Since 1983 - Voorhees, NJ

I got my first silicone implant above the muscle in 1983. Had the poor self esteem issue. I was a size AA/A prior. After implant I was a C. Both encapsulated very quickly had the capsule "broken" manually under mild sedation. It was in 2006, I was having a breast exam. My Dr. friend said, how do you stand these being so hard. I think I had just gotten used to it. Although I was very self conscious of getting hugs from people...so I had them replaced. To find they were both ruptured. So I got saline this time. The left one quickly encapsulated. Had it redone again. Same thing. 2007 I went to different PS and got Mentor Gel sub muscular.

Things were going well up until a couple of years ago I noticed the left one getting more firm. That process has continued. Occasional pain. I find relief with heating pad. So I had gone to a PS a few months ago. Painted a grim pic of what I would looks like post explantation. So the price was good for a year, so I figured I had time. Well on Aug 3, I was in the ER. Happened to have CT of chest that described rupture. They suggested I see someone sooner rather than later. The ER doctor as well as my gastro are wondering if some of my problems that started occurring in 2008 aren't some how related.

I see a neuro for hyper excitable peripheral nerve disorder. Cramp fasiculation syndrome. New onset migraines. My lungs were very bad from 2008 thru approx 2011. That is better. Get SOB quite easily. Extreme fatigue. So I saw a new PS yesterday. Was very pleased with the visit. Didn't try to talk me in to anything. I had taken the CT for him to view. Pointed out I do have fat in my breast. For once happy about fat! Although not much breast tissue . He said he would do a partial capsule removal. Not along the chest wall. Also my breast currently look uneven due to the fold not being even. So he is going to try and even that out. He said I would have drains for one week. Suggested I not go to work. I was reluctant to agree with that at first. But after thinking about it I do need sometime to get used to the new me. And work is quite stressfull. I will have to continue my story. I'm out the door for now.

I found it hard to take pics of myself. As with these sub muscular implants they also change the appearance of your breast when you lift things! Another reason they need to go!

Have been in hospital since Monday eve with what is turning out to be yet another strange thing with my body. Had ileous and acsities. Ileous has resolved. Bottom line is they are wondering if it is related at all to possible ruptured implant. I hope I can make it to surgery next week. I don't know how that would work if he could just come here and do it. I need to get better so I can be strong for surgery. Crazy thoughts as I am medicated for pain. Happy my hubby brought my iPad to hospital. It helps to read all the encouraging posts. Thank you all for being here.