I got my first silicone implant above the muscle...

I got my first silicone implant above the muscle in 1983. Had the poor self esteem issue. I was a size AA/A prior. After implant I was a C. Both encapsulated very quickly had the capsule "broken" manually under mild sedation. It was in 2006, I was having a breast exam. My Dr. friend said, how do you stand these being so hard. I think I had just gotten used to it. Although I was very self conscious of getting hugs from people...so I had them replaced. To find they were both ruptured. So I got saline this time. The left one quickly encapsulated. Had it redone again. Same thing. 2007 I went to different PS and got Mentor Gel sub muscular.

Things were going well up until a couple of years ago I noticed the left one getting more firm. That process has continued. Occasional pain. I find relief with heating pad. So I had gone to a PS a few months ago. Painted a grim pic of what I would looks like post explantation. So the price was good for a year, so I figured I had time. Well on Aug 3, I was in the ER. Happened to have CT of chest that described rupture. They suggested I see someone sooner rather than later. The ER doctor as well as my gastro are wondering if some of my problems that started occurring in 2008 aren't some how related.

I see a neuro for hyper excitable peripheral nerve disorder. Cramp fasiculation syndrome. New onset migraines. My lungs were very bad from 2008 thru approx 2011. That is better. Get SOB quite easily. Extreme fatigue. So I saw a new PS yesterday. Was very pleased with the visit. Didn't try to talk me in to anything. I had taken the CT for him to view. Pointed out I do have fat in my breast. For once happy about fat! Although not much breast tissue . He said he would do a partial capsule removal. Not along the chest wall. Also my breast currently look uneven due to the fold not being even. So he is going to try and even that out. He said I would have drains for one week. Suggested I not go to work. I was reluctant to agree with that at first. But after thinking about it I do need sometime to get used to the new me. And work is quite stressfull. I will have to continue my story. I'm out the door for now.

Pics prior to explantation

I found it hard to take pics of myself. As with these sub muscular implants they also change the appearance of your breast when you lift things! Another reason they need to go!

Thank you for bravely sharing your story. You have been through more than almost anyone I've heard of with breast implants. I'm so sorry for your pain and all that encapsulation. I can only imagine you'll feel so much better without the implants.

I'll be watching for your updates!

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I had similar nerve/fatigue problems (almost diagnosed with MS before explant), resolved immediately after they were removed. Most of us end up looking a lot better than we expected :) Hope you are able to get them out for good.
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Hi, Thanks for starting your review...I'm sorry you've had so many problems and health issues. You're in the right place here. There are many of us here at different stages after having explant. I look forward to hearing how everything goes and all the very best with your explant!
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In the hospital

Have been in hospital since Monday eve with what is turning out to be yet another strange thing with my body. Had ileous and acsities. Ileous has resolved. Bottom line is they are wondering if it is related at all to possible ruptured implant. I hope I can make it to surgery next week. I don't know how that would work if he could just come here and do it. I need to get better so I can be strong for surgery. Crazy thoughts as I am medicated for pain. Happy my hubby brought my iPad to hospital. It helps to read all the encouraging posts. Thank you all for being here.

Big day tomorrow 08/28

I have just been so busy this evening I haven't had much time to think about it. I took a shower, thought to myself, it won't be the same body next chance I get to shower. Bitter sweet moment. I hope my husband is ready for this!!! I have high anxiety. He has been very supportive. But I won't know my response untill it happens. I'm excited to know these fake (one hard)things will be gone. Hope the cosmetic end is satifactory that I don't feel the need for lift. I'm tired of spending money on these things. To think what I could have done with that money! What are ya going to do. Well wish me luck. I will of course post pics when I can take wraps off. He said I will have drains. So I'm not sure if that means I will wear compression wrap longer. I will keep ya'll posted when I'm up to chatting. Thanks for all your support.
Praying for you! Cannot wait to see the outcome. You are going to be so happy!
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Thank you for the well wishes .been tossing and turning since 3:30. So I thought I would get up. Pet the cats. They relax me. . Talk soon.
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You are gonna do great,,,it will be a tremendous relief,,,good luck
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Went well

I'm somewhat medicated so this will be short. The left one was ruptured. Only have one drain. Hurts to take deep breath. But continue to do so... Will be able to shower tomorrow. He said there were actually 2 capsules. One left from previous surg. Under the ace wrap it looks much flatter than right side. Dr. Franckle called this eve. He told my husband not to worry at this point. I have no nausea and a wonderful nurse . My hubby!!
The worst is over only good from now on,,speedy healing,
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First day pics.

Left one really looks flat. My hubby keeps telling me not to worry.
I see a bump under that bandage. You are not flat! Congrats on being done.
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Thank you for thinking of me! I think tomorrow should be good day.
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Do they ever tell you to massage at later date. I actually just got up for first time. Feeling pretty good. : )
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3 days post-op

Well I'm home along today. The drain only put out about 18cc overnight. I'm still wrapped in ace. I have pulled it down to look. Left breast does not look good at all. Right. Breast looks okay. Perhaps the left will get better after the drain comes out. It really looks like a huge hunk was removed. Still hard to take a deep breath. Seems to hurt my ribs. Feeling disappointed. Not that I got the implants out. Just the left breast. Anybody have this happen. Sorry I can't do photos to show you. May not happen until the drain comes out on Tuesday
I hope you are feeling better today, Be natural. It is very traumatic getting those things out and you have been through a lot. Please try not to worry about the end result yet, because your body will do remarkable things over the next few weeks and months. Give it time to heal and adjust!! I am thinking about you with all positive thoughts!!!
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I'm trying to be positive! Thanks for the encouragement !
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I am nervous for you, but truly believe after time to heal that it will be good. If you end up with one smaller than the other they make thin pads for bras to even things out. I'll be thinking of you.
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Saturday pics

I got brave enough to take off the dressing. All I can say is I can't wait to hear what he has to say about the left one. It looks horrible. Love the right one.
I hope you have a good doctors visit today. Take care.
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I was at three weeks post surgery when the doc told me I could start massaging. I've been doing it pretty aggressive because it seems like its the only chance I have in loosening it up. I also had some serious scar tissue built up and that is why the doctor said the tissue stuck down on my ribs. I had fluid built up in one of my breasts and it was causing me a tremendous amount of pain so I also had to get them out.
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Yes I'm going to get organic castor oil. And possibly the wool to do soaks with prior to massage. I will do anything to look 1/2 ways normal and not go thru another surgery.
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Dr. appointment today

Well I got my drain out and the ace wrap off. As far as the deformity on the left, he said that breast was a mess on the inside. It had thinned my breast tissue on the bottom. I believe because of the encapsulation. The rupture was actually in the center near my chest wall. So he said it was okay to use castor oil. I can begin massage on dry skin as soon as it is not to painful. He said it may change enough in months to come. I would have to wait about 3 months to see what it is going to do. If necessary discuss fat transplant at that point. So right now I am laying here with oil, flannel(until my wool comes in), plastic wrap and heating pad. I put off going back to work until Monday. Will have 10# weight restriction. I need to make myself get out of the house. Wishing I was with my daughter down south. : (
Of course any advise is always welcome from you ladies!

Photos after today's Dr. Visit

Hang in there--it's my right breast that's crumpled up. Like, I'm disappointed with my results but then our breasts have been through a lot. 26 years of implants for me.
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Yes mine were both encapsulated for years. Pretty much 1983-2006. No pain just rocks. So I had them redone with saline. The left one went wonky right away. Had it done again. Then both again. This is like doing the same action expecting different results. Talk about a slow learner. I have put my body through hell. So now it is being pampered with castor oil soaks, massage. In hopes my scar tissue will begin to break up.
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You have been through a lot be kind to yourself and patient with your breasts,,,
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2weeks post op

The right breast has not shrunk at all. I am amazed at its size. Trying not to get to excited incase there is change to come. Then there is the left side. I have been doing castor oil soaks. And just got my cupping kit in today. It really pulls that stuck skin up. I don't know if you can see in the picture the raised hump high on my chest. Not sure what to think about that. Could it be breast tissue?

2wk post op

Wanted to do pic with better light
Hi Benatural, i have read your profile and BOY you certainly have been through the mill! My heart to goes to your for sharing your story and your pictures. All i can say to you is that it is early days for you. You will go through a mountain of emotions , please try to be patient as I am sure your breasts will change, especially the left side. Like you say your poor breasts have been through soooo much. It takes time. I was shocked to the core when i had my implants out and lost my nipples---i have waited a year and there certainly has been an improvement for me. Emotionally i was a wreck and still coming to terms with my size. I think you are going to do well as you seem to have an inner energy from somewhere to deal with this. Thinking of you and please keep positive thoughts---I am sure your breasts will settle down somewhat--they have gone into shock! Take care, we are all here for you xxxxxxx Keep us updated xx
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Thank you so much for keeping us updated.. I still believe with time things will improve.. I think I already see a difference. I see what you mean by the upper bump. Have you discussed this with our doctor.
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When I see him next I'll see what he says.
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About one month post-op

Yep...still not good. Looking at possibly getting flap done. Have to wait another couple months. Perhaps fat grafting at the same time. When I look at the photos it is so depressing. I continue to do the castor oil soaks, Chinese cupping, and massage. He didn't think acupuncture would be a good idea since the area lacks blood supply. Would be higher risk of getting infection. Which I surely do not need.
He mentioned the brava system. I am not interested in that whole process. This just sucks!! I sure had not planned on putting anymore money in to these boobs. It could be worse...the right one could be a mess too. I'm so lucky that Dr. Franckle and his staff are so kind.
Hi Be Natural. I am the husband of an explant lady such as yourself. She looks very much like you only on the right side. The absolute hardest thing for her was looking at herself in the mirror. It seems she took a great deal of identity from her breasts and I can certainly understand that. I mean men do the same thing about themselves. We are 22 months post explant and she decided not to try any further implantation. She is 58, happy and adjusted to the new reality of who she is. I constantly tell her how beautiful she is and that her breasts are interesting and attractive in their uniqueness. I mean it too. Your breast will settle and believe it or not, fat will begin to fill it out. It takes time and patience on your part, but nature will help it all happen. The biggest mistake we made was not being aggressive enough with the massage of her breasts. You will not break down the scar tissue around the adhesion unless the massage is aggressive. You can't do that yourself. You will need your husband to help with it. Your doctor can tell you what massage technique is best for you, but we now laughingly and lovingly describe it as me mauling her breasts. Aggressive massage helped soften the entire breast tissue and break the scar tissue up allowing the natural fat to move more freely inside the breast. She is asking me to add that it wasn't her breasts I fell in love with and that she never felt like I was settling for her post explant breasts. They are part of who she is and that is the woman I love, breasts or not. Take heart. It truly does get much much better. There are a number of great sites out there for natural prosthetic bras that will help when you are out in public. Interestingly enough, the best and least expensive are sites that specialize in cross dressing and trans-gender clothing. I would send you photos of her immediately after surgery and today, but this site doesn't look like it allows me to do so. Best to you in your recovery. John & Jodie
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Hi wishing you the very best for recovery. I wish I had some great advise or imput just to say you are beautiful and more than what goes in your bra and if you want more work you will find the money it will happen for you and you can and will look the way you want belief is free and works!
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Thank you so much for the positive energy. I guess I get more use to the appearance everyday. It is easy wearing uniform to work, as most are baggy. I'm still massaging away,ect!
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Approx 1.5 months now since implants removed

Well my left one continues to be the problem. I still have about 1.5 months before I can consider surgery. Thought I would post some new pics.
I can say by reading your story your holding up pretty well, I know that it can be hard to look at yourself at times but I see you remain optimistic and that says a lot about you. I do hope you can get your breast back to its original shape. By looking at your pictures I can see some improvement even though you want the major improvement and like you said only time will tell. I am in that dilemma too, I will try to not think about it so much or beat myself over ever getting implants. I will wait at least a year to see if i can get my areola area to come out. And you are very brave my posting your pictures, thank you for sharing.
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PS..You could do the micro current therapy NOW!! It's always better immediately after surgery but it still works on old scars.. usually you can find an estetician to do it or she should know of someone...xx
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You have been very brave, it must have been and still be very difficult for you. Not long now though until you can have it fixed. I strongly suggest micro current surgery for scar tissue. I had huge hard lumps under and around my nipple area from scar tissue but began micro current therapy as soon as everything was closed up and healed...it literally melts awy scar tissue. Consider it after your next surgery... my best wishes to you and thank god you got them out!! Huggzz, Ana
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Three months post op

Well it has changed some. Even if the skin does release. The size is way different. Still can't grasp that they are so different in size. My husband and I had decided we would wait a year before I do anything. We will see if I will make it. I recently t/w a woman (who had cancer) who went to Johns Hopkins. They are doing a technique where they put in implant and then slowly replace its volume by fat transfer. Of course insurance is paying for hers! But I may go there and see what they would suggest for me. If they offer what my PS did, I would just let my Dr. do it.
An FYI for those who are in my situation. I went to a bra store and bought bra that has pockets for inserts. It was $60. I found that the TLC at the American Cancer society has them for $20 less.
I'm going for my baseline mammo Monday. Kind of nervous for my left breast. The tech will probably have that "oh my God" look! At least it won't have to worry about rupturing implant. Another reason I should never have gotten implants...as my mother died of breast cancer. It was always a struggle for the tech to do my mammos.
Looking better and better! Thanks for sharing your story. Good luck with your health and take care!
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Very thoughtful of you to comment! Kudos to you.
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More surgery on the 24th

My PS decided since my breast has gotten so soft that there is not a need for flap. He will be doing fat transfer only. I will get a picture up prior to surgery.
You've been through so much and it's good to hear that your PS is ready to move ahead with the fat transfer. This is truly a process and although many of the women on this site looked good right away, there also many of us who have struggled. As you said, I'm glad we got the implants out and hopeful that we all move toward health. Hang in there and let us know how things go!
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I wish I would her more of the problems that occurred, and what their situation was. I feel my only other choice is to do nothing. But it looks so awful : (. I know it won't stay the size it will be right after surgery. But if I can get anything where the tissue is absent ...I think my brain will feel better. Do you know anything about massaging if it becomes lumpy? I read gentle massage. I wouldn't want to mess with the tiny veins that are trying to keep the fat "alive".
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Great post, and very encouraging! I'm 6 months out from surgery & hoping for some fill-in eventually. Nipples are a bit weird, but that's because I had them so long that there was just emptiness when the PS removed them! Still, I'm thrilled I did it & wouldn't change. My hubby truly doesn't care either, which is great....we're over 60! Health is good :)
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Fat transfer Friday!

Hopefully my defect can be made more presentable. So here is the most recent pic. I hope to be able to show you a much improved breast soon. He said it will take a couple months to see the true outcome.
Very exciting news! I wish you the best of luck!
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Good luck to you. I think you are wonderful and brave to share your journey! You seem so positive; that is the only way to get through tough times. God bless you :)
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Post fat transfer

Sorry no pics yet. Surgery day was piece of cake. Now a little after 2AM. Breast feels fine. Transfer site a little sporty. Taking pain med and apply some ice. Not directly on compression dressing. I was told that was a big no no. Please keep sending prays that graft takes.
Hi..hope your fat transfer turns out well. Please visit us on the fat transfer to the breast section of real self. There is a woman (Beagle baby) who had an explant with one breast that turned in like yours and have a look to see how awesome she looks now. Using the Brava Bra suctioning system really helped her. I also had a fat transfer to the breasts instead of implants. I am very happy with the breast results. best wishes, amelia girl
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HUGS!!! You have had such a great attitude for such a rough journey. Thank you so much for sharing your story!
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Transfer last fri

The donor areas are the most uncomfortable. Day one was a breeze. Then Saturday reality set in. But I'm doing okay. They still don't match. Which I didn't think would ever happen. But it is much better. PS said I would have to give it a couple months to see the outcome.. I really don't have anymore money to invest in this. I love Dr. Franckle and Angel. The staff at Premier Plastic is the best. I also had wonderful experience with the staff at Virtua surgical center in Sewell. Okay I'm rambling...I know it is the pics you have been waiting for : )
I can't imagine the depth of your personal suffering and self-esteem challenges. We are all praying that you get well and have as little discomfort as possible. You are not alone!! I know you have read my story as well as the stories of many others who are in, or have been through, plastic surgery HELL. In the end, most of us get some kind of relief as I know you will. It will be OK and thank God for your supportive hubby.
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My hell has certainly of my own making....starting in 1983!
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I recently read a review where the results were similar... can't remember who but she went back to her surgeon two weeks later and he released the skin that had stuck to her ribcage ( same as you) ...her breast quickly fluffed back to normal...
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A little over month since fat transfer

Still would not be caught dead in swimsuit. If I could get that area filled in. So far the fat is staying over my ribs. I was actually caved in when you touched it. I did loose fat where indention is on the upper left hand side. Of course I torture myself by looking at the beautiful fat transfers who actually have cleavage 6 months out.
If you can afford another procedure, my doctor can actually create new breast tissue and you get an incisionless, reverse tummy tuck as a benefit. He does this by taking the skin from the upper abdominal area (via dozens of tiny needle price and not an unsightly incision) and advances the tissue upward to create new breast tissue. He helps it to take root in its new home, by requiring the patient to wear Kenisiology-type tape under the breasts for 6-10 weeks. I needed this type of reconstruction since my implants also had done a number on me....If you read my blog, there is an unhappy camper. I don't think she followed the post surgery directions and that's why hers failed....I know it sucks that we bought into the idea of having of perfectly implanted C-cups, only to have the cold implants rule over our minds-- they were always your mind, right--and destroy our lovely breast.
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What an amazing experience. Did you ever mention the price of your procedure? I am assuming you had to make a trip there for consult and back for surgery. I have heard some docs will do like a computer consult with live interaction. I live in jersey. Do you know if I could fly post op? My dr had talked about doing a flap from back muscle . But decided he could fix it without doing that. I would so love to have cleavage. Right now I would just like some normalcy in left breast. The thought of wearing swim suit is repulsive.
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Good for you for staying strong!!! Thank you for being so brave in sharing your story. No more plants, just you!!! Time heals all wounds, literally. It could always be worse. I'm taking mine out soon also :)
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