TT and BA 19/09/2012 - 2 Days to Go, Nervous As Hell, Stressed and Excited - Turkey
Hi... I've been reading peoples reviews on here...
- 17 Sep 2012
- 1 day pre
I've been reading peoples reviews on here for a few weeks, in the count down to my own TT, it is now 2 days to go, so thought I would join the community instead of tossing and turning in bed all night.
I am 23, I had my daughter when I was 20, and I was huge when I was pregnant, gaining around 50lbs, I am only 5ft 2, so as you can imagine, this is a big strain in such a small amount of time. Whilst I was around 8m pregnant I noticed a stinging feeling at the bottom of my bump and a small loose area of skin. On my next visit to the midwife, I asked what it was, and she casually explained that it was where the elasticity in my skin had completely gone. Horrific news to hear at such a young age.
After giving birth to my daughter, who was a tiny 6lb 7oz, I was left immediately with a saggy tummy, as I say the mummy tummy. It was awful, I didn't have a belly button I had (have) a star, It didn't bother me at first as I had such a beautiful baby girl to care for, but I will never forget the look of horror on my nephews face when I reached up to get something out a cupboard and he saw my saggy pouch. This started the complex.
I would wear support knickers, support slips, spanx, you name it, I tried it.
18 months down the line I lost the excess baby weight plus 30lbs more, bringing me to 134lbs. I had separated from my daughters dad, and was back on the single market. It felt so good, after loosing the weight, but my confidence lacked as I got closer to people, bringing anxiety about exposing my tummy. I felt the look of my tummy was an instant turn off, repulsive even.
I was always reassured it was fine, You've had a child, its fine blah, blah, blah. But this would never settle my insecurities, I met my current partner, 1 year ago, he didn't see my tummy until 6 months into the relationship, as I would always have a compression vest on, when he asked to see, I stood and cried as he looked and told me reassuringly that it was fine.
I had always wanted to have a tummy tuck, but it was never a reality, just a dream, until a few months a go I was given the opportunity to go a head with it, so I have done. I booked!!
Its been months of waiting, reading reviews, researching, staring at myself in the mirror LOL, imagining scarring, but I am finally at 2 days pre op.
I am so nervous about scar positioning, recovery time, infections, belly buttons. It has been all I have thought about for the last few months. The weigh up of which is better, a scar or a jelly belly. The answers easy......a flat tum.
I hope my story is comparable to others, and I will upload before and after photos soon.
Please feel free to comment....