“Tired of the Reflection in the Mirror - Vancouver, WA”

I just turned 34 in april, and Have had 3 c sections. My boys are 7,3,and 1. I work out religiously and am still not happy. My saggy breasts and extra skin on my stomach consume my thoughts 24 hours a day. I even dream about it. :( I finally saved the money and I am going for it. Full TT, breast aug and lift!! I have promised myself that when its done, I will be easier on myself and stop nitpicking every flaw I have. I really hope it helps my self esteem!

I leave for honolulu tues, come back, work 2 shifts at my job, and go in for my procedures. Id almost rather skip vacation and have my surgery first!! JUNE 16 Cant come soon enough.

Updated on 9 Jun 2011:
7 days!!!!!! Ugh. Im getting so nervous. I weighed this am (when I got home from vacay) im up 6 lbs. ;( I hope I can get at least some of it off before the surgery.

Updated on 12 Jun 2011:
ok, so 4 day sleft and this am my 3 year old drew allllll over my script sheet for my pain meds and antibiotics. :( UGH! I was already anxious, now Im ready for a breakdown. lol. SOOO nervous. I really hope I turn out as beautiful as all of the rest of the gals on here!

Updated on 14 Jun 2011:
Ok. So its 930 the night of the 14th. I will work a 12 hr shift tomorrow, leave straight from work and head to Vancouver which is 3.5 hr's from here. Sleep a few hours and then go get myself chopped on in the name of beauty. :) I can honestly say that I have moved on from the being scared about size and shape, and im now extremely nervous about going under. I get sooo sick afterwards and before, im a nervous wreck!! Ugh. Gotta think good thoughts!!!!

Updated on 21 Jun 2011:
I am on day 4 of post op. I am having mixed feelings.. I am so tired of laying around and I cant really see my results as I am all binded/taped up. I am sore, but not too terrible. I am swolled so I feel like a cow.
I will say that it was a pretty easy process though. Showed up, got my iv, talked to the dr, next thing u know I am waking up and trying to pee. lol. I wish I could fast forward a month or 2~

Updated on 26 Jun 2011:
Im a terrible updater!! I am a 10 days out?? I think... I am losing track of time!! lol. I think last time I said I was 4.. but i think I was actually more. oops.

Anyhoo.. I am doing GREAT!!! LOVE the boobs. LOVE the tummy.. I wasnt so sure like 3 days ago, but today I got up, got a shower, Put some somewhat normal clothes on (aka not a robe or swim cover up) and went out to run errands. I feel amazing and am super happy. I look so much better today, than I did even 1 day ago! so weird how that works.
Went about 5 hours straight of shopping and picking out flowers for our front yard. Even picked some weeds!! I am swollen of course, but I am finally walking upright yahooooey!! My favorite part??? NO MORE STRETCH MARKS! I also love that the ugly tat i had on my lower stomach is gone, as is the scar from my belly ring, and I have a CUTE belly button for the first time in my life~~~ :) The hubs loves it, and I dont regret a minute of it. I am still contemplating pics, as Its not a secure site.. and that makes me nervous. lol.

Updated on 1 Jul 2011:
I was 2 weeks post op yesterday. Wow guys, im feeling way more swollen then all of u look in your pics. Like seriously.... I look huge. I think im going to call my dr today. I also don't have feeling still..... like none. ??? Someone help!!! Is it normal??

Updated on 9 Jul 2011:
3 weeks and 2 days post op. The swelling has gone waaay down. Amazing what a few days will do. Im pretty ecstatic at ththis point. The dr is floored wit my results and has ok'd me to start walking on the treadmill. I would rather run, but ill take what I can get. I cannot believe these Boobs!! They are amazing. Better than anything I wished for!! Rt now I am in a 36 D..the C was way too small. Im kinda sad they will prob shrink down to a C when its all said and done!! Lol. Anyway. Glad to see ppls progress! Hope everyone is feeling as great as I am at this point!

Updated on 19 Jul 2011:
Hey there. I thought I would just do a little update :) I am 33 days post op! I have been back to work for a while now and its all going well. I actually feel amazing. I still dont have all the feeling in my abdomen back, but Im ok with that for now. Today was an awesome day as my swelling is really going down. I even measured my waist..Im pretty pleased :) My reg jeans finally fit, so thats pretty awesome.
Iised the instructions on the VS website to measure my cup size.. Boy am I confused.. The D bra I bought fits amazingly. Like seriously, there is no gapping or anything. BUT the way I measured says I am a C.. I think I will just go in and have them measure me. The only thing I stress about is that when I get back into my regular gym routine, my boobs will get alot smaller.. I kinda like them the way they are!! lol Anyway, I feel great and I am loving keeping up with everyone. If I ever have a question, i am rest assured I will find the answer here!!

Updated on 22 Jul 2011:
Went to my PS today. Had a spot that looked like it was opening so he looked at it and clipped it. It was a stitch. He said everything looks good, and he doesn't think my breast will really "shrink" anymore and that they look pretty settled.he will check me again next month as I have a tiny little dog ear he wants to address!

Updated on 25 Jul 2011:
ok. so today I am just down in the dumps. I am so tired of the swelling in my abd. I have no patience. I just want to see my flat, sexy tummy that i paid so much money for. GRRR.. :(

Updated on 3 Aug 2011:
Hey Guys. Just thought I would check in and let ya'll know that I am feeling better.. I dont want to discourage anyone from my negativity in the earlier days. I just needed to realize that everyone heals differently. I will be 7 weeks tomorrow, and I am feeling good.. both mentally and physically. I am back at the gym, but not like a crazy woman like before. I am trying to take it easy. I have noticed the swelling is better.. it doesnt get near as crazy at night as it was. If I could do it again.. there are only 2 things I would change.. A. a little bigger in the chest B. lipo on the flanks and legs.. BUT, Once I get back in the gym I can firm up more.. and the good thing about my boobs is I can va va voom them, OR I can sports bra them up and take the kids to school with out my boobs getting to the classroom first. :)

Updated on 8 Aug 2011:
Im just wondering.... Do any of you wear push up bras now that you have implants??? For some reason, I feel like I shouldnt since I paid so much for the implants, but Im thinking I might need to.. I am really bumming that they look so small to me. :( Why am I so weird?? lol. I act like its against the law for me to wear a push up bra. HAHAH

Updated on 12 Aug 2011:
Just wanted to share my new find :) I started working out again...so I have jogged, biked, lifted, ect in this bra, and I swear, its the BEST bra ever!!!
http://www.target.com/C9-Champion-High-Impact-Sports-Bra/dp/B003SZ7ZAW/ref=br_1_20?ie=UTF8&id=C9%20Champion%20High-Impact%20Sports%20Bra&node=370527011&searchSize=30&searchView=grid5&searchPage=1&sr=1-20&qid=1313132106&rh=&searchBinNameList=lifestyle-bin%2Ctarget_com_size-bin%2Ctarget_com_primary_color-bin%2Cprice&searchRank=pmrank&frombrowse=1

Updated on 12 Aug 2011:
uh..yeah, well THAT didnt work the way I wanted it to!! lol.. anyway, its the C9 champion high impact sports bra.. its the one that hooks in the back. NO JOKE.. There is ZERO boobage movement with this sucker :)

Updated on 29 Aug 2011:
Hey guys,
Just thought I would pop in.. I havent been coming on as much, because I was getting obsessed. It was depressing me because in my mind I am healing slower than everyone else, and dont have as good of an outcome. As of right now, I am just kind of on the fence. My breasts are good. I think I probably would of liked saline more, as they seem to be a little rounder where as silicone is very "mushy" or at least on me it seems that way. Im actually not sure how I feel anymore about the tummy. I have a dog ear that needs fixed and drives me nuts, and I hate the way my jeans fit. Im not sure if I am still swollen, or just fat. Either way, I hate to put anything other than scrubs(for work) or yoga pants on. At least I am back at the gym and that makes me feel a little better. I am REALLLLY hoping that I am just still swollen and will look as good as everyone else soon.

Updated on 5 Sep 2011:
Ok, so I left thurs for vegas, got home yesterday. Still cant see the bones in my feet and ankles due to swelling, and can barely even see my toes period due to how HUGE my gut is. SERIOUSLY. Im over this. All we did was walk around.I even layed down a few times during the day to rest my legs and tummy. I am in tears as I look at pictures, and I have no idea what to do. I cant undo what I have done, and I am so afraid this is what I am going to look like forever. I didnt spend 12 grand to look 7 mos pregnant. ( i will add that my boobs are ok. Smaller than planned, but fine) I work too hard to like like crap. Im at the very end of my rope. I will be 3 mos out in like a week. This is ridiculous. ALL the pictures I look at u ladies look at the very least 20x better a week out than I do at this stage. WHAT AM I DOING WRONG????

Updated on 6 Sep 2011:
Ok.im updating again, because after being home few days,and relaxing, the swelling has gone down. So I feel a bit better. Am I happy with the results? No, not yet..but im going to try keeping my eye on the prize. Im going to try to eat a little cleaner and drink more water, and just pray that by the 6 or 7 month mark I will be happy as a clam

Updated on 10 Sep 2011:
Looks like the vegas damage is overthe swelling is back down to wbere it was before the trip. I am happier...not 100% yet,but its seems.like each day is getting better. I have a horrendous.cold, so coughing and sneezing nonstop probably arent helping with the swelling. thx everyone for not completely writing me off. :)

Updated on 15 Sep 2011:
hey ladies. First off, I have to say WOW!! Everyone is looking so great! I am coming up on my 2 mo PO, and I dont know what happened, but I seemed to of miraculously turned a corner. I am finally feeling like I actually had a tummy tuck! lol. Its looking so much better. I still swell at night, but not NEAR AS BAD as before! YAY!!! I like my boobies, HOWEVER, I have decided that I am going to talk to him at my 6mos, about doing a revision, and going bigger...and maybe saline. I am liking the "roundness" that the gals with saline have. I feel like now that mine have dropped into place, they dont have enough shape. It will be a while before I can get it done because I will have to save some cash first, but I am thinking about maybe 550 range for cc's?? Opinions??? Anyway, I have been debbie downer for so long, I wanted to update and let y'all know I am finally feeling better :)

Updated on 7 Nov 2011:
i will be 5 mos post op this month. I scheduled an appt with my PS as I am VERY disappointed. I am getting more and more swollen by the day.. .if thats even what it is. No joke.. my husband even said my stomach looks bigger than it did before I had the surgery. Not only that but I have a dog ear, and then a large "bump" on the left side above the incision, and then what seems to be a lump or something next to my bb on the rt side... seriously seems like an entire redo is in order. I am sooooo frusterated. I didnt pay this much money to look like this. I am SOOO friggin discouraged. Im not even going to post pics as I am very grossed out. (I wear my husbands scrub tops now, just to hide the swelling..NO JOKE) :( I am also deleting my pics. I cant stand looking at them.