“Worst decision i ever made”

Silicone implants after breast feeding 3 children I enjoyed larger breasts and wanted it to be permanent after I had lost the fullness - cost $9,000 (1994).

Had another procedure within 4 years as they hardened within months and cost $8,500, again they went hard and lopsided but I could not justify spending this kind of money yet again to get them put right or out for good until now.

I am now currently researching explant specialists as it is not straight forward to remove implants completely in order to get a good result once they are out.

Pros - not many except filling out a top and temporary happiness once the pain goes and they settle down, and the novelty soon wears off.

Cons - They will never look or feel natural, women are always asking and men always wonder. Even if they look good at first they harden and go saggy or become misshaped and uneven.

You never ever feel good within yourself, it's like you are living a lie that everybody knows about - do you admit it or do you perpetuate it, knowing they know anyway - not that it is anyone else's business it just becomes so.

Worst thing is that I feel embarrassed hugging my kids or friends...

Downside also is that my breasts do not and will never look as good as they did before the implants and it will cost me just the same to get them out as it did to put them in plus stretched skin and scars.

Unless you want to look like a Barbie I'd say don't do it at all or just increase by the smallest cup size especially if you have little tissue coverage. Mine were over the muscle and look (and feel) like two tennis balls stuck to my chest.

In most cases if you are naturally small breasted implants will always look suspect due to your overall body proportions especially if you subsequently loose a lot of weight.

And in case you are wondering all men can tell and most women too (naked) - and your breasts always feel cool to the touch, a little too firm and not nice and maliable.

Ultimately I think the whole problem lies in the design and feel of the actual implants which still cannot replicate the give and feel of the natural female breast.