naked, feel completely free and 100% confident and sexy during the whole ordeal. It was amazing. I loved being able to have my boyfriend touch my body and to be proud of it. I happened to be on top, which allowed me to decide what I could and couldn't handle with my new tummy. He couldn't stop looking and watching. He was like a little boy in a candy shop. It was such a turn on to him - which was suuuuuuch an ego boost for me. Afterwards he told me that was some of the best sex he's ever had. He told me that it feels amazing to be able to touch my body without having me push his hands away. It's been so forbidden throughout our whole relationship and he absolutely loves it! I love it too!!! That is my victory for today!!!
So I learnt a few things today, as the owner of a new flat stomach:
1. I am going to have good days and bad days, no matter how phenomenal I look.
2. Bikini shopping is difficult for everyone
3. Don't go bikini shopping when you're bloated from surgery and from your period.
4. Don't be afraid to realize that you're being totally ridiculous.
5. SEX WITH MY NEW STOMACH IS SOOOO MUCH BETTER THAN COVERING UP WITH ANY BIKINI!!!
6. The journey has just begun.
I hope all of you have a wonderful weekend full of lots of ups!! I have included my crappy fitting room photos that made me think I had a gut with fat legs...and the white bikini photos that my bf took, that actually made me feel very good.
Love,
Veronica
Updated on 19 Jun 2013:
I love my low scar and flat tummy. I will post more about progress on Friday :)
Xoxoxo
Updated on 25 Jul 2013:
So happy and getting better every day. Sadly I have 2 really bad dogs ears - will post this weekend, and my back lipo is still bumpy but I am ELATED. This journey has completely changed my life!!!
Happy Thursday Everyone.
Updated on 4 Aug 2013:
Hey guys.
I wanted to do a quick update on my progress. My lower back is still very bloated. I've also included pics of my scar and dogs ears. My surgeon wants to repair them later this year but honestly I am so so so happy. Dogs ears, red scar and all.
I can't tell you guys enough how happy I am. I have returned to the gym and have my abs popping through.
I love everything about the result. I'm having the time of my life and feel like a million bucks.
Some info
1)My scar is a weird shape because my surgeon cut out half of a scar I have from having had surgery when I was a baby.
2)I believe my dogs ears are a result of lose skin in those areas following weight loss.
Happy to hear from anyone who has questions about the process.
Happy TT journey!!
Xoxoxo
Veronica.
Updated on 4 Aug 2013:
Updated on 20 Oct 2013:
It has been almost 6 months and this decision has truly been the best of my life. In 3 weeks I will be competing In a fitness competition. I love my body. I love my life. I am
So grateful to all you amazing women who lifted me up, answered my questions and supported me though this.
Do it! Do not think twice about it. Have a. Good attitude. This is THE BEST thing you could possibly do for yourself. The road to recovery won't be easy - for some it will be easier than others but the end result will truly be worth every freaking painkiller, cent and struggle.
You are worth it. You deserve to be happy and YOU have the absolute power to make this experience as good or bad as you want it to be.
There may be some hard days but you can either complain and gripe about it or you can see this as a stepping stone to getting the body you've always wanted.
If you're on Instagram my journey is on there lazysundayxo.
I am happy to share my experience with you ladies and am wishing each and every one of you, my kind of satisfaction.
I have really bad dogs ears at the moment and can't get them fixed until after the competition because 6 months in I am still struggling with swelling, my back Lipo is still bumpy, but I feel like a freaking rockstar!!!
Please don't be afraid to message me. I will answer any questions you might have and would be more than happy to support you on your journey.
So much love to you all! Do it! JUMP!
You will be so glad you did
Xo
Veronica.
Updated on 8 Jun 2014:
Since I got my tummy tuck, life has been amazing. Even if I gain a little weight, my stomach is flat as a board. I recently competed in a fitness competition which was a lifelong dream for me. The thing that I noticed however was that the swelling in my back never went away. I ended up with some fat deposits on either side of my lower back as well as indents on my butt cheek and legs from my lipo. The doctor was happy to fix these for me. I had surgery yesterday and will post some pictures for you guys. Here are some photos of my lower back before the surgery as well as some pictures of my fitness competition and recent photoshoot I got asked to do. I am super groggy and sluggish today and will update this post again soon. The pain is nothing compared to what I went through the first time. I was out and about today with minor aches. I dropped the heavy codeine meds in favour of advil and my antibiotic. Will post again in a few days when I am back to my usual self :) :) :)
Happy Sunday Everyone!
Updated on 8 Jun 2014:
Back Lipo with fat grafting to hips and buttocks
Updated on 8 Jun 2014:
Competition and post tummy tuck pics :)