46 - Implant Removal - Can't Wait to Feel Normal Again. - United Kingdom, GB

8 years ago I was struggling with my boobs after 3...

8 years ago I was struggling with my boobs after 3 children and 6 years of breast feeding. My breasts were saggy and my left breast was 32B and my right breast 32D - finding a bra to fit was a nightmare - chicken fillets were not the best to use as over the course of the day they rode up and almost pooped out ??
So after lots of research, discussion with my supportive hubby, and looking at implants & lifts etc I decided to research doctors that specialised. Eventually I found an amazing doctor and went to consult.
I 100% needed a lift (I totally agreed)
But I was mixed about implants or just a lift!! I wanted to be how I was before breast feeding bit certainly didn't want to look fake or huge.
Finally I agreed to implants and the lift, and breast tissue removed from my right breast - although I was persuaded to go a larger than I wanted - I was told the smaller size would lead to disappointment.
Even when being marked up for my lift I was still feeling I should just have a lift!! I was worrying that one day they'd have to come out even though my doctor said that off some women they stay in and ok for life.
I cannot fault my doctor in her skills - they looked amazing and natural. Although slightly larger than I hoped.
Anyway for several years now I've felt uncomfortable in my skin, I have felt fake and as my body naturally ages my breast stayed like a teen!!!
Like many ladies I dress to hide my boobs, I hug from the side ( thought this was just me, so relieved when I read others felt the same)
Also for many months I've been suffering extreme fatigue, heavy foggy head and aches all over and I've gone from cycling, swimming and walking lots to struggling to complete my dogs walk each day. My GP has tested me several times for thyroid/anaemia etc - always normal to my exasperation I was told menopause ( surgical menopause as full hysterectomy in 2010) make you tired.....
So I decided to google ( I know not best idea always)
My symptoms and it was like a bright light, oh goodness why did I not think before that possibly my silicone implants could be the cause.
Abundant research and this amazing site convinced what I was already
Sure of - I wanted to explant for many reasons ( one also that I could not check properly for breast cancer, my closest friend 4 years ago had and found through checking) plus I was having huge aches in my right breast which I wasn't thinking ( maybe looking back - denial) was due to my implant!
Anyway I had many discussions and shared info with my hubby and we both felt "get the toxic balls out"
I researched doctors and booked to see one that sounded hopeful and reviews of him
And the hospital were good.
I went (because of all you ladies ) very confident to my appointment, told hubby thing I was defo not going to
Agreed to
Etc ... So he knew where I stood and would not bend with doctors thoughts.
The doctor was amazing - he listened to all
My concerns and he did not try yo persuade me in any way, he talked to
About whst my expectations were and how I felt. He was easy to
Talk to
And was happy even though his list was running very late to answer all my questions and hubbies and even when I was happy to leave he asked IV j was sure I had in other questions - he gave me his card with his details so that if I needed to
Ask
Anything or talk I could contact him - WOW!
He also gave me details of other staff members that I could talk to
If I wanted to.
When he examined me he said my right breast had capsular contraction stage 2 and took
The yr to
Discuss this and made sure I could see clearly this in the mirrors.
I knew after the first few minutes that he was my doctor because I felt listened to and respected. I asked whether I should have local or general - he said I could chose and he would respect what I want even up to the admission day. However he recommends general as this is less stress for the patient especially if the surgery becomes more complicated than expected and also hd felt it was safer. I'm truly fully confident in every thing discussed and I can't wait until September 17th 2014 to have them removed and to feel
Natural - like many ladies I long to wear a simple summer dress or top & not feel like I flaunting my boobs and to hug people properly... Thank you all for helping me - I will post pics when j can xxxx

Pictures of implants now

295 mil round silicone gel
Nagor ltd

Anxious last night feeling left implant!

Last night & still today I can feel my implant and can press it is and it pops up again. I could run my hand gently over my breast & the lump was very noticeable to feel & see. My breast aches & my anxiety raised! I already have cc in my right breast. Is this rupturing? Has anyone felt this before? When I lay down about a finger space from my nipple I feel what feels like an air bubble in my implant???? Worried & can't wait for explant :( xxxx

13 days to go and can't wait

Mostly looking forward to my explant & although I wonder what I will look like for the most part I don't care because I want to feel natural & well. Also amazing ladies stories give me boosts on the days I'm less positive ESP when I don't feel so good. I just want to be on the road to recovery. Plus to wear clothes & not feel like I'm
Really overweight! I never thought I dressed to hide my boobs until I read about others and then It dawned on me how much i work around these boobs - weird hugs - uncomfortable sleep - dressing & feeling like I'm hugely over weight, stopped running and cycling !!!

This time next week & I'll be I my first recovery day xxx

Looking forward to my explant next Wednesday it's all consuming now and all my symptoms and aches seem to be right in front if my eyes!!! Mostly excited and occasionally reality of surgery kicks in - wishing all ladies explanting over next few days good luck and happy healing - I'm
Posting pics of me in bikini and will after explant to compare xxxxxxx

Just received pictures of my pre implants

The left side is 32 B side & left 32b
Looking back I wish I'd stick with my desire for a lift only - live & learn eh

Correction

Left 32 b -right 32d

Before & after implant 8 years apart

Bikini pre explant

Before

Almost there

Had chat with the nurse today regards the big day - feel happier now that is completed. Off to buy my sports bra for after. Because I was 32band32d. She advised getting b and c and see which fits best - so I shall ;)
Excited & a little nervous - feels weird now it's getting so close xx
Birmingham Plastic Surgeon

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Bluebell! Best wishes for a successful explant! I'll be sending you positive vibes! Keep us posted.
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Good luck tomorrow bluebell68. .keep us posted.. this time next week you should be feeling really good...
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Bluebell - you got this!!!! You are going to do so well! I will be following your story closely - us September explanters! Read my update - I'm feeling fantastic!
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7 more days! I think you are going to look and feel great when you get those bags out of your chest! Me too. I'll follow shortly behind you. We are in the home stretch now!
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Yes ~we are both almost there and we will both begin to live again :) we can walk away from our misguided decision of years ago :) xxxx
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Amen!
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Im excited for you ladies..its wonderful not having those toxic bags ..I feel younger..
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Frisky your so encouraging xxxx so glad your feeling good xxxxx
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Well yours is getting closer to coming out..mines tomorrow..im scared..are you getting more excited?
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Hi frisky - a the best - keep focusing on why you are taking this journey - I hover between anxious and excited - it's natural - remember you consulted with you PS & you've researched everything - lots of ladies have come through very happy & relieved - we can do this too xxxxxx keep us posted how you are doing xxxx
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Bluebell, 9 days to go! I can't tell you the number of hours I have spent trying to hide my breasts. It became a joke with my sisters initially..."You paid all that money to what...hide them?" My initial comeback was, "No, they are for private viewing only." Little did I want to admit to them or myself, I loathed beery inch of them! Can't wait to be free and can't wait to hear about your journey! Cheers!
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Hi exhale - I hear & completely understand you. It's going to be lovely to feel natural & free again xxxx we both deserve to feel good - unless you've walked in our steps then it's hard for others to fully understand xxx
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Im excited for you..im so much happier now.
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Amen bluebell68. Unless you have carried the implants how can a person understand,?
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Frisky - Really happy for you, I can't wait to join you ;) xx
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Frisky exactly xx
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I know what you mean about feeling overweight but your day is coming. I felt so much lighter and thinner after.
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Time to be natural - thank you - your words are so encouraging x
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Congrats on your decision. You're going to feel great! Keep us posted!
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Thank you xxx I will xxxx
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Bluebell...you are going to look so much better after explant! I'm so excited for you! You are going to feel that lightness that I too excitedly look forward to! We will be on the other side before you know it!
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Happy and Holistic ~ you are so right and I'm looking forward to your journey too and to hear of your recovery xxxx thank you ~ your posts are always so balanced & encouraging xxx
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That's what this forum is all about...thank you for your kind words.
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Hi Bluebell! We will be having our surgery about the same time, so we can compare notes on our recovery. I too have suffered from extreme fatigue and chalked it off to heavy cycles and low iron. I'm anxious too, but you can only hope for the best. This site is really helpful and encouraging. Keep us in the loop.
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Hi Exhale, both u and bluebell r having the explant surhery around the same time as me. Let's all keep in touch. Best to chat where everyone can see our posts unless it's super personal as to hale all reading. I haven't posted pictures yet. Not sure how to. Though I'll figure it out. I'm having mine done in Laguna Beach, California from Dr. Daniel B. Kim.
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