36 Years of Age, Cohesive Gel 200cc Over Muscle - Can't Wait to Get Them Out!

I had relatively small cohesive gel implants put in in 2007. I was always very small, and always dreamed of having "normal" breasts. While my breasts protruded out from my body, they didn't have any hang to them - almost cone-like in shape. I always felt as if that made me insufficient as a woman. In my late 20's I had the funds, and figured I would treat myself to something I had always wanted.

I never wanted to have large breasts, I figured that would look too obvious on my small frame (105 lbs at the time, and only 5'1"). I did the rice test, and my surgeon was shocked that what I was looking for was only around 200cc , but was very supportive of my choice. I had gone into the process thinking that I wanted to get saline, as I figured it was the "safer" option, but let myself be talked into getting the cohesive gel instead.

Surgery was fine, no issues. I was out shopping the next day. At first I loved them - i actually felt normal. Over the next year I gained about 10-15lbs. At the time I just figured it had to do with lifestyle changes that had also occurred around the same time. While I ate relatively well and worked out most days of the week, there was nothing I could do to shake the weight.

Jump forward a couple of years, I wanted to get off of hormonal birth control, and figured that a copper IUD was the way to go. It seemed like the perfect solution - birth control without the hormones (I've never tolerated drugs well in general, and wanted to reduce or eliminate all drug intake). Immediately after getting the IUD I started getting cyst like acne on my face, chest and back. It's super embarrassing. Doctors were stumped, and could only offer up that it was my body's response to no longer being on the pill. As the years went on, the acne stayed, and I developed a slew of other symptoms. My weight continued to increase, my energy level decreased, my hair began to fall out in excessive amounts, my memory failed on a regular basis, brain fog was a reoccurring issue (words would disappear from my mind in mid sentence, and still do), libido plummeted, the ability to orgasm disappeared (I know! how does that happen?!?!), and anxiety/racing thoughts.

I did some online research, and found that there are other women who had been experiencing the same symptoms who also had the copper IUD. I had it taken out immediately - and while my symptoms didn't disappear, some did improve (hair is better, and orgasms are back - yay!, and some of the mind issues have been lessened). However the things that are bothering me the most - the weight, acne, and overall brain fog - are still an issue. That got me thinking. If my body reacted so strongly to a little piece of copper, which was inserted for utilitarian purposes, what could these implants be doing to me (which were done for purely cosmetic reasons)? While I only made mental notes of the symptoms after the IUD since the acne made it very obvious, some of the other symptoms were there before, specifically the weight gain, brain fog and hair loss. Those I just wrote off as part of the aging process - but now I'm thinking there's more to it.

While I wanted the implants to make me feel "normal" breast-wise, I'd give anything to feel "normal" again in every other aspect. I guess I'm glad I didn't go bigger, as I feel the decision to have them removed might be a bit harder. There's a tiny bit of me that wants to keep them, but then the rest of me hates that part.

I want the capsule removed, along with the implants. As the capsule can absorb and contain the silicone, I want it gone. Most surgeons in my area (Toronto, Ontario) will do an explant, however most want to leave the capsule as it gives a better look. I'm not interested in the look, and am more interested in my health going forward. I did some research, and found a few surgeons who will remove the capsule - and have a consultation booked for the end of May. I wish I could bump it up, but will take what I can get. I can't wait to have them removed, and hopefully begin to feel a bit more like myself.