5'2 lugging these 36 F's - 5 weeks post op - Walnut, CA

Week 5

Hi ladies, It's been a while since I've updated but thought it would be important to share my latest experience with those who might have to go through something similar. Not long after my last post about 31/2 weeks post op, I had some oozing from my right nipple, it was coming from a few little pin holes where the sutures were, just below my nipple there was a pocket of fluid, with a tiny little area of separation from the pressure from the fluid. When I went to my PS she squeezed the pocket to drain the fluid, then decided to use a nitrate stick to cauterize the area, I had no idea what a nitrate stick was, and it burned while she was using it, when she was done she showed me with a mirror that I now had an opened wound about the size of a quarter, she said that in the next 4 days, really icky brown stuff will be coming out of the wound and not to be alarmed, she also told me this was going to set me back 4 to 6 weeks, and I was to come back on the forth day. Needless to say I was pretty devastated that I'm walking out of her office with a wound I didn't have when I walked in, which lead me to contemplate even more "why I did this", I was pretty depressed, I was looking forward to getting out of the sports bras and into something more comfortable, and now more sleeping on my back.
She was right there was lots of oozing, and drainage from the area. On the 4 day I returned to her office, she cleaned up the wound and told me the reason she did the nitrate stick was because she was worried there was a second fluid pocket, turns out there wasn't, she was happy, but I wasn't, it seemed this was an unnecessary procedure, ugh!!! The Universe decided I was not learning patients yet I guess, LOL!
She showed me how to pack it with this gel to keep it moist, she said it would probably get worse before it gets better, WHAT!!! You gotta be kidding me!!! I walked out of there with sterile scissors, tweezers, lots of gauze and packing material and the gel.oh yeah and more antibiotics. About 3 days later I noticed that a small area just below this wound on the suture line was started to separate, I was freaking out and sent her a picture, she wrote back and said she wouldn't be surprised if the two meet and become one wound. OMG!!!
I'm not ready for this to happen, why me, you read about it happening to other women but you think, no, it's not going to happen to me! This sent me into a real funk! She also said, don't look at it, huh! how do you not look at something you have to take care of everyday.
It's been about 9 days since I had my last appt. and about 5 days ago I decided to try using the Mauka Honey, I have to say I think it's working, the small wound has almost closed and it didn't get bigger as she expected. I just happened to have some of the honey in my cabinet, so I went on amazon and read all the reviews on how much it has helped others with healing wounds and just thought what do I have to lose, I'm going to give it a try. I will keep you posted. I'm not going to post pictures just yet, it's kinda gross looking, I'd rather post a progression of the healing. Anyway that's what's been happening with me. I have finally let go of the anxiety and realize this is a process, it changes everyday, other parts of my recover are much better, they are not as sore, the swelling is going away, the incisions are still sore but I'm putting honey on that area as well, just to give it a whirl. I'm much more positive than I was, and it's been so nice not having the neck ache, backache and I feel like I can breath better, stand up straighter and I feel much lighter. Yes, I had a setback but it's taught me patience's and all in all I'm happy, and I know that eventually I will heal. There is so much to be thankful for, and especially having the opportunity to read and connect with all of you, don't know how I would have dealt with all of this without this site! Hugs and kisses to all of you!!!!

I'm 3 days shy of 3 weeks. It's been a journey for sure. I'm feeling so much better just in the past 4 days. I still
Have bruising and little scabbing, my girls are still a bit swollen and sore. My nipples are puckered and the left one seems to be going in a different direction :( I hope it straightens out. I'm waiting for incisions to completely heal before starting any scar treatments.
I have to say this has been emotionally difficult for me, I usually have a very positive outlook, but I became depressed and wondered if I had done the right thing. I'm much better now, but still don't quite feel like myself. I know I'll get there soon!
I'm being careful not to reach high or lift anything to heavy, other than that I'm slowly getting back to my routines. It does seem I need to rest more. Back to work next week.
I can't wait until I can buy a new bra and shop for new clothes!!!
I've been trying on some of my clothes and can't believe how big they are. By by big tops! It's going to be a different shopping experience, can't wait!!!!

Posted a few new photos but they are upside down, how do you delete photos?