Puffy, swollen, sunken eyes from botox with eye bags - horrific disfigurement. Likely permanent. - West Bloomfield, MI

I wish there was something I could do to help. I know plastic surgery may be expensive but who cares about money if you are having thoughts of suicide! I know how you feel. Something similar happened to me, not with Botox but I felt like you do. If plastic surgery will fix this, go do it, please, your daughter needs you!!!

Dear KM, I've struggled for a long time to try and put the right words together for you and I now know that even if my words aren't quite right I desperately need to write something as you are in so much pain. Each time I see an update from you I hope beyond hope that you are feeling better and on the road to recovery, but it seems each day you become more depressed and are in so much turmoil. My advice is two fold, the first and most important is that you need to seek urgent help regarding your mental state. I am not a health professional but reading your posts you have now crossed the line from feeling down and upset to a serious depression and this needs to be treated seriously and urgently and only you can start this process as we are all just reading your posts from afar, feeling helpless that we cannot get you the help you desperately need. My second point will hopefully give you further encouragement that you will get through this. I need to elaborate on my own situation, as I said to you previously I had a botox disaster which resolved approximately 3-4 months after the initial injections. What I now want to add to that story (and probably didn't originally because I'd hoped yours would resolve in the same time frame) is that unfortunately I didn't learn my lesson and went on to have Juverderm injected under my eyes which I now know was done too superficially along with botox on the same day - DISASTER!!! This was done in October 2010 and I feared that my face was ruined this time. I too slumped into a very bad mental place and spoke to a few trusted friends continuously about it. It was at this time that I found Real Self. Its been a long slow recovery BUT it has been a recovery and 2 and 1/2 years later I'm still not quite there but I'm about 80% back to baseline and feel I could happily live with this result if its as good as it gets. I'm telling you this not to scare you for time frames but to give you hope that your face will heal. Its really hard to see improvements when we study every tiny imperfection on our face. I still find swelling some days worse than others but overall I have improved so much. Interestingly the side of my face which had more botox (more crows feet) was the side that suffered most - a much bigger eyebag underneath, like the whole fat pad was protruding, whereas the other side looked like more of an overfill of juvederm. I know all doctors give the best advice they can but they are very quick to say the effects can only last so long etc etc etc. and literally dont believe people when they say "but I didn't have this problem before it must be the filler or the botox". In my case as I say, its taken 2 and 1/2 years and its still getting better. All my original wrinkles are back, but its like the muscle which contains the fat pad is taking longer to heal as it was damaged. I really hope my story has given you hope that you will continue to improve and remember "that which does not kill us makes us stronger" even if it feels like its killing us at the time. Please please please seek help to make a psychological recovery and then let your body do the rest. xxxx

Hiya hun, its been a while since I gave you an update myself.. Firstly just wanna say that I agree with Melbourne, you need to speak to a doctor regarding the depression. Whatever way you look at it, you need help. You cannot be threatening suicide when you have a young child to look after.. -She needs you. My face is a mess. Its been 9 long months for me too! My eyes are sunken in to the extent that you can actually see my orbital rims. Ive tried EVERYTHING to get this [RS bleep] out of my face, can still feel it there though. my 11s havent even come back yet. Its gonna be a VERY slow recovery for me, and Iv accepted it (because I have to.) My skin is hanging around my eyes, starburst effect with horizontal lines that bunch up under my eyes too. cheeks still quite low from the ptosis (but have risen slightly, or maybe Im just gettin used to my face now, who knows :( Ive started to take milk thistle, with vitimin B12 sublingual tablets. Have yet to see any improvement but its worth a shot. Dont give up!! Things will get better. Sending you lots of love x -Keep the faith! x

I sent you A private message. I'm am sooo sorry your going through this. Please read my message

still a mess, I feel sooooooo bad for you......I went through hell as you know for weeks and was horrified to see someone that knew me so instead became house bound for that time...now forehead wrinkles have been back for some time and I picked up the phone and booked two appts. with two different plastic surgeons thinking I would do it again and they would know what they are doing and more qualified than a gp....still hesitant and cancelled them as a more health issue has come up and it is crucial